I sighed as I placed my trunk into Kira's room, where I was supposed to be staying. I exited the room and stopped at the hallway and looked towards the door that Will was in. Maybe I should talk to him? Of course I wouldn't tell him everything, but just hint and maybe get some advice? Although, I didn't know how to do that... Ahh! Why was everything so confusing now? Hmm? Why couldn't I handle my life anymore? I just dragged myself behind the door and knocked. When Will opened the door, I smiled, though it wasn't a natural smile. I was so tense.
"Hey!" I said, silently. "Do you mind? I'd like to talk to you..." I asked carefully. I don't know what I was so afraid of, probably the fact that I trusted him too much and I might just tell him everything.
"Sure, come in!" He said as he closed the door behind me. I stood across the room from him and turned to face him.
"I..." I started, thinking what to say, as I still wasn't sure. "I just wanted to appologize, for my behaviour I have had lately!" I said and looked down at my feet.
"I don't think you should be appologizeing for me..." He answered. I knew he was thinking about Stevie. Just when I was about to say something everything went blank in my eyes and I stepped back, nudging o the windowsill. Then, out of the dark, I saw a scroll of paper, which was glittering in some light, and on it were some odd words, most probably some spells and charms, written in red ink. Then the map dissapeared and the face of Draco Malfoy appeared, laughing, though I didn't hear the laugh. Then the image dissapeared and I saw Luke's room again.

I sighed and shook my head as I sat down on the bed,
"Really, if you keep pushing Stevie away then we will be in the same problem we were a few months ago and-" It was now that I had noticed B was leaning on the window, holding the sides of her head. I quickly got to my feet and helped her stand back up, she seemed to be a little out of breath. "Was it another vision?" I asked, my voice shaking the slightest.
"I... I think so" She said, her falling over her eyes a little. I ran my hand over it to push it back, then led her over to Luke's bed to sit on.
"What did you see? Is Stevie in trouble?" I asked her, getting a little more nervous as she didn't say.
"No, it was a map... it had red writing on it and Draco seemed happy about it. He seemed like it was the greatest thing he had ever seen..." B told me, her eyes welling up a little. I shook my head, in shock. I didn't say it, but I instantly knew that this was what Draco had sent Pettigrew to find, him and Voldemort where obviously planning something.
"I'll go tell Kira okay?" I said, not wanting her to get up after that, "I don't think we should run to Mc Gonagall, she seems to already know about the map. I doubt its in her desk anymore" I looked at her, my head lolled to one side smiling at her sweetly. I knew what she had done to Stevie wasn't fair or justified, but I did care for her a lot more then I had thought about in a while.

When I opened my eyes after the vision, Will's eyes were looking straight into mine. His head was so close and I could feel his warm breath on my face. I just looked into his eyes for a while, and then, I must have turned really out of my mind I moved my hand behind his head and pulled it closer to meet his lips in a kiss. I closed my eyes as I kissed him and thoughts were running though my mind. What was I doing? I must really be going out of my mind! I had Alex and Will had Kira and now... Now I was kissing him, though I didn't pull away as I still held my hand at his head and played with his hair.

((Edit Ooc: Have you ever heard of thoughts running throught your face? Anyway, I corrected that funny typo...))

It was a complete state of shock for a few seconds, I didn't know how to react, my heart was racing and my eyes where wide open. I had automatically began enjoying it for a few seconds, then my senses kicked in, she was like my sister!
"B!" I said in a muffled voice, then pushed her off of me in a rather undignified fashion. "What in the world are you doing!" It was me who was now out of breath, she watched me for a few seconds, her hair was kind of messy. She seemed to be in the same shock as me. "You're Birgit Black!" I gasped, still glaring at her with wide eyes. I quickly turned and ran out of the room, I stormed down the stairs and ran out into the snowy fields, I didn't know where I was going but I needed some air.
I touched my lips, wiping off the lipstick she had left behind, my mind racing. I wasn't at all attracted to her in that way, she had gone crazy.

ooc: And Will has now officially kissed all three of his best friends!

My head fell to the bed as Will broke away. Why was it now that I came to my sences? It was kinda late now! I would never be able to face him again... Or Alex... Maybe it would just be better if I ran away and would join with Draco? The thought of killing myself had come, but I managed to press it down as quickly. I didn't want to die! No! I just wanted to live a normal life! The life I had lived before! Before last year, when that stu.pid Voldemort had posessed me. Why me? I went a hand over my lips, wiping away the lipstick that the kiss had messed up. Then why had I liked the kiss? I had really enjoyed it, even though I now hated myself for it. But his eyes... I had seen something in them. Something that had invited me to kiss him. I had to admit that I was going crazy, and there was nothing I could think of to help myself.
I jumped up from the bed and ran out of the room. I ran to the attic, the dark room I had been last year, when I found the box and sat in a corner, hiding my face to my hands. Was there any way for me now? Or had I really messed everything up the way it can't be mend again? I sure hoped not. I wanted them all back. Will, Kira, and even Stevie. But how will I ever explane it to Alex?

I walked out of my room to see Will rushing out of Luke's. I stood at Luke's door, to see B lying down on the bed, looking extremely troubled.
I shrugged, was this how everything was going to be all the time now? It was never going to go back to the way things used to be, I couldn't take everyone fighting anymore and just st anding in the middle of it.
"Kira?" I heard a voice and looked to find my mom at the foot of the stairs.
"It's dinner soon, best tell your friends?" she sighed and walked back down.
"Okay... Mum," I sighed as well but she turned back around smiling slightly.
"Hey B, dinner, I'll get Will," I said and waited for her to respond but she didn't answer. I threw on my coat and stood at the porch, watching Will out in the snow.
"Will!!" I called, "Dinner!"

Dinner? In other wods meeting everyone downstairs in the kitchen? I don't think so. No... How would I? At the very moment I wanted to dissapear from everything. Be somewhere were I wouldn't be so troubled. Somewhere peaceful! But I couldn't just stay sitting here for the rest of my life!? Though I might have wanted to. I would have to go down eventually. I would die in embarrasement if I see his face. Anyones face!
I got up with a deep sigh and slowly moved to the door. I would just remain straing at the floor and absolutely under no circumstances(sp) must I raise my face to look at Will. He probably hates me. Everyone would if they'd found out what had happened. But I hated myself the most...

I stared at the white snow, my stomach felt like it had dropped further then before. Had this signified the start of the end of me and B being close? The feelings between Stevie and I had led to a division, would this do the same?
"Will?" The voice called behind me "It's dinner and I'm freezing!" It was Kira, shouting in a shrill voice.
"Yeah, I'm coming!" I shouted back, angry that she had broke my chain of thought. I followed her back inside to the crowded kitchen, wiping the snow off my sleeves. I saw B over the other side of the room, she wasn't looking at me. Just as I had feared, it had began, we were drifting apart for the first time in four years.
"William" My mother said, taking my arm and pulling me into the next room. She pulled out a tissue and started wiping my lips, "If you are going to go outside to make out with Kira then atleast get the lipstick off! Heaven forbid Ron catches you!"
I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything and returned to the kitchen.

When sitting behind the table silently I heard Hermione talk to Will. I felt a shrill of cold going over my back and I went a hand over my lips again, trying to wipe away all the lipstick that might still be left there. I couldn't bare this. No... I had to talk to Will and really ask for forgiveness. It would kill me if he wouldn't be close to me anymore, and after what had happened I was sure that he probably didn't want to see me again. But I had to talk to him, try to make at least on thing better. Who would I talk to then if not Will?
I raised my head as Will walked to the kitchen and stood up, walking over to him carefully. "Do you mind if I... talk to you?" I said quietly. That's what I had said when I entered his room beofre. Hopefully he will hear me out.

I was watching Mrs Weasley over the other side of the table as she put down a large platter with salad on the table. I was concentrating on it so hard that I didn't notice B was talking to me. I got up from the table,
"I need to go to the bathroom" I walked straight past B and into the living room. I ran up to Luke's room, slamming the door and leaning against it.
I closed my eyes and remembered two years ago, standing in the hall with Stevie...
Stevie looked down at my hands, tears started to fill her eyes. "Will" she said starting to cry. "What happened between us? I miss you so much. Even just seeing you everyday makes my heart break. You are the only one who actually can make me feel better. You have something inside of you that amazes me even to this day." She spoke as tears flooded her cheeks. "Will I dont want to lose you" She said pulling me in a hug.
I opened them and looked around the room, my heart pounding harder then before. Then closing them again, I remembered more..
Kira Weasley came running up to me as I danced with Charlotta Corner,
"Will!" She tapped my shoulder "Will you dance with me?"
Charlotte's mouth dropped to the ground as she stepped infront of me, rather pretectivly.
"Excuse me" She harped "Will is my partner, red! Isn't that right Will?" She turned and gave me a cool smile. She was very, very pretty, but had the personality of a brick wall.
"Charlotte, it's just one dance...you seem to be going very good on your own" I said, then took Kira's hand and begun dancing with her. I felt better then I had all night.
I opened my eyes once again, but the memories didn't stop there...
"Will!" Rachel cried, leaning onto my and holding me closely, she whispered in a low voice, "I'm sorry"
"Sorry for what?" I said, feeling her tears on my cheek.
"For what I have to do" She replied, "Just so you know... I love you too..."
I got to my feet, holding my head. All the girls I had been with over the years, none of them meant more to me then B. But it was different, she was my sister and not my lover. I opened the door and headed downstairs, I bumped into B on the way.
"I was just-" She started nervously.
"Looking for me?" I asked, taking a deep breath, "We need to talk, huh?"

I was kind of suprised when Will strolled past me. I let out a sigh and walked to the stairs, leaning myself against it to wait for his return. I was going to make it better, one way or the other! When he returned, he bumped into me and which sounded like snapping, he said:
"We need to talk, huh?"
"Yeah..." I said, a bit unsure in myself. Maybe he didn't want to listen to my ramblings? I just took his hand and dragged him into the living room, then took one step away from him, so I, or him, wouldn't feel uncomfortable, if so... "I really don't know what got into me..." I started. "I-I-... I really am very sorry... I do hope that this won't ruin our friendship and that you can, someday, forgive me that... -insident..." I said, trying not to start crying. I thought that this would be a best time to leave, but I really wanted to see how he reacted. If he's going to scream at me, or just going to stand there, glaring right through me, as McGonagall does. "I promise you, that it won't happen again..." I added silently, still holding my tears up. I raised my head now and looked into his eyes. I would die if he won't forgive me...

I looked from Hermione to my dad and Mum, then to everyone else around the table. I heard a door slam, and watched B walk up stairs.
"Well, I didn't think the food was all that bad but ya know," I grinned and my Dad gave me a look, so I sat down and continued eating silently. I caught eyes with Hermione for a second then looked away, awkwardly.

OOC Sorry I've been away for so long, I'll make up for it OOC

I was sitting in an airport terminal in the United States, the news that had just been given to me by Ephram had kind of sent me for a whirl. I needed a drink (lol), I went over to a little kiosk called Auntie Anne's and grabbed a pretzel and a coke. I sat down next to Ephram, he was being quiet, and I knew why. We stood up, "Listen" He started., "Nevermind about that now, we'll deal with it later" I said to him and took his hand. We walked out of the airport to the bus that was waiting for us, we were to meet Bradin at a hotel in NYC. I boarded the bus, and when I did Will's voice popped into my head, I tried to push it out but I couldnt.
"Stevie, dont go" I heard him say it over and over in my head, and then I noticed I was holding Ephrams hand. I suddenly felt overwhelmed with guilt. But I knew I couldnt leave hiim alone when he really needed me. "So how long did they give you" I asked. "They dont know, all they know is it's terminal." He said and looked away, I realized I would be left alone once again.

We walked into the hotel room, Bradin was sitting on the bed, there were stacks of pictures and video tapes. I immediately felt compelled to hug him. I went over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck, I could smell his aftershave and a hint of mint. I pulled away, "This is amazing" I said, "Yea, it is" He spoke. It was like listening to yourself, only deeper. "Soo this is some stuff I've had. I didnt realize you didnt have anything." He said and took out a VHS and popped it into the VCR. The tape started to play, Bradin and I were on the floor of a living room playing with a train. My mother and father picked each of us up, we were about 2, 2 1/2. "Wow" I said to him. "Yea, its hard." He said, as I swore he wiped a tear off his face.

I looked into B's eyes, I was overwhelmed with relief that she just hadn't admitted she had feelings for. I had enough girls feelings to deal with, without having to hurt B aswell. I didn't say anything, I just smiled and hugged her.
"You know I'm not mad at you!" I said, as if the very thought was insane. "It was just one of those moments, you are probably missing Alex a lot and turned to the nearest masculine form of firmiliarity" I rambled on for a small while discussing the reasons behind her actions.
"William! Birgit!" Hermione said, poking her head into the living room, "Get in here now! You are being really rude!"
"Sorry" We both said at the same time, returning to the kitchen for the dinner, which now looked a lot more appealing.

OOC: I like your siggy, Will!

I watched as Will and B sat back down, along with Hermione. Thirty minutes later or so everyone got up from dinner, and I stayed in the kitchen washing off my plate with Will and B.
"What was all that about?" I asked the two of them. They exchanged glances before answering me.
"Well, erm, B had another vision," Will answered.
"You did? What'd you see?" I turned to her.

I glanced at my watch, "So" I said to him. "Now what?" He asked. "I dont know." "Oh, I have something of yours." He said standing up, grabbing a bin under his bed. "Here" he said. "Open it" I did, and inside was a doll. I picked it up and smelt it.

I felt kind of better when Will answered Kira's question. I was relived that there was no tention between us, or awkwardness, but I felt so sorry for going behind Kira's back. I put my plate, which was now clean, away and sat on the countier next to the sink.
"I saw Dra... Malfoy!" I said simply in a hushed voice so no one else would head me. "With a map of somekind!" I added. Kira looked at Will. None of them seemed to have no idea about it. "Do you think the map has any connections to Pettigrew at Hogwarts? You know the thing McGonagall was talking about?" I asked, looking from one to the other.
"Might as well be!" Will said, also putting his clean plate away. "Malfoy sent Pettigrew after it. That must be something important..." He said.

I waited for a few seconds, my mind racing with what it could be. Really, there was an endless amount of things that the map could mean, this was a magical world, it seemed as though anything was possible.
"Pettigrew, he made the Maurder's Map didn't he?" Kira asked. I looked at her for a second and nodded my head,
"Yes, do you think maybe there could be a connection?" I didn't give time for either to answer, "What if the Maurders map wasn't the only one made? What if there was another one with important information on it, so important Mc Gonagall confiscated it and still has it!" My mind was racing. "I mean, B, if your dad was able to create such an amazing piece of magic, whose to say they didn't expand on it?"
"Well, we can't exactly ask my Dad" B said in a low voice.
"And James and Peter are out of the question... Lupin!" I said looking at them both with a grin, "Remember he was at mum's wedding last year, he must still be in contact with her. We should use Lion to send him a message, maybe just asking him to contact us about..."
"-about a werewolf assigment!" Kira said proudly.
"Don't be so tactless!" I snapped, "We can ask if B can talk to him about Sirius! And then you could maybe ask him questions about an other maps or something that may be helpful!

"Tactless?" I scrunched up my nose, looking at Will who just shook his head as we walked up to my room.
"Lion!" I called, "Where's that mad owl?" I looked around when suddenly it flew up from under my bed into my stomach and I caught it, stepping back. Will grabbed a piece of parchment and a quill, handing it to B, who started writing, Will helping her word it.
"Okay," B held it up, finished, and I set Lion on the table who kept hopping around as we tried to tie the letter to his foot.
"Don't be impossible, c'mon," I rolled my eyes trying to hold him down.

I shook my head as Kira attempted to hold the owl down, it schreeched loudly.
"Oh, honestly!" I snapped, taking out my wand and pointing it at the struggling owl, "Immobolus!" Lion instantly stopped. He seemed almost frozen as B attatched the letter, "Activous!" I said again, the owl regaining itself.
"Now, you go straight to Remus J Lupin, got it?" Kira told the owl as I opened the window. She released it and Lion shot off into the sky. We watched him fade into the dark night sky as snow fell.
"Well, it's late..." I said, "I'll see you two in the morning"
- - - - - - -
I woke up the next morning with the noise of the door opening. Kneazel, who was asleep on my stomach, jumped up awake, but relaxed as Luke walked in with his trunk.
"Morning" He said, sitting down on his bed as I sat up, rubbing my eyes.
"Morning" I yawned, "Did you just get here? What time is it?" I asked.
"I came with Ginny so we were able to use a portkey" Luke told me.

I woke up the next morning as I heard Luke come in.
"Seriously, the nerve of him, putting a spell on my Lion," I yawned to B, who was still half asleep.
"Hm? Are you still on about that?" she asked, as I got up.
"Yes, well no," I said not so sure how to answer, and walked across the hall to find my brush in the bathroom.

I hugged Bradin for a minute than pulled away. "The agency told