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Term 31: May - August 2012 Term Thirty-One: The Time Thief's Escape (September 2077 - June 2078)

 
 
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Over two months had passed and, with some serious counseling from Selina, Kurumi had managed to make her way down to the Great Hall on her own for meals. She had even been wearing something that resembled a genuine smile on her face, but not even that could entirely camouflage the guilt and pain that Kurumi felt every single moment of every single day. Was it time that she just...let go? Accepted that what had happened, what he had seemingly decided, as her new reality? That she would walk through the halls of Hogwarts and he would look the other direction and pretend like she didn't even exist? In a way, she wished that she could do that. Completely shut him out of her mind and heart and go on day to day pretending.... but she couldn't. It just wasn't in her nature to do so.

Kurumi wasn't entirely sure what had told her that now was the time, but something in her had switched and she had asked Lewis to meet her here. She was petrified. Petrified with what she felt she needed to say. Petrified with how he would react. What he would say. Afraid to face him still after everything that had happened...including her sending Selina in her place and breaking yet another promise. Kurumi seemed to be doing that a lot, breaking things. She couldn't be trusted. Not with anyone or anything. Which is why she was even more afraid now. She couldn't bear if she hurt Lewis too...but she knew that she already had....that she was hurting him.

Tugging on the sleeve of her sweater, Kurumi walked through the empty classroom and ran one hand along the wall as she did. Dust particles scattered here and there, catching the light of the sun that came through the window and creating an almost eerie atmosphere as the Gryffindor continued to make her way towards one of the windows in silence.

Once she arrive, Kurumi leaned against it, her back to the rest of the room and looked out the window at nothing in particular as the lump in her throat came back and threatened to suffocate her at the sheer thought of the conversation that loomed. What if he didn't show up this time? He would have every right to after everything she had put him through. Kurumi's forehead leaned against the cold glass of the window and her chest heaved. Her hand reached up and removed Jonathan's necklace from under her sweater for just a moment, squeezing it tight. She still couldn't take it off. She wasn't ready to....she may never be. Then again, Kurumi hadn't been ready for any of this, and it was happening. There was no more running.
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Two months. Two full months. Eight weeks. He had survived eight weeks without talking to Kurumi or seeing her at all outside of class. If anybody had asked him last term if he thought that he could do that he would have probably said that they were crazy. But then again he wouldn't have thought that there would ever be a time that Kurumi didn't want to talk to him. Or see him.

Of course he had known that it wasn't goint to be easy but this...this was just...it didn't make sense to him. As much as he tried to see her side, he just couldn't figure out an explanation for her behavior. She couldn't just decide what was best for him. Unless of course, Selina's assumption was completely wrong and the fact that she was staying away from him because she thought he shouldn't trust her just wasn't true. Only what was it then? Why was she doing this? Especially without giving him any sort of explanation as to why she was doing it. All he knew was that she needed time. And space.

So now after two months had passed he had finally gotten a note from Kurumi, asking him to meet her in that empty classroom today. And he still didn't know what to expect from this meeting. But at least this time he was going to get some sort of explanation out of her. Some sort of reasonable explanation. So that he could argue with her, so that he knew what he was up against. But this, the not knowing, this just sucked. He was back to assuming things, guessing not knowing for sure and he hated it.

After hesitating a couple of seconds outside the classroom, Lewis finally found the courage to open the door and step inside. The moment his eyes fell on her standing at the window with her back turned towards him, he sort of froze in place with the door handle still in his hand. There was a part of him that wanted to have this conversation really really badly but there was also that small part of him that got more and more persistent the longer he stared at Kurumi's back and it was telling him to just turn around and leave again. That he didn't want to hear what she had to say.

Only he did. He just...he HAD to know what she wanted from him. So shaking his head a little as if by doing that he could shake off the bad feelings he had about this impending conversation, Lewis slowly closed the door behind him but didn't really move away from the door. "Kurumi...?" He wanted to just walk up to her, hug her, voice all the confusing thoughts he'd had over the last few months, tell her everything, do something but it was as if his legs were just numb. His whole body felt sort of numb right now. He couldn't move. He could just stand there and look at her, hoping that she would do or say something that would get him out of his stupor.
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The cold glass pressed against her forehead almost served as a reminder that she had to keep a level head through this conversation. She couldn't get overly emotional or else what she wanted to say, what she needed to say, would never come out. In fact, chances were that no words would come out of her mouth. She almost wished that it was raining outside instead of sunny. The sun was taunting her the way it was illuminating the grounds and wrapping it in warmth.

All Kurumi felt right now was cold.

It wasn't the door to the classroom opening that got her attention but a voice. His voice. Kurumi lifted her head and her breath caught in her chest, but she didn't yet turn around. Two months....two months of nothing more than exchanging glances in classes and nothing more....the fact that his first words to her was her own name made her heart pound in her chest as she remembered another conversation where she had asked him to just say her name and her cheeks turned a slight rosy color.

Almost painfully slowly, Kurumi turned around, her body still leaning against the window and her gaze on the ground. With an equal timidness, Kurumi lifted her gaze until her still brown eyes met his green ones and she felt her breath catch in her chest again. Yes, she had looked into his eyes more times than she could count, but there was something about this moment right now that was so intimate, so frightening, so confusing that made it seem like she was looking into them for the first time. She didn't speak just yet, seeing as her voice had seemingly decided to not work right this moment, and instead continued to look at the Hufflepuff with a million and one emotions flickering in her eyes.

Hand still clutching her chest, Kurumi took one last deep breath, "Lewis...." she whispered, an obvious undertone of longing in her voice. She wanted to step forward, away from the window and towards him, but what right did she have to do that? To get close to him? Kurumi didn't think she deserved that right, which is why she stayed exactly where she was, her body trembling slightly.

"Lewis....I...." she began, once again not finishing her sentence but this time due to the sharp pain she felt in her chest for what she had done. Asking Selina to speak to him in her place had been cowardly, but Kurumi couldn't bring herself to leave her bed at that time. She had been so broken. So empty. "Thank you....for coming...." she said instead, chewing on her lip nervously. "I'm....s-s-sorry...for....not showing up that day..." Finishing the first sentence she had started, Kurumi averted her eyes towards the ground - not wanting to see how much pain she had caused someone else she cared about. She was ashamed. All she did was hurt people.
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Lewis felt vulnerable just standing there waiting for Kurumi to turn around or say something. He felt...exposed in the otherwise empty room. So this was it then? This was going to be their first talk since she'd broken up with Jonathan. Since her whole world had turned upside down. Since his world had been turned upside down too. He still didn't know why she had chosen today of all days to have this talk. Why was it different than any other day the last two months? Why did she want to see him now all of a sudden? Had she realized that all her reasons were just downright irrational?

When she slowly turned around Lewis tried to void his face of any emotion, leaving it completely blank, trying hard not to show all the thoughts and feelings that were coursing through him right now. Though all that was done in vain, seeing as the moment she met his gaze she would know. His eyes always betrayed him and she knew that. She would know how confused he was, how hurt, how he himself didn't even know what he was supposed to be feeling because all the emotions just changed so quickly that in the end they all just sort of blended together, forming a huge blob of confusion.

And then she said his name.

There was something in her voice that caused him to swallow hard and bite his lip, caused his heart beat to increase to what felt to be about double its usual pace and a lump to form in his throat. And finally it also caused him to take a small step into her direction. He couldn't help it. It was as if his feet were working on their own accord, as if they were just overruling what his brain was trying to tell him which was to stay right where he was or else he was just going to get hurt all over again. But it was as if Kurumi had some sort of magnetic pull on him and he just couldn't stay away. Just couldn't.

Only he had to. This had to stop. He needed answers. He needed an explanation. They needed to talk about this. Actually talk about this. They needed to talk about this. Whatever this was. Which was why he stopped himself from taking another step into her direction. Not even when she said his name again and thanked him for coming here. Not even then. Even though he wanted to and it felt like he was actually working against his own body to keep himself from doing what he knew he shouldn't. Which was going over to her and just hug her close because she just looked so miserable, so...lost.

When she mentioned that day, he lost control of his emotions for a brief second and just inhaled quite sharply through his nose. That day. Yes, while he hadn't wanted to show how much her words had broken him in front of Selina, he had been dying a little more inside every day ever since that day. She didn't want to see him. She hadn't wanted to see him for two whole months. Only why he did not know. She hadn't even had the strength to tell him why. It wasn't...it just wasn't fair.

"W-why am I here, Kurumi?" That was the first question that he needed an answer to. The most important one. What did she want from him? Why had she asked him here? Why now? He wasn't going to say anything in reply to her apologizing to him. What was there to say? Nothing. There was nothing that could think of saying in response.
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Kurumi bit down on her lip when their eyes met and she saw the very things she had been petrified of seeing. She had hurt him. Why was she hurting the people she cared for? It only solidified in the Gryffindor that she didn't deserve them. Didn't deserve to be trusted with the part of them that they thought she should. Her own eyes betrayed her now and began to water slightly. Just why was unknown to her, but it wasn't just one thing that was bringing the tears to the surface.

When he took a step towards her, Kurumi's reaction was to take one of her own. Only she didn't and instead used the hand that wasn't clutching her chest to hold on to the window pane behind her. She held her breath, both hoping that he would keep coming forward and that he would stop, but her eyes never left his. As much as she hated seeing his pain and confusing, she knew that she deserved it. It was a reminder as to what she had to say. Her body trembled a bit more and her lips almost turned into a frown when he stopped moving forward.

She wanted to move closer, push herself away from the window and return his baby steps, but she couldn't. It was as if her body were simply glued to the floor where she stood and no matter how much she longed to move it was telling her no. No. She didn't deserve to be close to him.

She reluctantly pulled her eyes away from his when she saw his reaction to her mentioning that day and her body trembled even more. If she thought she had seen pain before in his eyes, she had been naive. What had just been reflected back to her now re-broke her heart. He could shout at her if he wanted to. Call her a coward and other things, because that is how she felt about herself. It hadn't been Selina's fight, but she had fought for Kurumi because she was her best friend. She had wanted to see Lewis so badly that day. Wanted to just run to him and be held again as she cried. Next to her mother's passing, this had been the most emotionally damaged the Gryffindor had ever been. Lewis had been there for her to help her deal with her mother's death...and she knew that he would have been there to help her through this too...only it didn't seem right. She didn't trust herself, for one, and just running to Lewis the very next day after breaking up with the first boy she had loved...it seemed so disrespectful to Jonathan. It just...it wasn't the right time for so many reasons.

When Lewis spoke again, Kurumi's eyes lifted from the floor to his lips as she watched his last words leave them and then continued to lift her gaze until it met his once more. "Because....I want to see you..." she said almost shyly. It was also incredibly selfish of her to say, at least she thought so and chewed on her lip again. It wasn't that she hadn't wanted to see him before, because she had wanted to every single day, she just hadn't been ready. "....because....I need to see you..."

Was that an incredibly selfish way of answering that as well? Again, Kurumi felt it was and she moved her arms to hug herself weakly as she continued to stand with her back against the window. Kurumi knew that Lewis knew everything, Selina had made sure of that, but now was not the time for her to ask questions of him. Surely her had a million swimming through his head right now and it was his right to ask her. "You...you can yell at me...if you want to...be angry....I-I-I deserve it..." she half whimpered, her small frame trembling a bit more. "I'm....not a good person..."
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The tears in her eyes did it. They made him throw all caution to the wind and take two more steps towards her. It broke his heart to see her so hurt, see her somehow hurting herself the way she was and there was nothing he could do about it. He couldn't just walk up to her and pull her into his arms. It didn't work that way. Not anymore. Not until they had talked about this and she had given him a reason for the way she had treated him the last two months. That still didn't mean that he didn't want to just wrap his arms around her to make her stop crying. No, but this...this was just so frustrating.

Lewis was both glad and frustrated when Kurumi looked back up to meet his gaze again. One the one hand, he didn't like her looking elsewhere, avertin her gaze like that just so she didn't have to look him in the eye. It always made him wonder why. Whether there was something she was trying to hide from him. But on the other hand, he was back to searching her eyes for an answer he knew he wouldn't find in there. It was probably way too complex to be displayed in her eyes like that. Plus, it only brought him back to assuming things and trying to read things in her eyes that may or may not really be there.

No, this time he had to actually hear her answer his question.

Because....I want to see you... That made him swallow again and even take another small step into her direction before stopping himself again and crossing his arms over his chest as if he was trying to shield himself from whatever she was going to say next. Because he had another question. While her answer had made his heart skip a beat due to the sheer fact that she wanted to see him again, even needed to see him, it only raised another question. "Why now?" While it was a quite short one, it contained so many more questions. What took you so long? Why didn't you want to see me earlier? What does this mean?

But she wasn't done apparently. "W-what?!" Kurumi's next words cut through him like a knife and this time he lost all sense of restraint and just walked right up to her. Until he did stop himself only about two meters away from her to just stare at her for a moment. Angry? No, he wasn't angry with her. Upset, yes. Confused, also yes. But angry? "I'm not angry." Lewis said soflty, shaking his head vigurously. Right then and there he almost reached out to touch her this time upon seeing her trembling like she was. Was she trembling because of him?

There it was. So Selina had been right with her assumption. "You are a good person, Kurumi!" Lewis replied quite forcefully, his eyes narrowing a little as he tried to make her see that she was wrong. Kurumi thought that she herself was the issue here. That she wasn't to be trusted. That Lewis should go near her. Only that wasn't her choice to make now, was it?
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Seeing Lewis taking more steps towards her caused Kurumi's breathing to become uneven and her heart beat to quicken. Her instincts were telling her to step back, only her back was already up against the wall, making this an impossible feat to accomplish unless she physically moved herself to the side. Kurumi knew she wouldn't be able to do that. Avoid his touch if it came to that. She had been longing for it for too long...selfishly so. Her one hand surrendered to this and removed itself from the window pane and tucked a strand of her long black hair behind her ear. Her fingers lingered on her own cheek for a moment while she allowed Lewis' eyes to see some of her suppressed emotions, but she quickly averted her eyes again when he spoke.

It was a question she knew had been coming...and one she still wasn't entirely sure she knew the answer to. "I...couldn't..." she whispered. Physically and mentally couldn't really. "After I....it happened....I never left my bed..." She chewed on her lip furiously now, not sure how much she should say or even how to word it all properly. "I....I couldn't face you before....knowing how much I hurt...him..." The tears were more prominent now as the memories from that day in the pathways resurfaced and the scar that had grown over her heart was ripped violently off. It still hurt...thinking about what had happened. "I....I was afraid I was going to lose you too..." Which really was a hypocritical thing to say considering that her pushing him away, needing space, was more likely to make her lose him. "I'm....sorry.... I wanted to see you....so many times...but...I wasn't ready....I was...too...broken..."

That was really what it all came down to. She was too heart broken and confused to be able to make any sort of coherent sentences in her own head let alone out loud. How could she have a proper conversation with Lewis when all she would do was cry? Kurumi knew that it would have been too much for the two of them. Her being held by him as she cried all the pain out. It would have....been far too intimate than they should be considering the circumstances. Kurumi hadn't really answered his question, not directly at least.

Kurumi gasped softly as Lewis closed the gap between the two of them quite suddenly, her back pushing up against the window out of pure reflex. He was so close now...so close that she could probably reach out and touch him...but no, she shouldn't. She didn't deserve that sort of contact. "You're.....not?" This only drove the knife deeper into her chest. Jonathan hadn't been mad either. Why wouldn't either of them shout at her? Get angry? She deserved it...why wouldn't they just do it?

At his next words it was Kurumi's turn to shake her head furiously. He was wrong. Very wrong. "G-Good people don't....hurt the people they care about like I did...." she replied in an almost empty tone, her eyes becoming slightly numb to her surroundings as well as she began to drift back into her dark place. "Jonathan...he cried....he told me he never wants to speak to me again...no, he told me that he never will speak to me again..." A few tears trickled down her cheeks now and she tried to shut her eyes tight, only she found that they simply wouldn't. Even blinking was becoming a scarce thing for Kurumi at this point. "Knowing what I am capable of doing...how much hurt I can cause...how untrustworthy I am..." she bit her lip again as she came to the point of this conversation that she had been fearing the most and the lump in her throat constricted her again for a few moments before it allowed her to speak. "...how does any of that make me a good person? Why would you want someone like that?"

They hadn't even been on the conversation of them exactly, but it was really the dragon in the room and underlying everything that they were talking about. It was only a matter of time before their relationship, whatever it was, came into the picture and Kurumi had just brought it to the front line. She gripped her chest more tightly now, the pain there increasing to the point of crippling her.

"You...you shouldn't want to be with me..."

Her eyes were back on his as these words left her mouth. Her lips were saying one thing, but her eyes...her eyes were implying something else.
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Lewis tried his best to ignore the intense feeling of longing that washed over him the closer he got to her. They were getting closer again, if only physically right now. He felt she was still blocking him from getting any closer to her emotionally, though. His eyes flicked over to her cheek for a moment as she drew attention to it by resting her hand on it after tugging a strand of her hair back. Her hair. Her hair that hadn't changed color in so long. Or so he assumed. Not that he knew for sure since he hadn't talked to her for two months. But something told him that her abilities still weren't back. Not fully anyway. He had caught a glimpse of then during the start of term feast but apart from that...

Still, it made him sigh quite sadly. He met her gaze again just in time to see her opening up to him a little, just a little and the flash of something in her eyes was gone almost as quickly as it had come but it had definitely been there. He was sure of that. If only she would actually say those words out loud too. Or say anything about how she was feeling about him. All those unspoken words were making it harder and harder for him to find something to hold on to. There had been moments when he had been sitting on his bed, thinking that it was a lost cause, that he was holding on to someone that would never be his. Only his promise to Selina not to give up on her had helped him through those times. There was somebody else who believed in him.

She couldn't come to him earlier. Lewis chewed on his lip a little as he tried to figure out what that meant. Why not? The guilt he felt every time she brought up Jonathan - even if she hadn't even said his name this time - was like a slap in the face and the Hufflepuff averted his gaze towards the window behind Kurumi without actually focusing on anything. Her next words caused him to look at her quite sharply again, a rather surprised look on his face. "Kurumi...you're not going to lose me." Unless she kept doing things like not talking to him for two months without even giving him a good reason.

Too broken. Still, he would have wished that she'd have wanted him there to help her mend.

If he hadn't been so focused on trying to make sense of Kurumi's words, he would have probably taken a couple of hurried steps back, seeing the way she was pressing herself against the wall. As it were though, all he did was shake his head some more, even frowning a little as she asked him again. "N-no. I'm not angry." Did she want him to be? Had she expected him to? But as much as he tried to sort through all the emotions washing over him right now he couldn't really find anger anywhere. "Upset maybe..." He added since she was so keen on hearing him say something, this time it was his turn to avoid looking at her for a moment. There was no need for her to see the hurt in his eyes.

At first he just continued to shake his head at her 'explanation' as to why she wasn't a good person but when she mentioned Jonathan again he actually gasped. He had...cried? Lewis just stood there for a moment trying to process that piece of information before taking a couple of steps away from Kurumi and turning around. He swallowed a couple of times to get rid of the taste of bile in the back of his throat - to no avail however. Of course he had figured that Jonathan had suffered too from the breakup but...this. That it would hit him so hard. He really hadn't expected that. It was awful. And it made him feel like a bad person now.

Her next words pulled him out of his train of thoughts and made him turn back around to face her. His eyes had narrowed again into a frown upon hearing her continue to explain why she was a bad person. "No. Stop saying that! You...that's not...that's just not everything you are. You're so much more than that." And while he was talking he'd stepped forward again, every word bringing him closer towards her until he was standing right in front of her. "You're not a bad person." Close enough that he could have easily reached out and touched her. Only he didn't. It was as if there was some kind of invisible wall between them, separating them. Lewis even glanced upwards for a moment as if really expecting to see a wall there, as if checking where the wall's weaknesses were, how to tear it down.

Had he known that they would be talking about them, he wouldn't have come that close. Though, he should have expected it. That was what he was he for. What they were both here for. Still when she mentioned it, he looked away for a brief second, blushing a little while shaking his head. At her whispered words one corner of his mouth twitched a little but he still didn't meet her gaze again. "That's...that's not your decision to make, though..." Only then he met her gaze again and actually took a step back, away from her. That's what she'd been trying to achieve wasn't it? Getting him to stop wanting her.
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Kurumi never knew that silence could be so loud and she felt like the weight of the atmosphere between them was going to crush her. She could see it in his eyes that he wasn't entirely satisfied with her answer, but she was afraid to admit to herself why their immediate meeting had been something she just couldn't do. As she had laid there in her bed, being nothing more than an empty shell of herself, Kurumi had doubted herself. Doubted that she had made the right decision. Doubted her feelings for Lewis because she had been THAT broken. How could she face him when she was filled with so much doubt...so much fear?

Kurumi found that she couldn't breath when Lewis' gaze left her's and, unbeknownst to herself, her eyes were pleading with him to look back at her. It didn't take long for his green eyes to fall on her brown ones though and Kurumi gasped softly at his next words. You're not going to lose me. Her eyes widened and the tears in her eyes shimmered even more, but not out of pain this time. No, there was a different emotion there this time that was mirrored in what she did next - she took her first step towards him.

It wasn't much, mostly her just pushing off from the window pane so that she was no longer leaning against it, but it was still movement.

Her heart was racing now, trying to wrap her head around what he had just said. Trying to convince herself that it was true. One look in his eyes, seeing what he was showing her...what he wanted her to see...told her everything she needed to know. Her hand finally lowered from her chest, letting go of the necklace she had been clutching under the fabric of her black sweater, and fell to her side limply. She didn't want it to be there, defeated at her side like it was. She wanted to reach out for his hand so she could feel his warmth....but it wasn't right. She still didn't feel as though she should do that.

Relief, or agony, or some combination of the two washed over her face when he confirmed that he was not angry...but then her chest heaved. "I'm.....s-sorry, Lewis...." she whispered in reply, wiping a few tears from her eyes with her right hand. "I...I needed to be sure...of a few things..." Kurumi swayed in place for a moment, her one hand resting on the nape of her neck while her fingers gently dug into her skin. "...how I feel about you..." That last sentence had slipped out before she could stop herself and her cheeks rose in color again.

She almost regretted going into more details about what had happened between her and Jonathan that day, especially when Lewis turned his back to her. She whimpered and bit down hard on her lip fearing that he wouldn't turn back around. That he was just going to walk right out of the room and not look back. Not that she didn't think she deserved that. She had, after all, essentially abandoned him for her own selfish reasons. He had ever right to.

She whimpered again when he turned back around and her breath caught in her chest as with each word he came closer and closer to her until he was so close that she had to lift her head to meet his gaze. This was the closest they had been in so long and Kurumi's body trembled again out of a mixture of emotions - namely that she was afraid of losing control again. It always seemed to happen with them, just being near each other seemed to trigger some sort of chemical reaction that was impossible to stop. One that neither of them really wanted to stop.

You're so much more than that. His words vibrated through her body down to her very core, causing her to tremble even more and she had to hug herself for support. If she was so much more than that...than all this....then why did she feel like this was all she was? "Lewis..." she began again, her brown eyes shutting for a moment to try and rid them of tears. This was an entirely different form of pain now, of fear, and she was becoming overwhelmed by it all to the point that she feared her legs might buckle out from under her...just like they had in the pathways...

Her eyes snapped open when he spoke again, just in time to see him taking a step away from her and one of her hands instinctive reached out for him. Her fingers brushed against his and recoiled quickly as if she had just touched hot coals. But only her fingers did, balling up into a small fist as her arms hung there in the air as if afraid to reach out for him completely yet wanting to desperately. Her eyes returned to his and she swallowed hard, feeling sick to her stomach again. "Does...does that mean..." she stammered, afraid to finish her thought. Afraid to open up again. Afraid of being vulnerable again. Afraid of being hurt. "....you do?" Her eyes searched his, again showing him what was hidden beneath all the tears and the pain. Showing him that she had never stopped wanting.
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Lewis couldn't quite explain what had made him say those words, except that there was some part of him that just knew they were true. And he wasn't completely sure how he felt about that. Two whole months of them not talking, not seeing each other outside class and still, here he was telling her that she wasn't going to lose him. It was crazy and it made him avert his gaze again, shaking his head a little, almost frustratedly. He had still come here without even knowing what to expect or if Kurumi was going to show up this time. He had had no clue whatsoever and he'd still come.

Yes, it was definitely crazy in a way.

Hearing her gasp - as soft as it may have been - Lewis glanced back up at her again, chewing on his lower lip. The way she looked surprised by his words - actually HE was a little surprised too - and the look in her eyes made him close his, somehow feeling the need to hide just how true his words were from her for the time being. Crazy. Yes. But nonetheless he knew what he'd said was true. "S-so stop trying please." It was both a promise that she wasn't going to get rid of him that easily and an implication that she should stop pushing him away because maybe at some point she might succeed. If she kept on doing that she might just lose him. Lose him entirely.

He opened his eyes just in time to see her move towards him a little, push herself off the wall, coming closer to him. And just like that all thoughts about how she might lose him were gone, replaced by that feeling of intense longing again, longing for her to come even closer. Longing for just being closer to her again. This distance, both emotionally and physically, he hated this. It made him want to scream in frustration. Only of course he didn't. Instead his eyes just followed her hand's path as it slowly dropped from her chest and to her side. The urge to just reach out and take it was becoming more and more persistent.

Lewis didn't look back up right away, not even when she apologized again. He didn't know what to say in reply anyway. That it was fine? No, he couldn't say that. Because it just wasn't. Not that he bore grudges or anything like that but he just didn't know what to say. "I know, Kurumi." That worked. He knew she was sorry. Her next words caught his attention, though, making him meet her gaze quite suddenly again. How she felt about him. Lewis blinked a couple of times before biting his lip, watching her cautiously. "And...?" Had she come to any sort of conclusion?

This was all his fault. If it weren't for him they would still...if it weren't for him Jonathan wouldn't have...everything would have been fine if it weren't for him. He hugged himself without realizing it without turning back around. While he had just told Kurumi that she wasn't a bad person and deep down he knew that he wasn't either - or HOPED so anyway - right now he felt like one. There was a part of him which had selfishly been happy when he'd heard that they'd broken up. He had been wishing for them to break up. But of course he hadn't wished for anybody to get hurt. Once again though, that had just been idealistic to think like that.

But now it had been done. And there was nothing to change it. He didn't WANT to change it. He was here now, and so was Kurumi. Even though it was still funny - not in the amusing way - to see the wall there now. Figuratively speaking. Before the summer they didn't have so many problems with anything stopping them from getting closer, even though there should have been a wall back then. And probably was too, only they had chosen to ignore it. Now when there didn't have to be any walls, it was there, even though it faded a little when she whispered his name.

And vanished completely when she suddenly brushed her fingers against his, so lightly that he almost thought it was by accident. Only it wasn't. She had reached out for him, trying to stop him from taking that step back. His eyes dropped to his hand, the one she had just touched and rested there until she spoke up again which was when they moved back up to meet hers again. "T-that I do what?" Lewis wanted to just say yes, assuming that he knew what she was referring to but...he had to hear her ask him specifically first. He was done guessing.
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Kurumi most definitely had forgotten to breathe now, seeing what was reflected in Lewis' eyes, and a shiver ran through her entire body. She whimpered again, almost out of frustration, when he closed his eyes and therefore shutting his emotions away from her. She wished that he would open them again, show her what he was feeling. It made all this easier on her...gave her a little more confidence despite her heart beating like a herd of centaurs in her chest. She was just about to open her mouth to ask, no, beg him not to shut her out like that when his whisper silenced her.

All Kurumi could do was blink and almost gape at him. Was that what...he thought she had been doing? Trying to push him away from her? Hadn't he heard what she had almost sobbed just now? That she didn't want to lose him? She had lost her mother...now Jonathan...she couldn't bear to lose Lewis to - even if she still thought that she didn't deserve. "Y-You should know by now that I could never do that..." she whispered. She could never push Lewis away from her. That was why she had sent Selina in her place. Kurumi knew that she wouldn't be able to ask Lewis for space, because she herself would have been incapable of making it. Her eyes were still on him, unblinking and shimmering with tears as more of them trickled down her cheek. "I...."

It was almost as if her movement had been what caused his eyes to open. There he was again, all of him, there for her to see in the simple gesture of opening his eyes and Kurumi breathed in and out shakily as she stood there for several moments. But then his eyes were lowering again and Kurumi's own eyes followed to see just what he was looking at - her hand. Not even Kurumi was really aware of the symbolic gesture she had just made, letting go of the necklace, but even if she had...her heart wasn't ready for that. Not entirely.

And then his eyes were on hers again, waiting and almost pleading with her to explain further. The problem was that Kurumi was afraid to admit this all now. Afraid of taking that step away from one and towards another. Something in her told her that if she didn't, then he wouldn't, and then she really would lose him despite the tone of promise in his statement. And... so much hinged on that one word and Kurumi felt as though her chest were about to cave in from anxiety. She closed her eyes for a moment, trying to calm her breathing and her heart beat somehow, only that was impossible with everything that was coursing through her right now.

"And..." she said, opening her eyes and meeting his again. Why was it so hard this time to just let him know? Before, when things had been wrong, it had seemed to much easier to convey things. Open up. Why now, when the only thing standing between them was her own insecurities, was she unable to just say it. "...what I said that day...in the kitchen...it is all still true." All of it. Including those unspoken words that she still was afraid to say now.

In fact, it all might be even more true now.

Kurumi couldn't help but take another small step towards him when he began hugging himself. She couldn't read his mind, but she knew he was in pain. Pain that she had most likely caused. She hated this. See, she didn't deserve him. Especially not when she was making him hurt. Her heart was breaking again, flashes of the events that had happened two months ago in the pathways flashing in front of her eyes...seeing how much she had hurt Jonathan...seeing how she was now hurting Lewis... it made her body tremble.

Her eyes widened again when he asked for confirmation about what she was asking. This was it, wasn't it? This was the moment where she had to make a decision...only...hadn't her decision been made long ago? Back when she had first kissed Lewis? Not the kiss in the Owlery that was still somehow missing from her memory, but the second time. That had been it. The moment where everything had changed.

Biting her lip again, Kurumi continued to gaze into Lewis' green eyes are her hand continued to hang there in the air. "That...you still want this....us...to be with me..." Kurumi held her breath after these words left her lips, licking them nervously as her gaze momentarily shifted elsewhere, afraid to let Lewis see the fear and longing that was in her eyes. Only her eyes couldn't stay away from his for long. "Do you...after all this....still want me?"

Kurumi felt the dizzy with anxiety the moment the words left her mouth and her body swayed slightly and threatened to just fall forward as her knees shook.The scariest part of all this was that she still wanted him and now she was afraid that maybe she had, in fact, convinced him not to.
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Kurumi seemed almost taken aback by his request, at least judging by the way she was just blinking at him for a couple of seconds. Maybe it had been a bit harsh but somehow he had felt the need to tell her again. Tell her that he wasn't sure if he would survive another two months without her talking to him or at least giving him an explanation for her behavior. Because frankly, he didn't think he could go through something like that again. Not without...consequences anyway.

Hearing her reply, Lewis just nodded for a moment, feeling regret for what he'd just said, for obviously upsetting her with what he'd just said. "I...I just didn't know what to think anymore, Kurumi." The use of the past tense was crucial here and he hoped that she would notice it too. It didn't mean that he knew for sure what to think of all of this now but seeing as she'd told him that she didn't want to lose him, things were a lot clearer now. And even more confusing at the same time. A different kind of confusing than the one he'd felt over the past two months.

I... Lewis stopped chewing on his lip for a moment while he waited - WISHED! - for her to finish her sentence. Unfinished sentences, it was like their thing somehow and not in a good way. Only once again a sentence was left open just like that and he would have groaned in frustration if it wasn't right then that he noticed the tears trickling down Kurumi's cheeks. He swallowed hard and took a small step into her direction, a look of concern and regret plastered across his face. He hadn't intended for her to be upset by his words. It was just...they seemed to be hurting each other. And he wanted to put an end to this. He wanted to know. Wanted to know what to make of all of this.

It took her a while to answer his question, making his heartbeat increase more and more the longer the silence lasted. What if he didn't like what he was about to hear? What if after all this she still wasn't sure how she felt about him? Lewis almost winced a little when she finally did speak up again, giving him a more or less satisfying answer. So her feelings hadn't changed. But somehow she still wasn't ready to voice them, to tell him what exactly she was referring to. Of course he was relieved to hear her say how what she'd said in the kitchen was still true and it made the corner of his lips curl up into a small smile even. Still, though, what did it mean that she wasn't really saying out loud how she felt about him?

This was it then. The moment he'd been waiting for. Only now that it had come, Lewis was somewhat hesitant to answer at first. Not because he didn't know the answer but because he wasn't sure what she wanted to hear. What if she had changed her mind now? Though, she had just confirmed that her feelings hadn't changed, that they were still the same, that she...that she still wanted him. But still. This was real this time. What he said now, it would have some real life consequences. Up until the moment she had broken up Jonathan, it had been as if they'd been living in their own little world whenever they were together.

But now...there were no outside forces keeping them apart anymore. It was just them.

His gaze dropped down to her lips for a moment without actually seeing them or thinking about it. He knew the answer to her question. So why was it so hard to say all of a sudden. Before the summer all that had stopped them from saying how they felt about each other was the fact that then had not been the right time. Was now the right time? There definitely weren't any obstacles in their way anymore. But while this may have sounded like a simple yes or no question, it was so much more than that. It implied so much. It could lead to so much. He could finally get what he wanted. All he had to do was tell her.

So when she met his gaze again, Lewis gasped a little at what he could see in her eyes and this time when she asked him again he didn't hesitate. "Yes...yes, I do. I do still want us, Kurumi." His eyes never left hers when he said all that, watching her closely to what her reaction to this would be, while taking a step closer again. "I-if that's what you want..." He added slowly, chewing on his lower lip a little nervously. Not that that would change how he felt but he still needed to know what was going to happen now. Because the big question right now was: What did she want?
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Kurumi's hand twitched at her side, wanting to reach up for her chest again, but something made her stop. Whatever that something was was completely unknown to the Gryffindor, but her hand went instead to the shoulder of her opposite arm and nervously ran its way down until she was clutching her wrist. She hadn't realized that her actions had had these consequences on Lewis, making him think that she was trying to push him away. Then again, what else should she have expected?

Swallowing, Kurumi was back to blinking with his answer. His use of tense did not go unnoticed by her and she felt her heart almost leap out of her chest. Did that mean that he did now? Or was it more that he was less confused now about certain things? Or did he just not even think anymore? She could probably rule out that last one, because Lewis was a thinker. But she was almost afraid to ask him exactly what his words meant.

Her cheeks flushed and her hand that had been gripping her wrist dropped back to her side. "What...do you think now?" she asked rather shyly. He didn't have to answer that if he didn't want to, but it was more of her wanting to confirm that what she was saying to him, what she was feeling, that it was all being transmitted to him. Neither one of them could afford misunderstandings and confusion right now. Kurumi felt like they were treading on a paper thin surface where either of them could fall through.

The seconds, milliseconds?, that ticked by after Kurumi's words had left her lips were agonizing and it felt like an eternity before Lewis spoke again. What if Lewis said that he no longer wanted them? Did that mean she went running back to Jonathan? No, because she didn't break up with Jonathan just so she could be with Lewis. There was something else there, something Kurumi had to take ownership for, and that was the lack of trust. Lack of trust on her behalf that the Slytherin hadn't abandoned her after he had left and not written her for over five months. Lack of trust in his feelings towards her...and hers of him. Now, there was an even deeper issue, that Jonathan couldn't trust her. So, no, even if Lewis decided that all this pain...waiting...torture wasn't worth it and that he wanted to walk away...Kurumi couldn't and wouldn't go back to Jonathan. He deserved better. He deserved someone who would make him happy, trust him completely...and as painful as it had been for Kurumi to accept this, that someone wasn't her.

Then there was the other side of the coin, Lewis saying yes. Saying that he still wanted her, wanted them. That despite all this he still had kept his promise to her that he was going to wait. Did she deserve that? Deserve him? Could she trust herself to ---

But then Lewis spoke without a hint of hesitation and her heart almost stopped beating and her eyes widened. I do still want us, Kurumi. It was those words, the emphasis on the 'us,' that caused something else to happen. Something that Kurumi could not see. The chocolate color of her eyes was gone and replaced by a familiar violet color as he took a step closer towards her. Towards them. Her breathing began uneven again and her eyes searched his and found the same vulnerability that she was feeling. The question was, was she ready for this? She felt like she had now been thrown into a situation where she had to shut the door on something she wasn't entirely ready to let go of.

So when he asked her the same sort of question, Kurumi inhaled sharply as her heart rate increased to levels it had never been before. Slowly, timidly, she reached for his hand and delicately wrapped her fingers around his to pull herself just a little closer to him. For the briefest of moments, her eyes left his to look at their hands before returning to his eyes. "Yes...it is..." she said, a small smile tugging at the corners of her lips as a few more tears trickled down her cheeks. "I want to be with you...Lewis..."

Her cheeks flushed again and the faint smile widened a bit more, but there was still a terrifying thought lingering in the back of her mind. A question that she was petrified to ask him, but knew she had to if she was going to be able to continue to take baby steps and she wished that she didn't feel as though she had to ask it. "Just...Lewis....W-W-Why do you trust me...to not do the same to you..." Kurumi chewed on her lip nervously, waiting to see how he would respond...or not respond. Her hand squeezed his instinctively and she continue to look into his eyes, not wanting to miss any part of his reaction.
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What...do you think now?

That was an interesting question. What DID he think now? Lewis didn't avert his gaze even though he wanted to. But it was probably helpful if she actually saw it in his eyes how confused he was, how many thoughts were coursing through his head right now. He couldn't voice them all. It would probably not be very wise to voice them all. "I think..." Only it was hard to pick the right ones out. The right thoughts. The right thoughts that would make this all end well. Only what were those right thoughts? How could he influence how this ended? What would happen with them? His mind was in a state of complete chaos so it was almost impossible to sort through his thoughts.

What if he said the wrong thing? Was he in the power position right now? Did that really mean that however he answered this question now was going to have an influence on what was going to happen to them? Now he didn't want to answer. He didn't like this. He didn't like this at all. But he had to answer something. Only what? There was a slight hint of panic now on his face as he dropped his gaze for a moment, absently looking at the way Kurumi's hand hung loosely by her side. "I think..." He had to finish that sentence some way. "I think that...we...somehow we just can't stay away from each other." At this he met her gaze again and bit his lip while feeling a blush forming on his cheeks. It was true. They themselves had proved the validity of this statement several times.

And as if to prove exactly that he took another step towards her.

There it was. The words were out. They'd addressed the elephant in the room. Only now that he'd said it out loud, Lewis just wanted to hug himself again, feeling the most vulnerable he had felt in a long time. At least now he would have clarity. At least now he could see what her reaction was going to be. He'd been going over this in his head a couple of times, had expected - had both hoped and dreaded - for them to have this type of conversation but it was still different to actually have it now. This was real. There was nothing that would soften the blow when Kurumi reacted badly to this confession. Was it a confession though? It wasn't news to either of them. It was just-

His train of thoughts was abruptly interrupted however when he focused on her face again. And her eyes. Her eyes had...they were..."Kurumi..." Was all he could say right now as he just continued to look at her eyes, smiling a little in fascination without realizing it. He still wanted to hear her answer his question but this...this made all the negative thoughts go away, as if somebody had just banished them with a spell. Her body's reaction was worth almost as much as her actually saying out loud that she wanted them too. Almost. But it was definitely helping him relax a little...and making him almost shiver in anticipation at the same time too.

And there it was. Lewis followed her gaze down to his hand which had been taken by Kurumi. They were connected again. He laced his fingers through hers and gave her hand a soft squeeze, still not lifting his gaze again. There, now they were even more connected, now it would be even harder to separate them, to separate their hands. Once his eyes were on hers again, he inhaled sharply upon noticing the tears trickling down her cheeks. With his other hand he reached up without thinking about it and moved it across her cheek in an attempt to get rid of the tears. They looked wrong there. Even though she was smiling. He didn't like the tears, even though he wasn't sure that they were the same kind than the ones from before. Still, the fact that those two moments were so close together made him dislike the tears in her eyes.

Her next question made him freeze with his one hand still on her cheek, his smile faltering a little. What if she did the same thing to him? That was a scenario he did not like to play out in his head, nor talk about with Kurumi. Did she think this was likely to happen? "I...because I trust you." He had no way of knowing for sure that she wasn't going to do this to him, he just trusted her enough to believe she wouldn't. But somehow that didn't answer her question, did it? Lewis was pretty sure that that wouldn't satisfy her. He thought about her question again for a moment longer, absently glancing down at their hands again. They were still connected. Connected. Close. Finally in the same room again. Finally talking again. Finally touching again.

That was it though, wasn't it? That had been part of the problem with Jonathan. Meeting her gaze again, he stopped biting his lip and took a deep breath. "Because...I'm not going to leave you. I'm not going to go anywhere for that long...n-not without you anyway." He wasn't BLAMING Jonathan for anything that had happened, he was only stating that he was pretty sure that none of it would have happened if he hadn't just disappeared for half a term. Or maybe it would have. Lewis liked to think that it would have still happened. But the Slytherin's absence had definitely helped.
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Seeing all sorts of thoughts flash through Lewis' eyes, not a single one staying long enough for Kurumi to register its meaning, Kurumi bit her lip and regretted asking the question in the first place. She hadn't meant to make matters more confusing for him, only for confirmation on a few things. Only maybe there were just too many things that needed that. It was still very frustrating, how confusing their situation was...only it shouldn't be as confusing now, shouldn't it? It was almost as frustrating as Lewis seeming to not want to finish his sentence. They both really needed to stop doing that.

Only then he did finish his sentence, taking her breath away for a moment.

Noticing the color rise in his cheeks only made hers do the same and she nervously tucked another strand of hair behind her ear before shyly nodding her head to agree. Kurumi opened her mouth to slightly correct him, however, but instead closed her mouth and remained silent. There really wasn't any think about that statement, at least not to her. She knew that they couldn't stay away from each other. Even in the two months she had needed to clear her mind and calm her emotions had proven difficult for them to stay away - and not just because of classes.

Her eyes widened when he got a little closer again, wanting her own body to mirror his actions but still feeling too afraid to make any sudden movements. Still, she wished he would get a little closer... and then he whispered her name, causing her to cock her head to the side slightly wondering what he was going to say. Only he didn't say anything. Chewing her lip some more, Kurumi studied his face to try and figure out what it was he had wanted to say, only to find that his eyes were looking at her's with a rare fascination. It was the same sort of look he had had in his eyes when her hair had changed colors that day in the kitchen...only her hair was still black. So what was it?

Kurumi's thoughts became distracted again when Lewis laced his fingers together with hers, bringing them so much closer together. It was odd how everything felt so new. This hadn't been the first time they had held hands like this, yet it almost felt like it was. Kurumi's heart was pounding in her chest as a few more tears tried to make their way out of the corners of her eyes, only Lewis' other hand was there to stop them. Gasping softly with surprise at this touch, all Kurumi could do was look back into his eyes and blush.

His initial answer to her question cause her to break their gaze and she looked away for just a moment as she bit down on her lip. He had trusted her too...and she had let him down. As much as she wanted to accept that answer, she just couldn't. Even his next one, while bringing her still violet eyes back to his, didn't full satisfy her. He hadn't thought he would ever leave her either, and yet Jonathan had vanished from the school without any sort of good bye. It wasn't his fault, no, his father had suddenly decided to pull him from school...taking him away... So the point she was making to herself was that there was no way of knowing what would happen. Lewis could say one thing, but there just was no way....

And then it hit Kurumi. She was asking for the impossible. For Lewis to be able to see into the future and tell her exactly why he could trust her. Her neutral expression shifted into a faint smile as she remembered a conversation she had had with Treyen through letters where she had expressed these exact same fears. What had he said then? Life was about taking risks and this was a risk she should take? Kurumi laughed softly. Treyen was right, as usual. It was a risk, but it was one she wanted to take.

Leaning her cheek into his hand now, the hand that had been wiping tears from her face earlier, Kurumi closed her eyes for just a moment and allowed her body, for the first time, to really take in everything. The way her hand felt in his. The way his hand held her cheek. The way his breath felt on her face right now. It seemed wrong that she could feel like this after experiencing such heart break. Only she was tired of using the word wrong when it came to her and Lewis. That word...the word that had been the wall between them before, it was gone now.

Kurumi opened her eyes now, her violet eyes, and immediately found his green ones again. She didn't know what to say now. What to do. Her lips curled into a shy smile again as her gaze lowered to his lips for just a moment before looking back up. "Lewis..." she whispered as she inhaled slowly. Again, so many thoughts. So many things she wanted to say and none of them were making any sort of sense in her head right now save for the beating of her heart in her chest. She leaned her head a little more into his hand now, her lips brushing against his fingers softly. "I...I....thank you..."
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Lewis didn't go on after whispering her name. He couldn't. He was too distracted with staring at her eyes, that look of pure fascination still on his face. They were back. They were back to violet. And this time they remained to be that color. He didn't even dare blink at first since he was afraid that when he opened his eyes again, they would be back to brown again, which would leave him thinking that he might have imagined the whole thing. Only he hadn't, and they were still violet. Her abilities were back. And this time he just couldn't ignore the fact that it had something to do with his presence. It had to. They had briefly changed in the Great Hall too. So did that mean that...but not even Kurumi knew for sure why her eyes or hair changed color the way it so who was he to make assumptions like these.

Kurumi didn't look too satisfied with his answer somehow even though Lewis blushed furiously when he thought over what he'd just said. He hadn't really been thinking about it too much, he just wanted her to believe him, to see that he did trust her. But somehow he hadn't chosen his words carefully enough apparently. She even looked away, causing him to swallow hard and close his eyes for a moment. It was HIS decision though, wasn't it? He knew what she'd done. It was his decision to trust her, not hers.

So why was she the one to have doubts about this all of a sudden?

When she looked back at him he held his breath without realizing it. There was still nothing. She didn't say anything, nor reacted in any way. This wasn't good. He had gotten so close and now he had to watch as it slowly faded away again. Them. So close. And now she wanted him to tell her why he trusted her. He didn't know that. He just did. There was no way of knowning for sure that they would stay together forever, that nothing like what had happened with them wouldn't happen again with somebody else. So all they could do now was try and hope for the best. Trust each other that they would both do their best not to allow anything or anyone to come between them. Only somehow Kurumi didn't agree with him it seemed.

Or maybe she did? Lewis blinked at her a couple of times in surprise, letting out the breath he'd been holding. She was...laughing? Confusion plastered across his face, Lewis raised his eyebrows at her while otherwise keeping completely still. This moment was delicate still. They'd been so close to losing what they had again just because Kurumi didn't think he should trust her. Just because she didn't want to take the risk apparently. Or didn't want him to take that risk. But now she suddenly did? Was that it? Did that mean that...slowly the corners of Lewis' lips curled up to form a small, slightly hesitant smile.

And that was also the moment she started to move again, making Lewis relax considerably. Squeezing her hand tightly as if to show her that he wasn't going anywhere, he met her gaze, when she opened her eyes again, with a smile on his lips, his eyes still reflecting a hint of disbelief. He couldn't quite believe that this was actually happening. That they were like this again. No, not again really. This was different. It felt the same but at the same time it felt completely different. This time it was real. They were allowed to be like this. It was really happening. They were really happening. It still felt a little surreal to be honest.

The way her eyes dropped to his lips for a moment did not go by unnoticed, making Lewis blush and lick his lips absently. This was so new. He didn't quite know what to do with this new situation. Trusting his instincts had worked pretty well so far but he wasn't sure where that would lead them right now. And he wasn't quite sure what they were right now. Or what they were supposed to do now. But then again who said what they were and what they weren't supposed to do? Nobody. Just themselves. They could do whatever they wanted now. Nothing could stop them. Nobody could stop them.

Without moving his hand away from her cheek, he brushed his thumb across her cheek for a moment, his eyes following the movement of his finger. Again so familiar yet so new. His eyes were back on hers when she whispered his name, sending a small shiver down his spine. He had missed this. His name. Her saying his name like that. It felt even more incredible than the last time she'd said it. This time it meant so much more. His smile intensified when she moved her head a little, sort of kissing his fingers softly, sending another shiver down his spine. Blushing just a little but still smiling nonetheless, he moved his other hand a little so he could trace random patterns on her palm.

Which stopped momentarily when she thanked him, causing him to throw her a slightly confused look, his smile faltering a tiny bit. "W-what for?" What was she thanking him for? For this? For them? That they were finally happening? They WERE, weren't they? This was still a little bit confusing to him but at least now they both knew what they wanted. That they wanted each other. That they wanted to be with each other. And while he was still a little taken aback by her sudden urge to thank him, Lewis' smile was back to being genuinely content.
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The way Lewis continued to look at her, into her eyes, made her heart race even more. What was it that he was seeing that had him so captivated? It was as if something he had lost, something important to him, had suddenly been found and Kurumi could only continue to blush under his gaze. It was a familiar yet unfamiliar feeling and Kurumi wasn't entirely sure what to make of it.

But still her thoughts could not stay on this confusion for long, not when he was holding her hand like he was and especially not when he let out a rather long breath that he had been holding in. Her smile only widened a little more, he laugh becoming a little more audible as she took another small step towards him. "S-Sorry," she apologized, seeing all the confusion plastered on his face and in his posture. She hadn't meant to alarm him in any way. She had been confused herself. About what the real problem was and just why she had asked that question. The trust issue wasn't with him...it was with her. It was her inability to trust herself that had been what had hurt her and Jonathan to a certain degree. Had kept her away from Lewis for these past two months. Was keeping her from taking one more step towards letting go. "I-I just don't want to hurt you too...I-I don't have a lot of confidence in myself...right now..."

Truth. Her insecurities had been going into overdrive since the break up and were taking baby steps towards recovery. Only....having her hand in his right now and seeing the way he was looking at her. Knowing that he had seen her at her worst. What she was capable of doing. How selfish she could be....despite all that he was here now and still wanting to be with her. It was almost hard to believe.

But here they were.

She returned his squeeze and blushed a bit more when he drew her attention back to his lips by licking them. Kurumi suddenly felt nervous, unsure of what to do now although she knew what she wanted to do. She chewed on her lip a little more nervously and pushed herself up on her tip toes slightly before setting herself back down as she gave in to the butterflies in her stomach. "Lewis...I...I might..." she began, but found that Lewis had made her speechless again by the movement of his thumb across her cheek.

Kurumi inhaled sharply, momentarily forgetting what it was she was about to say and instead meeting his gaze for what still felt like the first time. It was her turn to shiver a littler when his other hand began tracing patterns on her palm and she leaned her head just a little more into his hand before lifting it and focusing all her attention on him. She did pout just a little when he stopped tracing patterns, knowing that this meant she had said something odd or something that had confused him. She seemed to be doing that a lot today.

However, instead of her own smile faltering, it only widened and she gave his hand another small reassuring squeeze. "I...I have a lot of things to thank you for...Lewis..." And she blushed more intensely at the thought of having to list them all. Still, she knew that he answer right now wasn't going to be enough. It wouldn't have been for her. "....but....for keeping your promise...." She blushed even more furiously now as her heart began to race at new speeds. "I'm...sorry it took so long..." And that things had happened the way they had. Kurumi hated that she was on the brink of finding happiness at the expense of someone else, someone that she never wanted to hurt. Someone that she never wanted to wrong...but she had. There was no changing that.

Shyly, Kurumi's free hand lifted from her side and was about to rest on the hand he had on her cheek when it changed its course and instead her delicate fingers rested on his jawline. Her eyes were still on his, violet pools shimmering in anticipation and nervousness, and she pressed her lips together tightly again before relaxing. She breathed in deeply, the desire to pushed herself up off the ground and move closer to him almost overwhelming, and her gaze moved to her fingers that were slowly tracing the contours of his jawline and....his lips.

With an almost unfamiliar shyness, Kurumi lifted her gaze and met his again. "I...I might...." she was back to the sentence she had wanted to say earlier and had once again stopped just short of finishing it. But she wasn't going to leave sentences unfinished now. Nothing was stopping them from finishing them. They didn't have to hide things anymore. "...I might kiss you..." Her cheeks were on fire again and she bit her lip again feeling completely embarrassed for the words that had just come out of her mouth. Only it didn't stop there and her innocence kicked things up another notch, causing her small frame to shiver just a little more. "Is....is that....okay?"
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The fact that her laughing only intensified made him both more confused and relax some more. She was smiling again. He hadn't seen her this content, this happy in a long time so it was definitely a welcome change. It made him happy just to see her like this. Even though he still didn't know what exactly it was she was laughing about, he could feel his own face break into a small grin despite himself.

Whatever it was, it definitely made him happy to see her happy again.

When she apologized Lewis couldn't quite keep himself from throwing her another confused look but refrained from asking her why. He did in no way want to jeopardize their relationship - was it? - by asking stupid questions. Nor did he want her to stop smiling. Especially the last aspect made him just forget about it for now by shaking his head a little, the smile turning into something which could almost be described as a grin. To be honest, he felt a little light-headed right now. In a good way. A really good way.

Her next words made his smile turn into a rather serious look though as he bit his lip a little anxiously. Hurt him? She still thought she was going to hurt him? That wasn't a very good start into this relationship, to be honest. With her constantly being afraid that she might hurt him. "Just...just trust me okay?" And since he trusted her, everything was going to be fine. As long as she didn't lose faith in this. In her. In them. As long as that didn't happen, it was going to be alright. Squeezing her hand softly, Lewis tried to search her eyes - her violet eyes - to see if she agreed with what she'd just said, if she had processed it.

Seeing her blush and glance at his lips again only made him blush too. They were there. Now all that was left to do was take that one last step. Only what was that last step? What was he supposed to do? What did she expect him to do? To say? Kurumi didn't look like she was in full control of her emotions either however when she suddenly went on her tiptoes, bringing their faces really really close togethr for a moment. Was she going to...but then her face was gone again, making him almost pout for a second. Raising his eyebrows at her as another hue of darker pink graced his cheeks, Lewis waited for her to finish her sentence. She might...?

But she never did finish it. Not right away anyway.

The squeeze of his hand would have been enough for him to unfreeze again but the way her smile widened definitely did it, making him go back to running his thumb over her palm softly. Whatever she was thanking him for couldn't be anything bad. Not when her lips were curling up into a smile like this one. She had a lot of things to thank him for? Part of him wanted to disagree with her there, tell her that she also had a lot of things she shouldn't be thanking him for, that she shoul rather dislike him for. What she'd been going through the last few months just had been partly his fault after all. But he kept his mouth shut, not wanting to ruin the moment by going back to talking about what the topic they'd both somehow non-verbally decided to drop. For now anyway.

For keeping your promise. Lewis sighed, glancing at the window behind her for a moment before letting his eyes rest on hers again. Somehow he couldn't say 'of course' or anything close to that, even though that had been his original answer to her question last term. Because to be honest, those last few months had been hell for him, what with all that moments of doubt and everything. Doubt not whether or not he wanted to be with her, or whether or not he thought they should be together but rather whether or not she still wanted all that. There had been moments when he had thought that it was all for nothing. But he hadn't given in. He hadn't stopped waiting for her.

All he did when she apologized again was nod however, offering her a small smile while running his fingers across her cheek again softly. "It was worth the wait..." Yes, it had definitely been worth the wait. A shiver ran down his spine when she lifted her hand to rest her fingers on his jaw, sending small spark of electricity over his skin whenever they moved a little bit. A small gasp escaped his lips when she moved her fingers over to touch his lips, making them quiver slightly in anticipation. All these touches were - while of course not entirely unfamiliar - still new in some way.

There was that sentence again, the sentence she had started earlier but hadn't finished. Maybe she would finish it now. Searching her eyes for some sort of clue, Lewis squeezed her hand in an attempt of encouraging her to go on. And when she did he blinked at her for a second - a little surprised by where this sentence was going - before allowing a few chuckles to escape his lips. Ignoring the blush which had formed on his cheeks again, Lewis moved the hand on her cheek into her hair a little so while leaning in a little. This was new. The fact that she'd asked for permission was the ultimate proof of that. Before, things had just sort of happened...now, this was real. Ironically enough, he was slightly nervous somehow about all of this even though it wasn't the first time. Still, it was a good kind of nervous.

Without dropping his gaze, Lewis leaned in a little further, his other hand squeezing hers again, until their faces were close again. Really close. So close. So close that if either of them leaned in just a tiny bit more they would be touching. Their lips would be touching. Did he really need to answer her question? Did she really need his permission? Did that mean he needed her permission? But no, she had basically just given it to him by stating that she wanted to kiss him. So after a moment of hesitation in which his whole body tensed up a little in anticipation, Lewis leaned in just a little further, brushing his lips against hers.
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Seeing him smile back, even if it was a little faint, but Kurumi's heart at ease. It meant that some of the confusion she had caused was gone and they were moving away from all that past chaos and towards something that made sense. Only his smile was gone almost as quickly as it had appeared and Kurumi bit her lip again nervously. She had said something wrong, but what? No, wrong wasn't exactly the right word here because she was being completely honest with him. Opening up and telling her exactly what she was insecure about. So, it was concern that had washed over his face right now.

Kurumi's heart almost stopped beating at his words and she definitely whimpered. That word, trust, it was a very heavy word in Kurumi's heart right now and it pained her to think that she couldn't trust herself. Or that she was afraid to right now. Looking into his eyes again, seeing the sincerity and clarity the met her, brought a few more tears to her eyes and her lips tugged into a shy smile again. "I...do, Lewis," she finally managed to squeak out, another whimper escaping her lips when she felt his hand tighten around hers. "I do trust you."

And she meant it.

Kurumi was almost embarrassed to look at Lewis after she had almost made the first move, but backed out at the last minute. It was uncanny how shy she suddenly felt around him. It was new, not bad, just new. Before, things hadn't felt like this. His silence right now wasn't helping much either and she felt her heart pounding in her chest more furiously than before. Not to mention the small eyebrow raise caused her cheeks to raise in color again. Everything he did right now, no matter how small, was having that effect on her. None of it was unfamiliar, all his small movements and reactions, but it was like she was experiencing them all for the first time.

Kurumi could tell that Lewis was thinking about things, about what she had just said, and she wished that she could read his mind to know just what it was he was thinking. She could have asked him, but what he said next made her forget her own concern. It was worth the wait... Kurumi had to shut her eyes for a moment as her emotions began to overwhelm her. As if her heart hadn't been pounding hard enough before, it now felt like it was trying to escape from her chest and her cheeks took on another shade of pink. But it wasn't just her cheeks that took on a deeper pink hue. Her hair, not all of it, but enough to be noticeable, was changing to a familiar pink color as well. "Lewis..." she whimpered, bringing her body closer to his.

Her fingers shyly became more curious after this, after hearing his words that carried so much more meaning than she could have ever imagined five small words could. She stopped when he laughed at her and she couldn't help but pout her lips slightly, puff out her cheeks. and the pink hue in her hair to fade away slightly due to embarrassment. She was being serious and innocently so. Still, she understood his laughter as a good sign and before she could tell him not to laugh at her his hand slowly moved from her cheek and into hair, causing her to gasp softly as his touch left a fiery trail across her skin.

He was so close now and while this closeness wasn't new either, it felt like it was the first time and, in a sense, it was. Kurumi didn't dare move, still naively waiting for some sort of verbal cue from him that it was alright for her to close the gap that was taunting them right now. Only it never came and instead Lewis was leaning forward and Kurumi felt her lips quiver in anticipation. Kurumi's stomach tied in knots and her hand squeezed his moments before his lips were against hers. Her other hand hadn't left his jawbone, but his moving forward had resulted in its position shifting to the side of his face right around his temple which allowed her fingers to play with some of his dusty blonde hair.

Then it happened. Kurumi gasped as his lips softly brushed against hers and her eyes fluttered shut. This, right now, this kiss was everything Kurumi had hoped it would be and more. She had been terrified moments earlier, wondering how it would feel this time, but now she couldn't think of anything but how incredible it felt as she softly kissed him back. A shiver ran through her body again like a jolt of electricity. The pink hue to her hair was slowly coming back, but this went unnoticed by Kurumi whose hand had now slowly made its way further into his hair.
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Lewis smiled a little when she said she trusted him, giving her hand another squeeze. "A-and...and I trust you." The moment the words had left his mouth, he knew they were true. Even though after all she'd just said he might not have the best reasons to - at least not according to her - but he just did. He trusted her. He trusted her not to run to somebody else. He trusted her to stay with him until they'd reached an obstacle they couldn't even face together anymore and their way had to part. Which hopefully would never be the case. At least he didn't want to think about all of that now. He trusted her and it had been worth the wait.

Or he hoped it had been worth the wait. Well, unless she backed out now, he was sure it had been. She was definitely worth the wait. When she closed her eyes, Lewis was tempted to reach out and run his finger across her eyelids to make her open her eyes again. Only it was right then that he noticed the change in color of her. Which made him both gasp and smile at the same time as his heart skipped a beat when he caught one strand of her hair between his fingers. "K-kurumi, look..." Lewis said, his voice laced with wonder, disbelief and something which could only be described as pure happiness. They were back, her abilities were back. It wasn't only her eyes that had changed colors, no, now her hair was doing it too. If he hadn't already been leaning in, he would have definitely done so now. There was no way he could stay away from her now.

Not that he wanted to.

The way she sort of froze for a moment when he laughed made Lewis stop immediately, feeling the urge to chew on his lip again. And no! The color of her hair was slowly fading back to black. "S-sorry, sorry, sorry, Kurumi. I...I didn't mean to..." He hadn't laughed to make fun of her, it had rather been a nervous laugh really. Because this situation was just so new, so delicate that he didn't know how to act around Kurumi right now. It was weird. Yet almost too incredible for words at the same time. Hopefully the color of her hair would come back soon!

But now that he got to think of it, it had probably been a good idea of her to ask him. Because up until now he hadn't been one hundred percent certain what was going to happen now anyway. What she wanted to happen. Now though...

Somehow he was still nervous. It was weird but it was true. Those last few seconds - or milliseconds really - before their lips met were filled with thoughts about what was about to happen. And what could go wrong, a lot of what ifs. Feeling her hand move to his temple where it started to play with his hair made his move a little further into hers. Right before he closed that last gap, took that last step, Lewis closed his eyes trying to forget all about his insecurities and fears. This was just for them. This was it. This was going to be the start of something amazing.

And it worked. The moment he felt his lips brush against hers, all those negative thoughts were just gone. Just like that his whole body was just completely focused on the way her lips felt against his. Sighing into the kiss, Lewis pressed his lips against hers a little more firmly as he squeezed her hand again softly. Finally. The way her hand which had ventured a little further into his hair sent shivers across his scalp and down his spine made him smile but break the kiss nonetheless. His hand slowly moved out of her hair and to her lips where his had only been a moment ago.

Just staring at them for a few seconds as he ran his fingers across her lower lip, Lewis then finally looked up to meet her gaze again, a smile playing around his lips. Yes, that's where his lips had just been. And it was okay. There was no need to feel guilty anymore about this. They were allowed to do that. Because they...oh, hang on..."D-does that mean that...that we're..." He stopped blushing, as he dropped his gaze back down to her lips for a moment, smiling a little awkwardly. This was new and he wasn't entirely sure how to word this.
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A soft whimper escaped Kurumi's lips at his next words, her hand responding to his squeeze by lacing her fingers even tighter with his. Feeling the way her fingers felt weaved together with his, the firmness of his hold on her hand, the way it implied that he was never letting go...Kurumi still didn't know what she had done to deserve this. To deserve him. To deserve his trust. But she did...and that was what mattered. A few more tears managed to trickle down her cheeks now as her lips curled up into an even more delicate smile and she tugged on his hand slightly to encourage him to move closer.

It was his gasp, not his words, that made her eyes open at first. Confusion was written all over her face as she searched his eyes for what had started him...only startled wasn't the right word, not if his expression and smile were any indication at least. Her lips parted slightly, about to ask him what it was she was supposed to be looking at, when her gaze followed his hand and then it was her turn to gasp. Her eyes widened and all she could do was stare at the strands of hair Lewis was holding in disbelief. "H-H-How...." was all she could manage to whisper as she felt her heart pound in her chest.

She had thought that her abilities had been gone forever...that now she was like any other witch or wizard...and she hadn't been too sure how to feel about that. Looking into the mirror every day and seeing a face reflected back at her that was both her own and foreign had been one of the most frightening experiences of her life. Yet, it had also been everything she had ever wanted. To not have hair that acted like a mood ring every time she felt a wave of an extreme emotion. To not have eyes that were violet and...wait... "L-Lewis...." she asked, lifting her gaze to meet his again. "My...my eyes...what do they look like?"

Hearing Lewis apologize didn't make her cheeks depuff, at least not right away, and she continued to look at him sheepishly as she wondered just why he had been chuckling. She wasn't entirely sure what to make of his laugh, although she did know that she was glad that he had. It had been too long since she had seen his smile or heard his laughter and it made her heart skip several beats and her cheeks' color to intensify more. Maybe it had been naive of her to have asked that question...

In the end, she was glad that she had.

Even when all Lewis was doing was leaning towards her, Kurumi's heart had begun to race a thousand times faster than she ever imagined it could. All of her senses were heightened and when his lips pressed more firmly against hers the world seemed to just stop spinning and everything was silent except for their breathing. The butterflies in her stomach felt as though they were trying to escape but she don't let them, the feeling was too incredible to let go. Feeling his reaction to her hand in his hair made her want to go further, but Kurumi found herself to content to do so. The way this felt, just this, the sweetness in his touch, the way her lips moved with his, everything about it was too perfect to want anything more. So when Lewis broke the kiss, Kurumi innocently leaned forward to try and hold onto the moment for just a little longer.

What he said next caused her hair to finish its transformation from ebony black to deep pink, his pink, and Kurumi shyly chewed on her lower lip as a soft giggle escaped her lips. Did he really want her to answer that? Did she need to? Was what she was feeling right now the very same reason why he had chuckled earlier? When she had asked if it was alright for her to kiss him? There was a refreshingly nervous energy around them now, an energy that hadn't been there before, at least not like this. Kurumi relaxed her lips now, taking in the feeling of his fingers against them, and she stood up on her tip toes slightly to close the small gap between them he had made just moments earlier. "I'm...yours...Lewis..." Blushing furiously inside her head and out, she pushed herself up to softly press her lips against his again, bumping noses softly as she did.

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Feeling her tug on his hand a little, Lewis' smile broadened a little for a brief second, being reminded of a different time they'd been alone together. He blushed a little at the memory but moved a little closer nonetheless, bringing their bodies even closer together. His eyes were still on her hair which was how he missed all the confusion and surprised that flashed across Kurumi's face. That was until she gasped which made him glance back at her, his smile faltering slightly. That was a good kind of gasp, right? HE definitely thought that this was an incredible thing to have happened now. Her hair...it had changed colors again. And he wasn't even only happy because it had happened now and like this but also just because it HAD happened.

It meant that Kurumi was feeling better again.

H-H-How....? Lewis bit his lip a little and just shrugged when she asked him how that had happened. He couldn't answer that. If she didn't know why her abilities were back, who was he to make any assumptions? He only knew that this was a good sign. And right now he wasn't too interested in the why it had happened or the how. When she mentioned her eyes, he glanced towards her hair again, chewing on his lip almost sheepishly. "T-they...they've been back to violet for a while now." At this he glanced back at her, meeting those violet eyes with a small smile on his lips, looking a little bit like a little boy who had been caught with his hand in the cookie jar. He should have probably mentioned it earlier but...

Watching the way she first chewed on her lip a little before allowing a few giggles to escape her mouth, Lewis stopped tracing her lower lip for a moment to look up at her again. Why was she laughing? Was that a yes? Or did she want him to say it out loud? To finish his sentence? Only he wasn't sure how to finish it...he felt slightly nervous about how to finish it. It felt weird putting a label on it like that. It somehow felt like...like it wasn't enough? Like it wasn't necessary to talk about what society considered them right now. The only important thing was that they themselves knew what they were right now. Only...what exactly was that? And how was he supposed to know?

Kurumi didn't expect him to finish his sentence however it seemed, at least not judging by the way she pushed herself up on her tiptoes again, bringin their faces dangerously close once more. Only it wasn't dangerous anymore. It wasn't wrong anymore. It was right. More than right really. Perfect. His hand slowly trailed down a little, away from her lips and over her chin, along her jawline and back into her hair, his eyes following his hand's path. Which was why he got caught up looking at her hair again. Her hair that had changed color...to a different shade of pink. To...to his shade of pink. At least that was how she had called it back when it had first happened. His shade of pink. And it was back. Not only her abilities were back but...she had lost control around him again. This time there was nothing embarrassing about it, nor anything to feel guilty for.

His eyes went back to hers just in time for her to answer his question. And her answer made him gasp a little at the sheer intensity of it, of what it implied, not what it just meant. She was his. She was fully and truly his. Finally. No more sharing. No more feeling guilty about how he felt about her, about how she felt about it. "I-" He was cut off however by Kurumi crossing that last gap again, which made him forget all about what he'd been about to say. Now wasn't the time anyway for this probably. Not that he knew when that time was. At least now they wouldn't have to feel guilty about how they felt anymore. But still...this was just too new. They were at the start of their relationship. It was as if eveything that had happened before today didn't 'count'. It wasn't necessarily part of their relationship. Their relationship started now. Everything was new.

Even though he wanted to just go on kissing her until they were both too out of breath to do so anymore, there was no rush. They could just kiss whenever they wanted to. There were no boundaries anymore. Which was why Lewis pulled back a little again after only a few seconds, but leaning in right away again to plant another kiss on her lips. While he knew there was no rush, he had already missed the feeling of her lips against his during the one second it had taken him to lean back. This time he just pulled back enough to be able to say what he wanted to say, his eyes trying to convey all those emotions that were coursing through him right now. "And...and I'm all yours, Kurumi." His lips were brushing against hers softly when he replied but even when he was done he didn't lean in again but instead didn't move at all, just smiling at her for a moment.
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Kurumi felt her heart skip a beat as Lewis responded to her pull on his hand and her lips curled up into a shy smile once again. A smile that turned sheepish when she saw him shrug his shoulders and chew on his lip to her question. She hadn't expected him to answer. It had been one of those rhetorical questions that had just sort of slipped out. Not that Kurumi wasn't curious herself as to why, because she wanted to know how it worked as well. Her only option, that she could think of, was to ask her father...but the more she thought about that the less of a good idea it seemed. Her father would have a lot of follow up questions, and those never lead to anywhere good...especially when boys were concerned.

Maybe her and Lewis could just figure out the answer to that question together? Kurumi rather liked that idea.

The way Lewis continued to chew on his lip like that made her want to run her fingers over his lips to make him stop because she was wanting to chew on her lip as well. She nearly did, until he spoke again which drew her gaze away from his lips and back to his eyes. "They....have?" she asked as her body froze in disbelief. How long was a while? When exactly had they changed? All this was sort of vital information to figuring out the why and how her abilities worked and Kurumi's curiosity almost got the better of her, her lips parting slightly to speak, but ultimately closing when his fingers continued to trace her lower lip.

The way his fingers, his touch, left a trail of fire across her skin as his hand moved back into her hair only solidified what Kurumi already knew and made her even more sure of her answer. She didn't even have to see her hair's color this time. She knew it in her heart and in the look in his eyes as her reply left her lips. His soft gasp only made her smile before kissing him. She almost regretted not waiting for him to finish his sentence, the one that both of them always seemed to start but never finish, but she didn't want to keep her lips away from his a moment longer.

When Lewis pulled away again this time, Kurumi's eyes remained closed and her lips tugged into a content smile. The feeling that there had been before today - the one that implied that as one of them pulled away from the other that it was them pulling away from so much more than just a kiss, that they were pulling away from each other, from them - that was gone and replaced by something incredible. They were not just pulling away from this time and that there would be a next time and they were moving towards each other. Towards them.

And the next time came sooner than she thought it would, sending a shiver through her body as Kurumi sighed into the next soft kiss. Her eyes slowly opened when Lewis began to speak, her cheeks flushing a deeper shade of pink with each word and each time his lips moved against her as he whispered his reply. Kurumi returned his smile, but ultimately couldn't keep herself away from him any longer and softly kissed him again, pulling him just a little closer with her hand that was still in his hair.

Reluctantly, Kurumi lowered herself back down so her feet were flat against the ground and their lips parted again. Kurumi continued to look at Lewis, taking in everything that he was trying to convey in his gaze and her hand that had been in his hair reached for his other, lacing her fingers with his, and dropping it down to their side, both of their hands now connected.

"What...do we do now?" Kurumi asked sheepishly, swaying their hands slightly while her thumbs traced random patterns over his palms.
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Oh good. She wasn't mad at him for not telling her sooner. Or at least she didn't LOOK mad. Lewis himself wasn't quite sure why he hadn't said anything. It had just been...so amazing that they had changed back to violet again that he had been momentarily speechless, too occupied with taking in their new old color. And trying to come up with an explanation as to why they had changed back. Why now. And if it was a permanent change this time. It looked like it was though, so why hadn't he said anything the moment he'd realized that? What had kept him from sharing something so amazing with Kurumi?

Other things had come up. The topic of their conversation had shifted to something a lot more important. Them.

Even though now that he got to think of it, those two topics were probably closely related. He felt her freeze under his hands which caused his smile to become even more sheepish as he glanced down at his fingers on her lips again for a moment. "Y-yes. They changed colors...earlier. When we...when we started talking about...well, when we started talking about us." Those were just the facts there, maybe she would come to a different solution than him. Maybe she would think that the two things weren't related after all, that her eyes had just changed because they'd felt they'd been brown for too long. That it had just been time for Kurumi to go back to being herself again.

That or maybe his assumption was correct after all. Was that it? Was that what Selina had been talking about? About how he was probably the only person that could get Kurumi out of that dark place she'd been in the last couple of months. Was that now? Had he finally succeeded in doing that? Of course it wasn't all his doing, no, Kurumi had been considerably better than how she'd been right after the breakup. At least judging from what he'd heard from Selina. Who was also - in his eyes - the person he should thank here. The person they should all thank. She'd managed to make Kurumi almost herself again, had at least encouraged her to go leave her bed again once in a while. Had helped her deal with what she'd been going through, was probably still going through. Yes, he might have helped give Kurumi that final push but Selina had done everything before that.

In his eyes, that was a lot more than he had done.

Feeling the way his lips brushed against hers when he spoke made him shiver once again at the sheer intensity of the moment. At how intimate this moment was right now. He ignored the blush forming on his lips, searching her eyes to see if everything was alright with her. If she was alright with everything. All he could see however was how completely content she was right now. Which only made him smile some more while he started playing with her hair again, his heart beating at a rate that probably wasn't healthy anymore. But he didn't care. This moment was just...perfect. Them right now, right here. It was incredible.

His blush intensified when she leaned forward again to bring their lips together for yet another kiss, his eyes closing to be able to savor the moment even more. It was true what he'd said earlier. They just couldn't stay away from each other it seemed. Trying to hold on to her lips with his own for just a second longer, he smiled when she finally pulled back, giving them a little space and helping him stop himself from kissing her again. Of course he could have just leaned down towards her again but he had gotten a little bit of self-restraint back it seemed. So all he did was smile down at her, just looking at her for the time being. He could probably do this all day, actually.

Allowing for her to take his other hand in hers, he started chewing on his lower lip thoughtfully at her question. "Uhm..." Was she talking about right now? Or was this a from now on sort of now? If it was about right now there was part of him that wanted to suggest never leaving this classroom. It was so nice in here, it was just them. But he knew that wasn't possible and also that there was no need to hide from anybody anymore. Okay, Jonathan maybe. Lewis tugged on both of her hands a little with his eyes on the way their fingers were laced together once more. "I...I don't know. We can do whatever we want to. We can...go anywhere we want to. We can...we can also stay here if you want." The 'we' being the important part here. They were so connected right now, he didn't really want to be too far away from her.
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