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Originally Posted by emmafan123  Cornelius definitely hadn't expected this sort of response from Aspen. He didn't know what he had expected, but it wasn't this. He hadn't even been intending to tell her about how much he was missing her and now that he had, she wasn't taking it well at all. But he realized why as she began to ask her questions, backing away from him and shaking her head back and forth without pause. "I..." he began, but in the next second he saw her expression in a way he never had before. She was looking at him with all of her hurt feelings prominently displayed on her face, her eyes looking at him as though he'd thrown some unforgiveable insult at her. And he didn't like it at all.
"No, Aspen, I didn't mean it like that," he immediately began to speak, his light brown eyes watching her helplessly as he took a couple steps towards her, trying to get her to stay. She didn't understand, and he realized how his words must have sounded to her. "It's not that...It's not that missing you is bad..." He paused, trying to figure out how to explain it all to her.
"I just...I got really.." he searched for the proper word to describe his emotions for when he heard about her kiss with Joao. "...hurt." He glanced over at her with his own set of hurt feelings prominently displayed on his expression, staring straight back at her. "And I felt really stupid, because I thought..." He paused again, his light brown eyes falling to the snow beneath their feet, obviously feeling rather stupid once more. "I thought that you liked me." He said it quietly, brows furrowing for a moment before he quickly moved on, trying not to linger on the statement.
"So, no, over the break, I did not think that missing you would be a good thing," Cornelius explained, looking back to her as he attempted to get her to understand. "Because...Because I should still be mad at you." Shouldn't he? After what happened, shouldn't he have the right to be upset? "And I was, but then..." He searched her expression, once more finding himself taking in every detail of her features. "But then, but then I just kept thinking about you, and I just started missing you. And I only wished that I could stop missing you because I felt like...like I was being stupid again, and getting my hopes up."
Before he could stop himself, he had said something else without thinking, "Please don't go yet."
"I DO like you. You know it, too, because I've told you. You've told me. We've talked about it," Aspen began, no longer retreating but.... entirely exasperated. "I don't know why you choose to forget. I guess I get why you're hurt and I never meant to do that, but what am I supposed to do about it now? If you dont' want to miss me, or hang out anymore,or anything - then fine. Just say so and you won't see me." Though, he was already pretty good at not seeing her when he wished for it to be that way.
Aspen crossed her arms and refused to look at him. She already knew he was hurt, she didn't want to see it again right now. Selfish, perhaps, but she couldn't take it at the moment. She had enough stress, enough uncertainty in her life. Cornelius was that one person that helped alleviate it - not add heaps of stress TO it.
"If you should still be mad at me, then be mad. I'll stay out of your way." Entirely. Completely. Cease to exist. "That'll help you not miss me."
She wouldn't say so, because it ... it bothered to even THINK it, but she did think Cornelius was being stupid. Why would he keep hope down? Why was he THIS bothered? Why was kissing SO important? With her little goblin still clasped tightly in her palm, Aspen stared off at a tree.
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