This was true.... and that was one thing that had been hard to mentally disagree with Blake on - why would one of the first things she said to him be that she was going out with somebody? After they had kissed before Christmas?? And it really wasn't her fault at all, as Blake had kissed her after she'd barely said hello. I know, she said, replying to both statements, her tears nearly stopping as he kissed her lightly on the cheek. I just feel like the biggest jerk right now, she added, her voice clearly showing how miserable she felt with herself at the moment. And still she felt worse about this!! Why was it that everytime she was upset, she felt like that was even worse than hiding what she felt??