Lex felt horrible when Matt told her that he had ended up in the hospital because of something she had done. How can you look at a person that you've loved for so long that you cheated because you were scared off what you were feeling? Especially after hearing wat she put him through. She watched as he went to the couch again and debated whether or not he would let her get any closer than she already was. Willing to take the risk, she crouched down next to the couch and began to explain herself.
"When we first started going out I was more excited than anything, and that's including getting the lead role to any play we've done or hitting one of the highest and hardest notes that most people can't even do," she started. "But then you were so nice to me and showed me what it was to love and be loved. I started to feel bad because it felt as if you were putting more effort and emotions into this relationship than I was, so when Ian started showing me attention I started to flirt back because I knew that it wouldn't lead to anything serious. Then one night things got too out of hand, and we promised never to bring it up because whether or not you want to believe it, I loved you and didn't want to hurt you anymore than I already knew I had." She sighed as she shakily ran a hand through her hair. This was a lot harder than she expected it to be. "So I lied to you about everthing thinking that one dy I wouldn't feel so guilty whenever I looked at you, but before I ever got the nerve to tell you Ian already did."
She knew it wasn't the smartest ofthings for her to do, but she took his hand in hers and squeezed it gently. "I swear Matt, I never meant to hurt you," she told him as a few tears ran down her face. |