 ❄ Chasing Waterfalls & Wonder ❄ | Mama Badger | Eva's Soul Sister | An OG™ | It's all in the Numbers
She was not ready. Even though Professor Khanna had said enough practicing, Emma didn't feel ready to confront her fears. She knew she had a fear of spiders, but she also wasn't convinced it was her ultimate fear and the more she concentrated and focused the more she realized that it wasn't what her boggart was going to take the shape of. Which almost saddened the hufflepuff. She was okay with being called 'spider girl' even if it felt embarrassing in the moment, at least she knew how to handle that.
But as her peers went before her to approach the boggart, she knew then that her greatest fear was loneliness. It was strange then how the feelings resurfaced every time her father was called away for a medical emergency. How every year up until this year, the aches she felt deep in her heart and soul when her brothers boarded the Hogwarts Express. The feelings of people talking around her and exclusion. She always strived to be friends with everyone but she also knew that she wasn't everyone's cup of tea and those feelings hurt. She wanted to be friends with even those who disliked her. She wanted connection with everyone, and the fears of not meeting those expectations were raw and painful.
But the thing that troubled her now, was how did a boggart showcase loneliness? Was it going to show her in a locked room by herself? With everyone around her in another room at a party? Did she make it funny by removing everyone's pants? Putting them in clown attire?
No time to consider too much, as she heard "Montgomery, Emma" and the twelve year old took a step forward, hoping more than anything that it would just be spiders but knowing it wouldn't be....
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___________________You should take your little finger and just point it in the mirror.
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