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There was the reaction that she had been expecting. It sort of brought a smile to the fourth year's face, knowing that she still knew how her best friend would react to some things. Still, that didn't make Selina's words sting any less. "Yes, but you are not entirely right," Kurumi replied between a few coughs. "It's not just because of one matches...its all the matches." She paused for a moment to try and figure out how best to go about saying this without turning it into a Kurumi pity party. She didn't want pity, least of all Selina's. "I am not mediocre when it comes to Quidditch. In all the matches I have played in, I have yet to bring the team to victory. With so much riding on the Seeker, you all deserve someone who can deliver. I can't." Those were facts, not speculation. Kurumi's record showed that. She was ashamed looking at the record books...one snitch grab. She was surprised that the Gryffindor team hadn't thrown tomatoes at her yet.
Kurumi swallowed again, and turned her head away from Selina. Had she ever told her the reason she had tried out in the first place? Merlin, if Selina thought she was mad now she would be furious after hearing this. "Selina...my reason for even trying out was completely selfish. I wasn't thinking about anyone but myself. I thought that..." Oh boy, here we go. "...that if I made the team I would feel connected to Adam since he loved the sport so much. That is the only reason." She paused. Best to probably keep talking so that Selina couldn't explode just yet. "I've had fun and I've loved being with everyone and feeling like I was a part of something...but just because you attach a horn to a horse doesn't make it a unicorn. You've taught me a lot Selina, turned me in to a fair flyer, but Quidditch just isn't for me. Next term I'll have OWLs on top of my prefecting duties, yearbook, and Gobstones. I can't do it all Selina."
Selina's mind was reeling. Kurumi couldn't do it all. Well, Selina knew that, but it did not making hearing it out loud any less painful. Of course, she knew Adam was the reason why her best friend joined the team; however, over time, Selina felt at least, that Quidditch became their thing. Selina was the youngest player on the team. She always had been and so there was a disconnect with the older players. She was the baby. So with Kurumi on the team she had a place, a friend. Now things had changed and she felt part of the team, but Kurumi's presence had been the catalyst to her change. Without Kurumi would everything revert back to the way things were? She hoped not... she needed Kurumi. It was selfish, yes, but they were each other's wing men, in a way.
Her blue eyes met violet and she said,
"I know that Kurumi. You think I know you can't bend in every which way? You aren't a magician... well you are but those are details, OH IGNORE THE PHRASE." She sighed, this was not coming out right at all,
"Look, I know why you joined in the first place. Everyone knew and it started out like that. You know, you trying to keep Adam alive here. Time passed though and Quidditch became our thing. Without you I'm afraid I'm gonna lose something special I had in the sport- you."
She felt so foolish for saying all of these things. Selina loved Quidditch and would always love Quidditch. One person could not change her out look on the sport, but playing without Kurumi would really change the way she played. She was used to the girl sharing the Pitch with her.
"I just can't believe you would quit, Rumi. It doesn't seem like you at all. Why are you so afraid of it now? Because you failed? Kurumi... I know this is hard for you to grasp, but people fail. I know you don't, but it happens. That should make you want to fight harder... not give up."