Allegra nodded understandingly as Adam assured her there was nothing to fix, that it wasn't her fault. She knew this on an intellectual level, that logically there was nothing for her to do that could speed up a more internal process for him. But she couldn't help worrying that the blame wasn't truly all on him as he claimed, that it was shared. She appreciated his words, and they did comfort her, but she felt there was more than that.
"I didn't give you a chance to catch up, though," Allegra complained softly, shaking her head as one of her hands moved to his chest. How could he have moved past it when there was no time for him to process? "I realized, so suddenly, how big of a mistake I made and I ran back to you and tried to win you over, and I..." She bit her lip softly, considering her words. "I just thought about me, and how much I had already processed, and I didn't give you the time to catch up." She paused. "I didn't give you a chance to be angry with me."
They'd gone straight from misery to reunion, as if she'd just been on a vacation or something of the sort. But she had really messed up, and hurt him and he had every right to be upset with her. She didn't give him time to process it all back then and now here it was, weeks later, that same frustration bursting at the seams. "And you were right to be angry with me. I didn't give you any time."
Allegra suddenly realized the difference between this conversation and all the others. He was looking at her. She smiled faintly at the realization, admiring his blue eyes and trying her best to keep her thoughts straight. "But... you need time now, and you should take it."
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