 Irish eyes || Nanny McPhee
Kate went down on her knees infront of him. "This is going to sound rediculous but -- just hear me out -- please?"
"It must have looked horrible," she began. "To see what you saw in that rediculous paper. It's true I still care for Josh, Amos. I can't lie to you about that, but please listen to my reasons why."
"When I came to Hogwarts I was already a broken girl -- damaged from my father's marriage and being ignored by the one person I thought I could count on for the rest of my life. I came her not wanting to be close to anyone. I was here to learn and study and get ahead in life so I could make something of myself and one day prove to my idiotic step-mother that Wizards are fantastic in what they do."
"I had made a few friends while I was in Diagon Alley. Cameron, Camira, Lawliet and you of course. But I still hadn't really let myself be open with anyone. I didn't want to let anyone in. If I did -- I knew I'd only end up hurting myself all over again and I wanted to avoid that fate at all costs."
"Josh was a turning point for me. He made me see how important it is to let people in so they can help you. Not all people are going to be like my father and my step-mother. If it hadn't been for Josh I probably would have suffered through our 7 years at Hogwarts -- and quite possibly the rest of my life -- feeling completely alone."
"Josh has made it perfectly clear that --" she chose her words carefully. "-- that we will always be -- just friends. The kiss was an accident on both our parts. But I was the one who acted on it, and I was the one who asked. If you're to be angry with anyone, be angry with me. Not Josh. A friendship like the one you two have is not worth loosing because of some stupid girl like me. He was so concerned after the fact -- he knew that there was a strong bond of trust between you two and he was well aware he broke it. It's not his fault at all --"
She drew in another sharp, cold breath that stung her painfully.
"It's my fault -- I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Amos. You have to belive me that I would never want to hurt you. Ever --" her voice was breaking now but she wasn't about to cry. She didn't deserve it. She was the one who'd caused the trouble -- caused Josh to continue his not so great day and caused Amos to feel this way.
Last edited by NannyMcPhee; 12-16-2007 at 04:54 AM.
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