Lexi gave his hand a little squeeze and then kissed the top of it before patting it with her other hand. Then she heaved a great sigh. "Well... I wasn't ready to accept it... I wasn't prepared because it was so sudden. I think if I could have been ready to face it it would have been easier. But I got through it surrounding myself with people that loved me and I talked about her a lot. The good stuff, you know. I have a portrait of her at home and she talks to me a lot and that helps. But when I am not near the portrait I write to her a lot. Just write in a notebook all things that I feel and what she has missed in my life," she said with a strained voice. Dora was still a tough subject for her to broach. Sighing again she leaned her head on Sabel's shoulder and said, "But that is just me. Maybe you can think up something different. But talking about it really did help. I thought I would explode otherwise."