Aww sweet!! PAMS

Nessie POV:

God, how could I have been such an idiot! He's my best friend and I kissed him like a horny teenager. I pulled back away from him and stared into his beautiful eyes. His eyes were wide, full of surprise. Oh god! The pit twisted in my stomach and I had the sudden urge that I would be sick. I put my hand to my mouth and willed the tiles to stop spinning beneath me.

"Ness, I-I'm sorry." My head snapped in his direction. Tears pricked at my eyes and blurred my vision. He regrets the kiss. I knew he would. God, why did I kiss him? I felt like I had been stabbed in my stomach and the knife is being twisted slowly ripping my insides apart. No, I can't cry in front of him. I jumped up and ran away from him. Sure, it was a childish thing to do but I needed to get away. I need to cry and get it out of my system. I only vaguely heard Cedric call for me as I ran down the corridor. When I got to the bathroom I found an empty stall and locked myself in it. I rested my head on the stall wall and started balling my eyes out.

I'm so stupid! How could I have ever thought he would be interested in me in that way? How can we ever go on from this? Will there always be that lasting awkwardness between us? Maybe if I ignore this ever happened, we will eventually move on and we'll be like we used to be. It's not the brightest plan but if I work at it I'm sure everything will resolve itself. By the time I had run out of tears, I was set on my plan. Wiping the remaining tears off my cheeks, I left the stall. Looking in the mirror, I hardly recognized the figure staring back at me. She looked completely heartbroken. Her eyes were red and puffy, her cheeks tear stained, and her eyes - her eyes were dull and lifeless. Realizing that the figure in the mirror was me, I turned around and left the bathroom as quickly as possible.

When I entered the Grand Hall, Cedric looked towards me, pleading with his eyes for me to come to him. I slowly shook my head. I don't think I can handle sitting next to him right now. I sat down at the end of the Hufflepuff table, next to a seventh year who looked at me oddly when I sat down. I piled my plate with a few items to keep up appearances but didn't eat any of it. Typically ,I would eat but I don't think I my stomach can handle it. A throat cleared across the table from me. I looked up to see a familiar dark haired, dark eyed man.

"He's an idiot you know," He said offhandedly, sticking some food into his mouth. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"What are you talking about?" I asked staring at him. He seemed so familiar. Where have I seen him before?

"Your boyfriend. He's an idiot for breaking up with you. Any guy would be lucky to have you you know." My eye brows furrowed.

"What the hell are you talking about?" I asked. He sighed clearly frustrated. He pinched the bridge of his nose and took a deep breath in.

"That bloke . . . Diggory what's-his-name," He said waving his hand. He is seriously starting to tick me off. Suddenly I remembered where I had seen him before. He was in my Divination class in my first year! He was the jerk!

"His name is Cedric. And he's not my boyfriend." I hissed leaning closer to him. "And I honestly think it's none of your business. So butt out!" He leaned closer to me as if he wanted to tell me a secret, I leaned back away from him. He looked off to the side then back to me and raised an eyebrow.

"It's my business when your boyfriend keeps sending those lost puppy looks in our direction. It's really annoying. But you know what? He doesn't deserve you so I find it quite amusing." I gritted my teeth together and bit the inside of my cheek to keep me from lashing out at him. I looked toward Cedric, and indeed he was looking at us but there was no so called lost puppy looks on his face, just pure fury. I turned back to the *** and glared at the amused look on his face.

"He's. Not. My. Boyfriend." I hissed between my clenched teeth. Underneath the table I clenched my fists so tight my knuckles turned white. He raised another condescending eyebrow.

"Nessie - It is Nessie right? There are many more men that are more deserving of you than him." He said. I raised an eyebrow at him sarcastically.

"You among them?" I asked sarcastically. He smirked and grabbed my hand. I immediately snapped my hand back under the table while continuing to glare at him.

"At the very top babe." I snorted at his cockiness.

"Look, as interesting as this conversation is, I'm going to leave before I feel entitled to file a restraining order on you," I said before getting up and leaving the Grand Hall. I quickly headed to the Hufflepuff common room and sat down on the couch, rubbing my temples. Suddenly the couch sank and someone's hand touched my thigh. I sighed. Can't he take the hint? I don't like him.

"I'm going to give you ten seconds to get your paws off me before I rip them off and place them on my mantle at home. Ten . . . nine . . . eight. . ." His hand quickly left my thigh.

"Ness it's me . . . Ced. I understand that you don't want to see me. I was a complete and total tool. I shouldn't have attacked you like that. I'm sorry . . . can we talk about it?" My eyes snapped open and I looked at Cedric. I didn't want to do this now. Not now. I stood up and with a fake yawn, I looked at my watch.

"Gosh Ced, I'm tired can we do this some other time?" For good measure I yawned again and started heading up towards the stairs. Cedric grabbed my hand and spun me around.

"Ness, I need to know . . . Are we good?" I sighed and nodded.

"Yeah Ced, we're good." He let go of my hand and smiled as he breathed out a held breath. I turned around and headed up to the girl's dorm.

That was the last time we ever spoke of the kiss.

She doesn't seem to be able to handle situations very well... I feel sorry for Cedric Hopefully she starts to appreciate Cedric and resume their wonderful friendship if not, a little bit more

@Jessiqua She has never had to deal with these type of emotions on such a level that she has. You'll just have to wait and see.

On an off note I will update later today as soon as I get it typed from my notebook. (I write long hand)

UPDATE 11/6:

CPOV:

She doesn't feel the same way I just know it. Why would such a beautiful girl like her ever be interested in me? In those sappy romance movies the best friend always gets the girl in the end. Why just once, can't my life be some fairy tale love story? I love her beyond reason and I only want the best for her. Am I not what's best for her? My face went pale at the thought of it.

When she came into the Great Hall she ignored me completely. And sat as far away as possible on the other side of the Hufflepuff table. Never once in the five years that we've known each other, never had she refused to sit with me. Even when I did stupid stuff that ticked her off she'd still sit with me. Even during the time when I accidentally burnt some of Kamilah's feathers off when I tried giving her a treat.

Kamilah hates me – or any other males for that matter – so to stop her incessant hooting I levitated some treats to her. They burst into flames when it landed in her cage. If I had gone up to her cage she would have snapped at my fingers and screeched until Nessie would come in. The whole idea of shutting her up backfired, but I did try to fix it . . .

Sort of. Nessie saw the place where the feathers were burnt off. She was beyond annoyed. She refused to talk to me for a week. But she still sat with me.


This is different though. She won't even look at me. I really screwed up on this one. Why couldn't I just be happy being friends? Why did I have to let my stupid teenage boy hormones get in the way?

I started dejectedly at the table for a while, not really eating anything. Then she started talking to Jason a guy in our year that I know for a fact likes Ness. My anger boiled in my veins and I clenched my hands together under the table. As they continued to talk Ness' face started morphing into her 'Don't say another word or I'll cut you' face. I smiled inwardly to myself as he kept talking and talking until Nessie got up and stormed away. My smile dropped and I got up, my food long since forgotten and sprinted after her. I followed her up the stairs and to the Hufflepuff common room.

When I gt there she was leaning over her knees and rubbing her temples with her forefingers. She's frustrated. I took a deep breath and quietly walked over to her sitting down next to the couch. When she didn't look up I put my hand on her thigh. Her scowl deepened even further.

“I'm going to give you ten seconds to get your paws off me before I rip them off and place them on my mantle at home. Ten . . . nine . . . eight” My hand quickly snapped away from her thigh. I cleared my throat nervously before starting. My leg starting bouncing as a nervous habit.

“Ness it's me . . . Ced. I understand that you don't want to see me. I was a complete and total tool. I shouldn't have attacked you like that. I'm sorry . . . can we talk about it?” I asked stuttering slightly. Nessie was never one to forgive easily, as I have learned throughout the years, but she was also nt one to talk about feeling. They made her uncomfortable. She didn't enjoy laying everything she had out on the table. She liked to keep cards hidden. But right now I really need her to lay it all out there. I need to know if she does feel something for me.

I can see it in her eyes. She wanted to run. She stood up to stretch and she yawned. Little did she know that I can see right through her. She's not going to fool me.

“Gosh Ced I'm tired can we do this some other time?” Again she yawned and started heading upstairs before I could protest. I quickly snatched her hand turning her back towards me. I looked her in her unmeetable eyes.

“Ness I need to know . . . Are we good?” She sighed and nodded. For some reason I couldn't bring myself to call her out on her lies.

“Yeah Ced we're good.” She said unsmiling. It was good enough for me I could work with good. I unwillingly let go of her hand and she turned and went up the girls staircase. I stood there for a few moments before collapsing on the couch.

“Oh Nessie!” I groaned covering my eyes and shaking my head.

That conversation didn't go exactly as planned. I thought with a sigh. I rubbed my forehead in frustration. I really wanted her to talk with me about what happened earlier this evening and she just wants us to go on as we would have normally. Just pretend it never happened. If we don't acknowledge it never happened. I laughed darkly. Guess what Ness, I remember it! The memory of our kiss is engrained in my memory. You'd have to pour bleach in my head before I could ever forget. Not like I'd want to forget anyway.

It's an outrage! I must have really underestimated her feelings for me if I didn't expect her to react like that. With thinking this I became depressed. I soon found myself taking back my stance. I wanted to forget. I wanted to have our friendship back to the way it was.

I soon began wishing I could turn back time.

A/N: Hello people of Snitchseeker! This is my present to you. Merry Christmas/Kwanzaa/Hanukkah or any other wintery holiday!

“Oh Ced. I’m going to miss you.” I said flinging my arms around his neck clinging to him tightly. I buried my head in his neck and sobbed a bit. I never wanted to let him go. Never.

It’s summer time again. It’s time for Cedric and I to part ways until next year. Each time it gets harder and harder. Maybe it’s just my stupid girl feelings getting in the way or maybe it something – dare I say – more?

Months have passed since our encounter. I tried not to think about it but every once and awhile my mind will slip and I start wondering what could have been. What if I hadn’t been scared to accept him? What if he actually did like me and I wasn’t just another pair of boobs to him? As much as I try to push back that silly insecure girl the more she pushes back like the stubborn brat she is.

“You’ll write right?” He asked giving me a slight kiss on the cheek. I felt a tingling sensation run through me and I felt the urge to caress my cheek. I held myself back as not to bring up any questions. I griped him a bit harder and nodded.

“Of course! You have to respond though. You can’t leave me hanging like last year, Mr. Prefect.” I said teasingly. He smiled cheekily and messed up my hair. I playfully glared at him.

“I promise.” He said holding up his pinky finger. I laughed and grabbed his hand intertwining my pinky with his. My eyes locked with his and I swear the world froze. His beautiful blue-gray eyes entranced me and I couldn’t break out of their spell. I don’t think I wanted to even if I could. Panic crept up through stomach as I gained control of my thoughts. He was my best friend and I didn’t want to lose him. I didn’t want to risk things.

“Renesmee!” My mother called from across the way. I smiled at her and signaled her to give me a minute. I gathered Kamilah and my trunk. Cedric and I stood the awkwardly for a moment. I tapped on Kamilah’s cage as a anxiety habit. She nipped at my fingers when she grew annoyed at the incessant tapping. I immediately jerked my hand away. I pulled Cedric in for one strong final hug.

“I’ll see you next year. You better write!” I called as I walked away and towards my family. My dad wrapped me into his arms and kissed the side of my forehead. I was happy to be back with my family. I missed them so much while I was at Hogwarts and I never really realized it till I was back in their arms.

“I’m so glad you’re back, Little Love.” My dad said. Tears welled up in my eyes at the endearment. I clutched him tighter. I looked back at him with watery tears in my eye.

“Oh dad! I missed you so much!” I said. He smiled back down at me looking as if he wanted to cry.

“We missed you too Sweetheart.” He said. I looked to the rest of my family and smiled happily. I ran over and hugged mom tightly. She kissed my hair lightly. She smiled at me with a smiled that could only be one of a mothers. She brushed back hair that fell near my face.

“How was school darling?” She asked. I smiled and shrugged thinking of the past school year and all of the boring nothings that went on. But of course there was the sad highlight of this year. I wasn’t quite ready to share that with the family yet. They just thought that Cedric was just an acquaintance. Thinking about what my father would do if he thought otherwise made me shiver in freight.

“It was . . . school. Nothing really much to tell. Snape is still evil as ever.” I said. Mother nodded and wrapped her arms around my shoulders. Father followed in suit. They led me to the car occasionally commenting and laughing. I laughed along with them, happy to have my family back.

Dad led me to the Volvo and held the door open for me. He took my trunk and stowed it away in the trunk and gave Kamilah to me to keep with me in the back seat. He slid into the drivers seat and started the car. Soon we were on the road to our England home.

“I swear that bird is pure evil.” He said looking at me through the rear view mirror, his eyes sparkling with happiness. I pouted and pet Kamilah through her cage. I shook me head.

“Don’t listen to him honey. He doesn’t mean it. He’s just being a big baby. Yes he is.” I cooed at Kamilah. She hooted happily and rubbed her neck against the bars of her cage.

I saw dad shake his head out of the corner of my eye. I snickered quietly to myself.
As we drove on I found my eyelids become ten times heavier. Eventually I let the darkness overcome me. I rested my head on the window and fell asleep.

~ A ~ C ~ W ~ L ~ S ~

Light kisses pressed onto my eyelids waking me out of my dream. I tried to pretend to be sleeping but I didn’t fool him. I never could. He always saw right through me. He moved his way down to kiss my cheek and then lower to kiss my collarbone and the tops of my breasts. I giggled and ran my fingers through his silken hair. He hummed lightly against my neck placing sweet kisses against it.

“Good you’re up.” He said. I slowly opened my eyelids to reveal him and his morning beauty. I swear I don’t know how he does it. He always looks so amazing. I don’t think I’ll ever get enough of him, even if we live to be a million years old. I smiled lazily up at him.

“Yeah, only because you got me up. Now what could you possibly want that would require waking me up?” I said with my voice still a bit raspy with sleep. He leaned in and kissed me sweetly. He pouted his beautiful lips.

“I’m hungry.” He said sounding a bit like an overgrown child. I raised my eyebrow in question. I was a little baffled as to why he chose to wake me up for food. He knows how I feel about my sleep being disturbed.

“You chose to wake me up for food?” I asked. His face suddenly lit up and he smirked evilly.

“Not for food darling.” I suddenly got a confused look on my face. He said he was hungry didn’t he? My confusion must have been apparent on my face. With his smirk still on his face he crawled his way up my body and kissed me hungrily. My eyes widened when I realized his meaning. I didn’t stop him. I invited his affection with much vigor. As our tongues mingled I couldn’t help but to think how perfect we were for each other.

“Nessie . . . Nessie . . . “ I suddenly realized I was being shaken but not by the beautiful man above me. My eyes snapped open and I looked around to take in my surroundings. I was in my parent’s car, not the comfortable bed. My mom’s eyes were the ones I saw first not the beautiful blue-gray ones that were slowly melting me. I couldn’t help but to shed a tear at the lost dream. Just a dream, only a dream. My mother hugged me to her chest.

“Oh honey, what’s wrong?” She asked her voice full of concern. I shook my head wiping my tears furiously.

“I just had a dream.” Mom nodded understandingly and held my cheek in her palm. She hugged me tightly rocking me back and forth.

“Alright, let’s go inside. The rest of the family is anxious to see you again. They all missed you so much. We all did really.” She said leading me into the house with Kamilah’s cage tucked in my hands. The whole family was gathered in the living room. As soon as I entered the room they all surrounded me and hugged me. I welcomed them all but right now I was really tired. I had that feeling that you get where you feel like crap right after you take a nap and you just want to continue napping. Eventually dad interceded and let me go to my room for the night.

When I reached my room I collapsed onto my bed with a sigh. As the warmth of my blanket surrounded me I blissfully slipped into unconsciousness.

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Last Updated: 24/12/2011