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HaRoHeGiNeLu · 03-05-2012, 06:31 AM

Text Cut: Treyen

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Originally Posted by Lockhartian

See? She was the healthy one, eating toast. Arya would be forever disappointed at him for eating nothing but ice cream since last night. And a cupcake. At least it was something. He didn't need ice cream, he really needed Aaron, but this was as close as he was going to get from his best friend right now.

And Arya...wouldn't understand. Or, she would, but it was different.

The moment she took his hand Treyen realized they were okay, and now believed he'd made the right decision by given her some space yesterday, even if moments ago he'd regretted that decision when he couldn't find her.

And she was fine. That was always good. Ellie was probably still tired from the game as they all were, but she got no injuries. All good. He actually meant to ask something else but...oh, no, never mind, she answered that as well. "Alec was very lucky." Very lucky Treyen didn't get on his way, of course, because that's what prevented her from getting the snitch.

AH! The Common Room? No wonder he didn't find her. But he wasn't going to mention it, he just nodded. It was entirely irrelevant that he'd been looking for her for the past...well, he couldn't remember since when but the search begun after he got ready to leave his Common Room.

His eyes dropped to their hands, and he shook his head.

No, he didn't want to talk about it. He already knew what she was going to say, or thought he did. So, why hear it confirmed. Her eyes, however, held some sort of concern he wished she didn't have, because he'll be fine. He'll go to Vindictus and apologize for leaving the way he did, and then move on. So, really, he'll be okay. But the look on her eyes wouldn't go away, right? She'd still wonder about what had happened...and, he kind of owed her an explanation, no? At least for dropping her broom.

He'll explain. Or try to. She wasn't going to understand, she never did, but he'll explain. "Vindictus wasn't right about the sabotage thing, Ellie," because he'd never do such a thing, to anyone, he was a real Hufflepuff, and tried to be as fair as possible, "But...it probably isn't very hard to catch someone, as he said, and...I couldn't help you. I was the closest to you and couldn't be there for you." Of course, when they fell to the ground together, he did take the worst of it by landing first, but when Alec took the snitch, all Treyen was left with was Ellie's broom, not Ellie. What if they'd been in the air over 50 feet up the grounds, eh? The fall would've been mighty different than this one, because they'd been fairly close to the grass. "Don't interrupt me." In case she wanted to disagree with him before he was done. "I didn't even help you after the game was over." She obviously noticed this, because she was seeing him TODAY. "And I felt so useless." THAT is the real reason for all of this. Because Vindictus had been partially right. "And yes, I know that I cannot keep you away from harm all the time, and that I can't expect to catch everyone who falls," words from others he's talked about this. And by others he meant Keefer. And Alec. Alec had been amazingly helpful. "But I still felt useless." What was the point of having him around if he didn't do anything? Mmmhmm, Keefer had mentioned the 'trying' part, but Treyen still was not accepting it.

He'd failed, not only Ellie, but Keefer as well, because he'd been more concerned with his girlfriend's well-being during the game. Can anyone blame him for doing so?

"Feel free to disagree with me whichever way you like." Because she was going to disagree with him. Others have done so.

"Don't," Ellie said. Don't even attribute Alec's victory with luck. She didn't want to hear it. He had...way too many advantages for that to be the case. But even if it was...yeah, she didn't want to hear about it. She just wanted to wallow in her defeat.

Treyen was shaking his head. And although she wanted to be a good friend/girlfriend/person and just accept that, she opened her mouth to fight it. To beg him to explain things to her. Mainly what was going on in his head. The things she couldn't read on his face. Emotions weren't thoughts.

Her begging never happened, as he made it unnecessary, voluntarily continuing, despite the initial physical response.

Her toast arrived just as he began, and she forked it one-handed. Her other hand, holding Treyen's, wasn't going anywhere.

Ellie very nearly rolled her eyes. She never believed for a second that Treyen sabotaged the match. Especially if that time they collided was supposed to be the actual act. Treyen wouldn't do something so risky. Something that could cause them to fall. Cause her to be injured. Though she was sure that not-so-pretty bruise on her left hip was because of that.

'I couldn't help you....couldn't be there for you'. As soon as those words left his mouth, Ellie knew that THAT was what was eating him up. Stupid, it was, for him to stress over THAT. Again, Ellie refrained from rolling her eyes. And she chewed fast to finish that last bite of her toast she'd taken to say something.

No interruptions stopped her.

She took another bite, then, as she continued to listen. Silently, unfortunately, because she kept wanting to interrupt. To disagree with nearly everything he was saying that was degrading to himself. Really, she hated hearing Treyen talk like this. Especially calling himself 'useless'. Where did that even come from?

And....now she could talk. After she swallowed, of course. "First of all, you're not useless, Treyen." She never wanted to hear him call himself that again. But she tended to limit his vocabulary, and then contradict herself, saying he should say whatever he wanted, so she didn't voice this. "Secondly, I don't care that you didn't help me after the match. I'm glad you didn't, actually. There were way too many people crowding me, unnecessarily concerned." Ellie sort of took Treyen's lack of interest as a sign that he knew her way too well to fret over a fall from such a low height. "And thirdly, you tried to help, didn't you? Why else would you have had my broom?" Which he DROPPED, by the way. She wasn't going to get into that either, though. "I think that's more than anyone should have expected." Pay no mind to Vindictus. "It's certainly more than I expected." There was also no mention of how, if he hadn't caught her broom, she might have been able to regain control over it and safely fly herself to the ground. It mattered not.

"I think....you expect too much of yourself. You say that you know that you can't always prevent things, but I don't think you believe it." She knew that feeling well. The knowing versus believing. She knew what she was talking about. "And you should. You shouldn't beat yourself up over this." Over what Vindictus said, or anyone said, or what he might have drawn from his own conclusions, regardless. "I also think that your intent...just the fact that you want to prevent bad things from happening...is what makes you a fantastic boyfriend...and person. Not useless." So he shouldn't feel that way simply because he couldn't succeed. He should feel good about himself for merely thinking about trying to catch her.

She was done disagreeing. Shown by the fact that she took more toast.

03-05-2012, 06:31 AM	#183 (permalink)
HaRoHeGiNeLu Bicorn Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: EST Posts: 16,579 Hogwarts RPG Name: Valerie Warren First Year x8	Satisfied Neon Text Cut: Treyen Quote: Originally Posted by Lockhartian See? She was the healthy one, eating toast. Arya would be forever disappointed at him for eating nothing but ice cream since last night. And a cupcake. At least it was something. He didn't need ice cream, he really needed Aaron, but this was as close as he was going to get from his best friend right now. And Arya...wouldn't understand. Or, she would, but it was different. The moment she took his hand Treyen realized they were okay, and now believed he'd made the right decision by given her some space yesterday, even if moments ago he'd regretted that decision when he couldn't find her. And she was fine. That was always good. Ellie was probably still tired from the game as they all were, but she got no injuries. All good. He actually meant to ask something else but...oh, no, never mind, she answered that as well. "Alec was very lucky." Very lucky Treyen didn't get on his way, of course, because that's what prevented her from getting the snitch. AH! The Common Room? No wonder he didn't find her. But he wasn't going to mention it, he just nodded. It was entirely irrelevant that he'd been looking for her for the past...well, he couldn't remember since when but the search begun after he got ready to leave his Common Room. His eyes dropped to their hands, and he shook his head. No, he didn't want to talk about it. He already knew what she was going to say, or thought he did. So, why hear it confirmed. Her eyes, however, held some sort of concern he wished she didn't have, because he'll be fine. He'll go to Vindictus and apologize for leaving the way he did, and then move on. So, really, he'll be okay. But the look on her eyes wouldn't go away, right? She'd still wonder about what had happened...and, he kind of owed her an explanation, no? At least for dropping her broom. He'll explain. Or try to. She wasn't going to understand, she never did, but he'll explain. "Vindictus wasn't right about the sabotage thing, Ellie," because he'd never do such a thing, to anyone, he was a real Hufflepuff, and tried to be as fair as possible, "But...it probably isn't very hard to catch someone, as he said, and...I couldn't help you. I was the closest to you and couldn't be there for you." Of course, when they fell to the ground together, he did take the worst of it by landing first, but when Alec took the snitch, all Treyen was left with was Ellie's broom, not Ellie. What if they'd been in the air over 50 feet up the grounds, eh? The fall would've been mighty different than this one, because they'd been fairly close to the grass. "Don't interrupt me." In case she wanted to disagree with him before he was done. "I didn't even help you after the game was over." She obviously noticed this, because she was seeing him TODAY. "And I felt so useless." THAT is the real reason for all of this. Because Vindictus had been partially right. "And yes, I know that I cannot keep you away from harm all the time, and that I can't expect to catch everyone who falls," words from others he's talked about this. And by others he meant Keefer. And Alec. Alec had been amazingly helpful. "But I still felt useless." What was the point of having him around if he didn't do anything? Mmmhmm, Keefer had mentioned the 'trying' part, but Treyen still was not accepting it. He'd failed, not only Ellie, but Keefer as well, because he'd been more concerned with his girlfriend's well-being during the game. Can anyone blame him for doing so? "Feel free to disagree with me whichever way you like." Because she was going to disagree with him. Others have done so. "Don't," Ellie said. Don't even attribute Alec's victory with luck. She didn't want to hear it. He had...way too many advantages for that to be the case. But even if it was...yeah, she didn't want to hear about it. She just wanted to wallow in her defeat. Treyen was shaking his head. And although she wanted to be a good friend/girlfriend/person and just accept that, she opened her mouth to fight it. To beg him to explain things to her. Mainly what was going on in his head. The things she couldn't read on his face. Emotions weren't thoughts. Her begging never happened, as he made it unnecessary, voluntarily continuing, despite the initial physical response. Her toast arrived just as he began, and she forked it one-handed. Her other hand, holding Treyen's, wasn't going anywhere. Ellie very nearly rolled her eyes. She never believed for a second that Treyen sabotaged the match. Especially if that time they collided was supposed to be the actual act. Treyen wouldn't do something so risky. Something that could cause them to fall. Cause her to be injured. Though she was sure that not-so-pretty bruise on her left hip was because of that. 'I couldn't help you....couldn't be there for you'. As soon as those words left his mouth, Ellie knew that THAT was what was eating him up. Stupid, it was, for him to stress over THAT. Again, Ellie refrained from rolling her eyes. And she chewed fast to finish that last bite of her toast she'd taken to say something. No interruptions stopped her. She took another bite, then, as she continued to listen. Silently, unfortunately, because she kept wanting to interrupt. To disagree with nearly everything he was saying that was degrading to himself. Really, she hated hearing Treyen talk like this. Especially calling himself 'useless'. Where did that even come from? And....now she could talk. After she swallowed, of course. *"First of all, you're not* useless, Treyen." She never wanted to hear him call himself that again. But she tended to limit his vocabulary, and then contradict herself, saying he should say whatever he wanted, so she didn't voice this. "Secondly, I don't care that you didn't help me after the match. I'm glad you didn't, actually. There were way too many people crowding me, unnecessarily concerned." Ellie sort of took Treyen's lack of interest as a sign that he knew her way too well to fret over a fall from such a low height. "And thirdly, you tried to help, didn't you? Why else would you have had my broom?" Which he DROPPED, by the way. She wasn't going to get into that either, though. "I think that's more than anyone should have expected." Pay no mind to Vindictus. "It's certainly more than I expected." There was also no mention of how, if he hadn't caught her broom, she might have been able to regain control over it and safely fly herself to the ground. It mattered not. "I think....you expect too much of yourself. You say that you know that you can't always prevent things, but I don't think you believe it." She knew that feeling well. The knowing versus believing. She knew what she was talking about. "And you should. You shouldn't beat yourself up over this." Over what Vindictus said, or anyone said, or what he might have drawn from his own conclusions, regardless. "I also think that your intent...just the fact that you want to prevent bad things from happening...is what makes you a fantastic boyfriend...and person. Not useless."** So he shouldn't feel that way simply because he couldn't succeed. He should feel good about himself for merely thinking about trying to catch her. She was done disagreeing. Shown by the fact that she took more toast. __________________ a *practical* person, who *may be considered a perfectionist, perhaps you like being organised* or *paying close attention to detail*, you are...