Connor saw the fluttering ribbon that was caught on his robes. He got it and placed it in his pocket. He glanced up but noticed that she was looking away. He reached up to run his fingers through her hair just once. It was as soft and silky as he had imagined.

He reached inside his shirt where he kept the charm she had given him close to his heart and pulled it out, twisting it through his fingers as he did when he was alone. "I know about being different Kurumi. I've been this..this thing all of my life." He sighed, then continued. "I'm not a human being and I'm not a veela, I'm a monster and when I get angry I don't like what I become. There are things the veela does to me that I can't control and very literally I become a beast." He turned his head away so she couldn't see his tears as he spoke. "Do you ever wonder why I wear makeup all the time? it's because I can't bear to see my face. It reminds me of the first time I ever got mad enough to transform."

He looked down at his hands and saw the claws they became. "I was a second year at Drumstrang and some of my roommates were not very nice. My fear of fire came out somehow and I woke with three of my roommates standing around my bed. One of them had a muggle lighter and set my bedcurtians on fire. I yelled and screamed and cursed them and tried to put the fire out when one of them laughed at me and I got so mad that I turned into this..this thing. I opened my mouth to speak and instead of words it was more like the caw of a crow." He shuddered at the memory. "I jumped at the guy and I hate to think what I would have done if Luke, Dani's brother, had not pulled me off of the other boy. Luke had me by the arms and pinned me to the nearest chair until I calmed down, but before I did I looked at the full length mirror near the chair and I saw the face of the monster I became." He shuddered. "I wear the makeup so I will never have to see that face again." he didn't care if it made no sense. It helped him. "you say you've never seen what you can do, who you are. I'm afraid of what I am and what I can do." he whispered.

He looked into her eyes. "You say I deserve more than to be the one to turn to to help you forget. The thing is that I want you to." He sighed. "Not so much because I want to make you forget him Kurumi. I don't, I meant what I said earlier. It's because you are the only grirl ever to see the thing that I am and love me anyway. I don't ever want to loose that." He turned to her with tears falling down his pale cheeks creating tracks of tears and black eyeliner. "You said you came to a decision after reading the letter, what decision sweetheart? He asked softly as he reached into his pocket for his green handkerchief and wiped his eyes, removing the makeup.

"I don't want to remove myself from us Kurumi. I want us to have a chance. "