Adam could tell that Louisa was trying to push back tears that were either flowing all ready, or perhaps were about to start by the whimper like noise that came out of her mouth. Adam wished that Louisa could look up and look at him so he could see her eyes. But before Adam could do anything to try and get Louisa to look at him she had started talking again, and Adam just stood there listening to her. He was silent once she had finished speaking, and the silence seemed to hang there even more painfully than it had when he was waiting for her to say something back. Adam knew what he needed to say, but at the same time he saw how broken Louisa obviously was and he knew that it had been him that had made her this way. The soft side of Adam wanted to close the distance between them and take her in his arms, but the realistic side of Adam realized that that would be a mistake. Louisa had hurt him and after a long time of reflecting Adam realized that it was his unwillingness to let himself be angry at Louisa for kissing Joao back and not saying what he felt he really needed to say that led things to end between them. And truthfully Adam couldn't do that anymore. Adam couldn't keep protecting Louisa the way he had been.

"I won't lie to you Louisa," Adam finally managed to start out, looking at the ground as he spoke. "I did hate you and Paulie for a really long time." And it was the truth. There was no other way to describe the anger he had towards them both. "And I don't think that I will ever be able to forget that what you two did to me hurt me in a way that I didn't even know was possible." Adam shifted his glance towards the wall. "I thought about apologizing for the way that I reacted to you both in the great hall, but....I'm not going to." Pause. "Because for too long I have been putting other people's feelings ahead of my own. I've been too concerned about how my actions could be effecting everyone else that I haven't been acting for myself. And that's not far to me or anyone else."

Adam reached up and ran his hand through his hair. "But Louisa you were the first friend I made at Hogwarts, and I thank the stars that I fell on top of you that day in Diagon Alley. I would say let's try to work on getting back to the way things were before, but honestly I don't think that's possible because I've changed. And I'm changing. But I want you to be apart of my life and I just hope that maybe you and I can finally have the relationship that I think we deserve. The kind of friendship were you can know where I really stand."