Text Cut: pre-Rosier catchup
Heath didn’t expect Professor Varma to reassure him, and even if she did, he wouldn’t have believed it. Every word he said was true. He was a nerdy halfblood, and no matter how hard he tried to act otherwise, that was all he could ever be. He’d known that for quite some time now (however long it had been since he was locked away in The Room); all the professor’s comments did was drive the point home.
He kept his eyes down, only forcing himself to look up when the professor spoke again, and he caught the angry look Claudine sent him. He didn’t know what he did wrong, but he still gave an apologetic look in return. Knowing he upset her made him feel even worse than ever! With his emotions running high, it was nearly impossible to concentrate on the question, but he tried to block out everything around him. Dangers of using Polyjuice Potion… his thoughts immediately went to accidental animal transformations, but that was already said. Then another idea occurred to him. What if the specimen added to the potion wasn’t a hair at all? What if someone added a synthetic fiber that looked like a hair by mistake? Would the potion not work at all, or would it transform the drinker into that material?
Before Heath could raise his hand to speak, all Hades broke loose. He wasn’t the slightest bit shocked to learn that Upstead had joined the Inquisitorial Squad; they were way too eager to embrace Rosier’s ruthless ways, even before anyone knew that was Rosier and not Headmaster Trent! Nor did he feel betrayed, In order to be betrayed, he would’ve had to have trusted the person in question at some point. Part of him wanted to laugh at the utter ridiculousness of their statement - in all his time at Hogwarts, the only thing he’d ever seen Upstead maintain was chaos - but he didn’t. Not out of fear but all-consuming hate, hate so strong that even acknowledging their existence was too good for them. As of now, That was dead to him.
That hate was joined with worry… worry for
Minjae and that other injured guy (
Moose) and worry in general as Rosier appeared. It was too much emotion for Heath to process all at once, so he just sort of shut down. His entire body stiffened, as if frozen in place, and all he could do was watch with blank, unblinking eyes as four of his classmates (
Ashley, Minjae, Kale, and
Moose) vanished in a cloud of black smoke. Although his body remained motionless, his heart and mind were going a million miles an hour. What just happened? Were they dead? Probably not… if Rosier had killed them, he probably would’ve left the bodies as a reminder. Maybe they were vanished out of existence instead?
Whatever it was, Heath had a feeling they were gone forever. That thought broke his heart, but he was too numb to react. Ashley was his friend, and he liked Minjae well enough. He didn’t know Kale and that other kid (Moose) well, but neither of them deserved that and Varma… It was only hearing how small and quiet the professor’s voice sounded that jerked him out of his near-catatonic state. Every day of his imprisonment, he wished that all of the professors who left him to his fate would know his pain, but now that it happened, he didn’t feel vindicated, just more sad.
Then just like that, they were moving on. Now on top of everything else he felt, Heath was confused.
Inhabit their persona? Successful Polyjuice performance? That sounded
exactly like acting! So what was the point of Varma’s earlier comments? If acting was such an inferior art form, why was this activity acceptable? Whatever, he didn’t care anymore. He supposed he didn’t have to make sense of it, just go with it.
He got up from his seat, grabbing a quill and parchment.
“Does anyone need a partner?” he asked, his dark eyes scanning the room in search of a person not already paired up. So far, it looked like everyone was already taken, and panic set in. He didn’t want to get into trouble for not completing the activity! While he waited for someone to take him up on his offer, he quietly observed all of his classmates’ mannerisms, just in case he could find a partner in time.