Originally Posted by Snape'sGirlThru&Thru

Originally Posted by BluePhyre

Eirian had thought about just moping around in the dormitory, actually, during the End of Year Feast. It was a very appealing thought to her, for leaving wasn’t an option she’d like to explore. Perhaps if she just hid there, she’d be able to stay here forever. But what would this place be without the people that made it special to her? Hogwarts was a security blanket to the Brazilian girl now- a security blanket she had never expected herself to need.

She was the daughter of an explorer. An explorer who traveled the world! How could she not be good with change? For the first eleven years of her life, Eiri hadn’t known a home. She was in a different city, perhaps even a different country, every week. Things were always changing. But they she changed, and she was made to settle down in Rio, to go to school and make a bond with one person- just one person- to replace her father. Thiago came into her life then, and even as Eirian’s father passed away, she still had that one important role filled. Moving to Wales gave her someone even more important: Jayce. He would come to replace Thiago, and Eiri knew she’d be fine. The changes she went through each time had been hard- she had nearly lost her life to them a couple of times. But she had stuck through it all and survived.

But what about now? Leaving Hogwarts, she’d have no one. Or, it seemed like she’d have no one. Jayce wouldn’t be her constant companion. Cass and Amy would be a thing of the past, just like Braith Vaughn and Thiago. Surely, she’d push them all away. She had a habit of doing that, too. And even now, Eirian was rethinking how she gave up on being an explorer like her father. Could she… possibly leave? It wasn’t like her and Jayce became anything. She had broken up with Thiago nearly a year ago because she had thought Jayce… Well, she had thought he’d be ready. But he never was, and she felt the need to leave.

But Eirian had come down to the feast anyway, because she knew deep down that she had to leave and that being there for the last moments of her life as a student was very important. As she snuck through the giant doors, realizing very quickly that she was quite late, a small smile adorned her face, and tears and bile rose within her. She was… so proud of this place. Of her class. Hogwarts, the cold, indescribable menace of a castle, was her home. Spotting her best friend standing at the Gryffindor table, right where he should be, Eiri walked to join him. Not even at the last feast would she sit with the snakes- she had never made friends with any of them for some reason. As she approached him from behind, she slipped a small, calloused hand into his own and squeezed lightly.

Vashti was opposite of Jayce, and for a moment Eiri was compelled to look at her. She was another one Eirian would be leaving behind… But they weren’t very close. Eirian wasn’t close to anyone except Jayce. Should she say goodbye to the younger girl? She almost felt animosity towards her for finding Jay first, but it was only an automatic response… Returning her gaze to her partner’s back, she realized she couldn’t find anything to say to either of them anyway. Oh well.