This is my first fan fiction that i've published, so please critique me as much as you want! This is my favorite pairing that's not in the books, so I hope you enjoy it! Starts in the fourth book, but will progress very quickly to the sixth, and will linger there.

Also, note, I don't own anything that you may recognise, that's all the geniousness of the queen Miss. J.K. Rowling.

First chapter is short, I know, but it sort of sets everything up. :shrugs: and if my writing isn't that good, at least enjoy this penguin as a consolation prize.

Now, without further ado,

Chapter One:

I don't know how this came to be. How a Slytherin came to love a Gryffindor. How a pureblood came to love a muggleborn. How I, Draco Malfoy came to love Hermione Granger. After that punch in the third year, there was no turning back. I don't know how much longer I can keep it a secret, I want to tell the whole world, and I would, but then the secret meetings would be gone. The stolen kisses on moonlit walks. I know this can only get harder for us. it's been rumored that dangerous things are on their way, which can only mean one thing for my family, and only one thing for my love. My family will be forced under the Dark Lord again, and she will be murdered, or worse put into askaban. I couldn't bear to watch my little flower be tortured, but I can't disobay my family. This will be a long journey, but in the end I will have my Hermione. Stay with me my dear journal, stay and see what happens, stay and be my comfort. Stay.


Chapter 2 - Lover Boy
Chapter 3 - Jealous Boy
Chapter 4 - Problem Boy
Chapter 5 - Pureblood Boy
Chapter 6 - Traitor Boy
Chapter 7 - Snake Boy
Chapter 8 - The Confused Boy
Chapter 9 - Angst Boy

Hello and welcome! Please be sure to edit your first post with a chapter index when you next update and, as always, update often and have fun!

Just a few comments to kick things off and to maybe keep in mind for future posts

• Keep an eye on punctuation and spelling. For example, there are a few proper nouns and words after periods that are not capitalized. These little mistakes can be a distraction to the reader.
• Yay for Draco's point of view! I always enjoy reading things from character's perspective and will be interested to see what you do with this. I'd like to see his reason for using muggleborn in his diary instead of mudblood - which we all know he always uses to refer to Hermione.

Wow. Never thought that Draco could be sensitive! Can't wait for more! And that penguin made my day!!!!

Oh yay, readers! For that, I give you another penguin. I was considering adding a few other points of view into it, thoughts?
And now, a second chapter! As always, all the recognisable things are belong to the beloved J.K. Rowling, our queen.

Dear Diary,
today was perfect. Today was beloved. We met at 11 tonight at the edge of the forest. I was afraid we would get caught with the other schools on the grouds, but we were lucky. I fear maybe for the last time, my father said that his mark grows darker, and often twinges. I cannot imagine how much longer it will be, especially after some idiot put the mark in the sky. I feared so much for my darling that night. I hate that they call her mudblood. That term has never made any sense to me. There is no mud in her blood, just her in her blood. The same as all people. Who is to tell me that my blood is better than hers, it's still mine, it can only be traced to me. But away from all of that and back to tonight. I've said it, i've finally told her that I love her. She blushed so perfectly in the moonlight. The best part is what came after that, she said it back. I don't think i've ever heard such beautiful words in my life. Love, actual love. I cannot wait until our next meeting. I hope it shall be soon.
Yours,
Draco

That was sweet. Non-canon romances can be fun to read!

Oh I love it very well done.

Just a bit of advice; maybe lengthen the chapters and could you explain why Malfoy doesnt call her mudblood any more considering he always called her that?

First off, happy belated my dear Twins. have a birthday bludger and cake Oh what the heck, here's a penguin as well

Ok, off to buisness. Thanks for all you wonderful readers. Here's your next chapter. I'm trying for a bit longer ones.

Dear Diary,
I. Hate. The. Yule. Ball. This is ridiculous! I have to spend this wretched night watching the love of my life be pulled around the dance floor by that great oaf Vicky Krummy. Stupid Bulgarian. I wish we could just go together. I want to just have one dance, but I know that it's impossible. Maybe we can sneak out in the hallway during one song when it's quiet and get a dance in. That Krum better watch himself. He better not get any ideas about my woman. It would be murder if he tried. Although, from the looks of things, I might not be the only one unhappy about this situation. Weaslebee seems to be jealous of Hermione going with Vicky as well. Maybe they'll duke it out, and leave a clear field for me. Not that i'm nervous or anything. Well, ok, maybe a little. I mean Weaslebee has been friends with her from first term, but honestly, who can resist a Malfoy? We're perfect, blond, wealthy, and pure-blood. I can't believe I just said that! I'm turning into my parents...well, maybe not so much them, since they're complete cowards, but definetly Auntie Bella. I refuse to allow blood to be a determining factor in my life. Blood is blood. I also can't believe this, but even Weaslebee's or Potty Wee Potty's blood is as good as mine. If we hadn't mixed with muggles than we wouldn't have any more wizards. I bet half the Death Eaters aren't even pure-bloods. Speaking of Death Eaters, Father said that HE's coming back. I don't want him to. Hermione will be in danger. I hope Father is mistaken. I've just realized, it's only 3 days until that wretched ball. I should probably get around to asking Pansy, since Father said I must. She is quite the cow. I can't wait until Father finally let's us terminate the engagement. She's driving me nuts. I understand that it's good for Father's business, but she is really quite annoying. Only a few more years of her. Well, I must be off, Herbology, and I might as well deal with Pansy. Hermione's gonna hate this...almost as much as I will. I suppose one has to do what one must, especially in our situation.
-D

poor Draco! Having to go out with Pansy. Nice job and keep up the good work! PAMS!!!

*New Reader!*
I love this point of view. I'm normally not a D/Hr shipper but this is really interesting!
Can't wait for more!
~Sam~

Well, Hello there readers! Of course a special welcome to our new readers! I'm sorry I haven't gotten around to posting! I was going to do a new chapter in honor of Pottermore, but....well....I got a bit distracted. Now that that's all settled, I might as well begin. Enjoy.

Dear Diary,
I've decided to name you. Writing in a diary makes me sound like a prat. I think i'll call you Rupert. Yes, that sounds lovely. Or maybe Tom. Both are quite nice. Perhaps you're a Matthew, or a Daniel. Well, I think that I shall just go with Rupert. It fits you well. Anyway Rupert, I suppose it's time to share about the Yule Ball. It was quite lovely until that dunderhead Weaslebee ruined it. He just had to upset my little angel. I don't understand what his issue is. Krum is so much better than him, and even if Krum were out of the picture she would never choose him. He's a ginger, everybody knows gingers have no souls. I got to dance with her though, it was quite lovely. It's as though she knew exactly where I wanted to go even before I did. She fits perfectly in my arms. Her dress was amazing as well. As if Merlin himself came alive and made it for her. Pansy, on the other hand, looked like her usual cow self. She actually tried to kiss me! Why must I be so attractive? Why must she like me?! I just want to spend eternity with Hermione, no one else. I can't even imagine being with anyone else. When the song ended I thought I might as well have been stabbed in the heart, I knew she had to get back, but she is my one and only. I don't know if I can carry on much longer. I think I need to send an owl to father. Wish me luck.
-The Man With To Many Problems

The irony of wanting to name his diary Rupert.
And that is a lie, gingers do have souls, I am part ginger!
Good work, but I was sad there was no penguin.

haha My thoughts exactly, I'm a big Tupert fan.
It was a joke since Draco is so silly. I love gingers!
I was afraid I might be overdoing the penguins! But just for you!

I know it was a joke. Don't worry. I wasn't offended. Thank you for the penguin! It made my day! And in reply, I will give you a Smeagol/ Gollum. :gollum: (Not quite as good is it?)

I am so sorry! I've been so busy with school I forgot to write! Hopefully this will make up for it.

Dear Rupert,
I wrote to father. I told him that I was in love with Hermione. It most certainly did not go over well. I don't think i've ever heard him so mad before. I did say heard, right? He sent a howler. Luckily it was in the common room so that no one else heard. He threatened to take me out of Hogwarts if I "don't leave this horrible phase quickly." He just doesn't understand. This isn't a phase, it's the rest of my life. He did; however, make me come home for the holidays, when I so wanted to stay and get some quality time with Hermione. I don't know what to do. I really can't deal with Parkinson much longer, and watching Weaslbee try and get his way in her heart the entire time isn't exactly pleasant either. It's only 4 more years until I become of age, but can I really wait that long....will Hermione want to wait that long? I fear that we're drifting apart, that she doesn't love me. I love her more than anything, but is this all really worth it? I feel like i'm drowning in expectations, like i'm surrounded by what I'm supposed to be, and not who I want or need to be. What if they're right, and everything i'm thinking is wrong? What if, what if, what if?
-Slytherin Boy

Poor Draco! I can't imagine getting a Howler from his dad. That would be quite terrifying. Keep up the good work!

Aw, thank you thank you, I will!

I am so sorry everyone! It's been a bit hectic, and I completely forgot to update! It's a bit of a longer one, please enjoy! Let me know what you think! Tell your friends to read! I enjoy new readers!

Dear Rup,
he's back. Father's just confirmed it. He went to the "welcome home" party. Cedric, poor Cedric. I mean it's not like we were mates or anything, but that easily could've been me, or Hermione. It was all by chance. I don't know what we're supposed to do. How can he be back? Death is the one big threshold you can't get back from, and now he's done it. This is horrible. The worst part is that father is no longer in his favors now, due to his lack of looking for him and helping him get back. We're done for, Hermione's done for. For the first time in my life, I honestly wish that Potter did something right. He's got to get rid of You-Know-Who. I'm so scared, we will have to pay for this. We are such cowards! Well, my father is....I feel as though my mother could be strong if my father or I were in danger. This is besides the point. We only have a few weeks until summer vacation, then I'll be home, away from Hermione, where I can't protect her and You-Know-Who can do whatever he wants. He might even be at the Manor as we speak. He's been known to stay there from time to time. From what father's said, it's only going to get worse, he will find all the muggle borns and kill them all. I want out, but my father said if we follow his instructions we may be on his good side, and we might be safe, but at what cost? I spoke with Hermione about this earlier. The conversation went a little like this.
H: You've been looking so glum since Cedric died. I know he's back, and it's going to be dangerous for your family, but you'll be safe. You're pure blood.
Me: I know my love, but that's what worries me. How will I keep you safe?
H: I am not a child!
She was so cute when she said that, all indignant. I suppose she can take care of herself, she is the brightest witch of our year, probably just as good as some of the teachers, although, don't let McGonagal hear me say that, she's bloody scary. I know that this summer he'll have to stay low for a while, it's more fun being evil when no one knows that you're being it. Anyway, back to our conversation.
Me: I know this, but that doesn't mean I can't be worried. You may be the brightest witch of our age, but he's the darkest wizard of our age...well, of all time really. (Of course I ended up chuckling, partially because of my joke, but mostly because of her adorable blushing)
Of course that just ended in us snogging for a bit, but eventually we went back to our conversation. Basically, she just wants me to do what ever the Dark Lord wants, and then sneak the information to the rest back. Honestly, she wants me to commit suicide. Sometimes I hate being a Malfoy. Any takers to switch places?
-Traitor Boy

I was watching Deathly Hallows Part 1 last night, and I was watching the entire ending scene at Malfoy manor. And all what I could think of was that Draco was born inot the wrong family. You hit it right on the nose! Great job!

I'm so sorry everybody! I graduate high school in 3 days and with final exams, things have been incredibly hectic!
I figured since it was Draco's birthday, I might as well put in a new chapter! Again so sorry!



Dear Rupert,
we've made it through the summer. Well, not exactly we, but she. I spent the summer being bullied and annoyed, but mostly unscathed. Luckily, Hermione managed to stay out of trouble. I get to see her today for the first time all summer. We've written once or twice under very strict circumstances and rather coded letters. I pretended to be Victor Krum, seeing as they were rather chummy over the past year, and she was my Pansy Parkinson. It wasn't ideal circumstances, and it only was for a few letters, but it was enough to know that she was well, and that she still loves me. We also planned to meet in one of the empty compartments under the pretense of Prefect duties, as we both made it. I knew she would, there's not many girls that can be quite as persuasive to follow the rules as her. I mean, look at what she's done to me! I'm feeding information to Dumbledore, what else could you ask of me!?! This summer was incredibly scary. Every moment worried what He was going to do next, who would be next up on the chopping block. Luckily, Auntie Bella has been in his favors, helping us a little, and seeing as He's staying at our house, He really has been kind. Well, not kind, I doubt he's capable of that much, but i've stopped flinching whenever he comes into the room, which is quite an improvement, if you ask me. Granted, that snake still freaks me out. The way they talk to eachother. I've woken up a number of times of nightmares from it. I suppose I should finish packing we'll be heading to the station in a few minutes, and I want to double check that everything is perfect...including my hair.
-Snake Hater
P.S. The fact that i'm in Slytherin and hate snakes...the irony has not been lost on me.

I like it! Good job and I love how they coded letters! Keep up the good work!
Oh, and, Congrats on Graduating!

Nice......

Erm....my sincerest apologies, I've been getting ready for college, and I just realized that i forgot about my beloved readers! I hope with this next chapter maybe I'll be forgiven!

Dear Rupert,
I'm so glad I finally found you. I always loose something on the way to Hogwarts. Although, I'll never know how you managed to wiggle your way into the bottom of my trunk, under the letters from Auntie Bella. Anyway, I have much to catch you up on! We finally have a good teacher in this joke of a school. Lovely Dolores really has done nothing but perfect this place! The best part is that Potter hates her! HA! I must admit though, her detentions are quite brutal, luckily she'd never make me go through one of them. I've heard rumors from father about the Dark Lord's plans. He might actually get total control this time. Father won't give me specific details; however, he did say that there would be more time spent at the Ministry than usual. Honestly, I just wish this whole Pure-Blood mania was over. I simply want to live a quiet life with my Snugglie-Boo-Boo-McCutiekins. We haven't even gotten to see each other yet this year, other than when we had prefect duties. I was thinking we could both use the Prefect's Bathroom together, at least then we'd have an excuse if anyone asked. I'd thank Diggory if I could for that little pearl of wisdom. I just feel as though everything's messed up, a war is inevitable, and I don't even know which side to be on. I don't want to lose anyone I love. My mother means everything to me, but I won't live without my true love. All this responsibility on my shoulders, it's to much. All the while I fear my grades have been suffering, and I might be losing her anyway. We had our first fight the other day when I sent her my owl, she said it was to obvious, and said I was being stupid about the whole thing. We needed to be more discrete. I'm to young for this. Who would've thought I would have something in common with Potter.
-The Confused Boy

Well, i've finally gotten my own laptop, so i'm hoping to be able to post more often. If there's something that you think would be good in this, anything you think I have missed. Let me know! Lots of love to all you readers! Also, lots of love to our beloved Evanna Lynch! Incredible actress! SHE IS LUNA!

Dear Rupert,
We've broken up. She's begun this wretched DADA thing, and it's horrible. Potter's teaching, that alone is stupidity, but worst of all is that Umbridge knows! She's going to get caught, get expelled. I told her she was being stupid with the whole thing, but it only made her seem to want to do it more. I just want her to be safe, and this won't keep her safe. I could teach her all these things, or if she must have Potter, do it discreetly. BUT NO! That's not what she wants, instead she wants to throw away her entire Wizarding career before it's even begun. I can't handle this! I'm lying awake every night hoping that they don't get caught. I just want this year to be over. Maybe if we get rid of the Dark Lord she'll come back to me. I really hope so, but if us breaking up is the only way for her to see the danger in doing this, then maybe it's for the best, for now anyway... I hate being a teenager, everything's so complicated, plus this year with the OWLs they're forcing us into a career choice, and I have no idea. I don't even want to think about what's going to happen, all that comes is the Dark Lord's horrible face whenever I do. Teen Angst session in it's full capacity here!
-Angst Boy

Last Updated: 17/08/2012