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LadyEsperanza 
"You know, when I was a kid, I always kind of assumed that when someone cheated on me, they kind of forfeited the right to be angry and defend their paramour. But then..." He raked a hand through his hair. "If anyone would prove me wrong on that one, lord knows it would be you. And lord knows that I have learned from you not to follow my preconceptions." He sighed, chuckling slightly, and listened to her yelling at him. When she'd finished he looked up at her. "At least I can appreciate the irony. Now, can I defend myself?" Without waiting for the answer, he plowed ahead.
"I did not think that you think you are above me because I'm poor. I did not think that you think yourself above me at all. I'm saying that I think you are above me. That's it. Promise. Although..." His eyes flashed. "I don't want to listen to you defend Jayce right now. I really don't. I'm going to ask you to allow me that- god, stop crying." He stood up and looked at her. "We've made mistakes, okay? You've screwed up, so what? I'm not leaving. I'm mad. I'm hurt. I'm in more pain then I've been in a while, but querida, I'm always going to love you. I followed you everywhere, and you can leave me if you'd like, but I'm never going to stop loving you. So if your alright with it, I'd like to work through this. For which I need you less hysterical, darling." He didn't want to scare her, so he just offered her his hand.
Eirian seethed as Thiago kept his cool. What did she need to do to solicit a proper reaction, for Merlin's sake!? Was he even human!? Up until now she had always thought that she had understood her love - at least understood human nature. But now.. Now Eiri wondered if there could even
be defined human nature! This was against everything that had ever been written, ever been experienced, ever been felt. Thi's rather mild reaction to this was like a pit settling in her stomach, growing into a blossom of brooding anger. "I am not defending anyone but you," she hissed, her tongue sharp on each consonant as she struggled to hold in her rage. "Defending Jay?" Was that what it seemed like? "You were comparing yourself to him, as if he was better than you because you were a beggar child! He was no better, and he
is no better than you! I love you! I made many mistakes. I let myself get too close. All the mistakes were mine... But he is no better than you, and neither am I! I am so below you... I am not even the dirt you walk upon. And no, I am not alright with working through this! You should never trust me... you should not love me."
Stepping back, Eirian wrapped her arms about her, trying not to fall to pieces. Sobs no longer played with her diaphragm, torturing her lungs with strenuous gasps, but she had already broken like a mirror into a thousand pieces. He didn't know what was good for him... He didn't know how to let go. It had always been more than her - Thiago had never given anything up. Nothing except Brasil. Perhaps it was because he was just as abandoned as she thought she was... Leaving and being left hurt like Hell. But if it was to get away from her, then it was for the best.
Everyone else who had left her had been reunited in heaven, right? That had always been for the best.
"I expected you to leave me," Eirian whispered, looking down at her shoes. "Because I thought you had a sense of self-preservation... I thought you would go because you knew when to quit. I believed that you would do what was right for you." Why did he put this daunting task upon her when he was the one with the terrifyingly sound reason? "I am
not leaving you for Jayce," Eiri continued, wiping tears out of her eyes. "I would never, Thi... Never. And even if I could bring myself to be so despicable, take comfort... He is done with me. I have finally chased him away, too. He wants nothing to do with me... and he has the right idea." With another step back, the Slytherin puffed out her cheeks and dug her teeth into her fleshy lower lip. "I am leaving you for you... because for right now, it is what is best for you. I want you so much and I love you so much, Thiago, but you deserve better than me. I can change myself! But... but you do not deserve this... And I do not deserve you..."