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Erindipity · 05-18-2011, 02:22 AM

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Originally Posted by Cinn-O-Bun

"I do...not," he said as she elbowed him. "I deserved that the other day not right now." OW. That actually kind of hurt, He rubbed his side and stuck his tongue out at her.

Listening to her he sighed and said quietly, "Yeah. I know you do. Why else would you have left me for him." He glanced at her and gave her a small smile. As much as it stung to admit he'd known that he just chose to ignore that particular fact and go for hating Salander instead.

He stretched out his legs in front of him as she spoke. So Salander had money. Least she hadn't step down more like a side step. "Well whenever you do come she'll love to see you." How his mum had come to like Lexi so much over such a short time was beyond him. Then again it hadn't surprised him any.

"Well we find jobs...if we have to. Live our lives and hang out when we can." Wasn't any different for him really though now that he was going to take over he didn't have to go play soldier boy if he didn't want to. "Well it's up to you. I mean if you feel better keep it up but if not then stop. I'm just not used to seeing you act this way that's all."

Oh that was rich. Now he was sticking his tongue out at her. Rolling her eyes slightly she managed to chuckle a bit.

Then her chuckle cut off and her smile vanished. Furrowing her brow she looked at him and for the first time... really told him what she thought. "You and I would never have worked, Ivan. I think we both know that. We were at eachother's throats too often... it was fun sometimes, but I think we would have grown to resent one another in the end. It would have been quite unhealthy. I have too many issues and you are too angry," she said.

"And you should give Sal a shot, Ivan. He is really not a bad guy. He didn't know about you just like you didn't know about him. I am the only one to blame there. I think you have been projecting your anger at the wrong person. REALLY. Knock me off of whatever pedastool you have me on and look at me for who I really am. Might change your mind about a lot of last year's events," she continued.

She then nodded. She would see Ivan's mother like she promised. It would happen regardless. She wouldn't be able to forgive herself if she didn't make it there to see her before she passed.

"I had been thinking about attending WADA, but now I am not so sure. I may want to teach. I have really enjoyed having kids here look up to me and be able to help them. It's been very rewarding, even if it was just a couple here and there. It made me see that if I focus that perhaps I could make a career out of it." She shrugged a bit and looked out over the Courtyard.

"It scares me because I don't feel like myself. And for all my faults and flaws... I kind of really liked being me. I liked speaking my mind when no one else would. Sticking up for people... Now I feel like just coasting along. I feel like a robot or something," she explained as she pulled her scarf tighter around her neck. SIGH.

05-18-2011, 02:22 AM	#254 (permalink)
Erindipity DMT Mountain Troll Join Date: Jul 2009 Posts: 23,587 x8	Quote: Originally Posted by Cinn-O-Bun "I do...not," he said as she elbowed him. "I deserved that the other day not right now." OW. That actually kind of hurt, He rubbed his side and stuck his tongue out at her. Listening to her he sighed and said quietly, "Yeah. I know you do. Why else would you have left me for him." He glanced at her and gave her a small smile. As much as it stung to admit he'd known that he just chose to ignore that particular fact and go for hating Salander instead. He stretched out his legs in front of him as she spoke. So Salander had money. Least she hadn't step down more like a side step. "Well whenever you do come she'll love to see you." How his mum had come to like Lexi so much over such a short time was beyond him. Then again it hadn't surprised him any. "Well we find jobs...if we have to. Live our lives and hang out when we can." Wasn't any different for him really though now that he was going to take over he didn't have to go play soldier boy if he didn't want to. "Well it's up to you. I mean if you feel better keep it up but if not then stop. I'm just not used to seeing you act this way that's all." Oh that was rich. Now he was sticking his tongue out at her. Rolling her eyes slightly she managed to chuckle a bit. Then her chuckle cut off and her smile vanished. Furrowing her brow she looked at him and for the first time... really told him what she thought. "You and I would never have worked, Ivan. I think we both know that. We were at eachother's throats too often... it was fun sometimes, but I think we would have grown to resent one another in the end. It would have been quite unhealthy. I have too many issues and you are too angry," she said. "And you should give Sal a shot, Ivan. He is really not a bad guy. He didn't know about you just like you didn't know about him. I am the only one to blame there. I think you have been projecting your anger at the wrong person. REALLY. Knock me off of whatever pedastool you have me on and look at me for who I really am. Might change your mind about a lot of last year's events," she continued. She then nodded. She would see Ivan's mother like she promised. It would happen regardless. She wouldn't be able to forgive herself if she didn't make it there to see her before she passed. "I had been thinking about attending WADA, but now I am not so sure. I may want to teach. I have really enjoyed having kids here look up to me and be able to help them. It's been very rewarding, even if it was just a couple here and there. It made me see that if I focus that perhaps I could make a career out of it." She shrugged a bit and looked out over the Courtyard. "It scares me because I don't feel like myself. And for all my faults and flaws... I kind of really liked being me. I liked speaking my mind when no one else would. Sticking up for people... Now I feel like just coasting along. I feel like a robot or something," she explained as she pulled her scarf tighter around her neck. SIGH.