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At this moment, Jonathan just felt sad but he didn't want Lewis to know that so pulling off another one of his blank expressions would do the trick. He starred at him, no longer knowing on what to do. It was the first time that he had felt so angry at someone and wanted to beat him so badly. Jonathan was impatient and very arrogant, but this one is different. He couldn't no longer even answer Lewis if he decided to ask him some more. All that Jonathan wants is to make it all go away... make the pain go away... make everything go away.
Although, right now, the chances of it going away would be harder than the first time when they broke up.
Jonathan coughed to make the hurting beating on his chest go away. He scratched the back of his neck as he looked the ground. What now? Lewis was stuck on the wall and trying to get back to his balance after Jonathan pushed him. Although, it would have been better to see him on the ground. But, that's not the point right now. Jonathan just needed that. He just needed to let something out because he could no longer take it all in... the pain, the madness, the soreness that he is feeling.
We all made mistakes.
Jonathan's eyes widened. He was referring to him, right? Mistake? They all made one. Him, for leaving. Him, for kissing her. And her, for cheating. Jonathan let out another deep breath and sighed. He wanted to agree but his pride wouldn't let him. He still doesn't like Lewis, so why would he let him see that he would agree to what he just said. So, NO. However, he didn't answer him nor gave him a reaction. He just stood there with his eyes still on the corridor.
I'm sorry. I mean it.
Jonathan's head shifted even more away from Lewis. He could never accept it. Never. For as long as Jonathan still remembers, he could never forgive him about it. It's all I can give you right now. Jonathan's head snapped back at his direction. One of his hand was on his waist and his breathing got heavier. "You can never give me anything..." he finally spoke, his voice is still strong enough "...not now, not ever" he continued. Jonathan wasn't expecting him to give him anything at all, not even his relationship back. It was already broken in the first place and could never be fixed by something so simple.
So that was it right?
Jonathan glanced over to where his things are at. His book was still opened and so was his notebook and bag. Then he saw it, something that he needed to give to Lewis. It will be................ for the best. So he glared at Lewis, don't leave just yet.
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