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Well Dara didn't lie. I am posting right now!!! Hehe. I didn't have much to write while Dara was busy posting on here so now its finished. And here it is. For your purusal!

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Chapter Eight: A Christmas Gone Wrong

The next morning, Kildara woke up screaming, her arm was burning. Severus ran into his sister's room to see her writhing on her bed in pain. He rushed over to her and took her in his arms. Every time he tried to look at her arm, she snatched it back. After about half an hour, the pain subsided and she was able to talk.
"Happy Christmas brother," she breathed.
"Happy Christmas," he answered. "What is wrong with your arm?"
"Nothing. Do not worry yourself with it. Let’s go down and wake mother."
They got up off her bed and made to rush down the stairs.
"Wait," she said, grabbing her robe, to cover her arm.
She grabbed Severus’ hand and they ran down the stairs to their mother’s room, finding her sitting up in her bed, crying.
“What is it with people crying this morning?” Severus laughed. “Mother, it’s Christmas. Cheer up.”
Eileen looked up and the tears dried up. She opened her arms and her children jumped on her bed and into her arms.
“Happy Christmas, Mother,” Severus and Kildara said together.
“Happy Christmas children,” Eileen replied, hugging them tight.
“Come on get up, I want presents,” Kildara said, jumping up. In the process, she grazed her right arm across her mother’s and yelped in pain.
“What is wrong now?” Severus moaned.
“Nothing,” she answered. She grabbed her mother’s arm and dragged her out of bed.
“You are in a very good mood this morning Kildara. What happened?” Eileen laughed.
“Nothing. It’s Christmas,” she replied.
The three of them walked into the lounge to find the massive Christmas Tree surrounded by millions of presents. They started ripping the paper off the presents. Kildara looked like a little girl again, not the mature, young woman she had become. Eileen smiled as she watched her children acting like little children. Then one thing caught her eye. The right arm of Kildara’s robe had slipped back and Eileen saw a black mark on her arm. She got up and grabbed it. Kildara looked at her mother, astounded.
“What is this?” Eileen roared, ripping the robe arm back to reveal the Dark Mark on her daughter’s arm. “Is this a joke?”
Kildara’s eyes widened in shock. “No Mother. It is not a joke.” She snarled, snatching her arm back.
“I thought you were waiting until the summer? You are much too young!”
“So that is why you were in pain?” Severus said.
“Well yes. But Mother, do not be angry at me! It is a great honour and you know it is!”
“An honour that will get you killed. Have you not noticed I never became a Death Eater? I wanted to have children. You cannot have children now!”
“Tell me why mother. Just because I have this on my arm does not make me infertile!”
“I’m going to take my things up to my room shall I?” Severus asked, his question falling on deaf ears. The two women were shooting daggers at each other. He started packing up his many presents.
“You will not want children now! How could you? Now what will happen? The Blacks will be wanting a child from you with Regalus! Now they will not get one!” Eileen half yelled – half moaned.
“I still don’t understand why! And it doesn’t really matter anyway! And what about Bella? Will the Lestranges now be minus a grandchild? Just because she is a Death Eater? They don’t care! Neither do the Blacks! They would much rather Death Eaters than children!” Kildara yelled.
Eileen had nothing else to say. Kildara had won, and she knew it. The smirk on her face showed it. Eileen was the one that wanted a grandchild. She had no idea what Walburga Black would think. She would probably just be proud of Kildara becoming a Death Eater, Regalus was definitely headed that way as well.
“Nice way to ruin Christmas, Mother. I’m going to see Severus.” Kildara sneered, picking up her presents and carrying them up the stairs, leaving Eileen standing alone in the lounge.
Walking up the stairs, Kildara saw Severus sitting on the top stair. He got up and helped her with her presents, taking some off her and following her into her room. They sat down on her bed and Severus asked,
“Can I see it?”
Kildara looked at him, confused.
“Your Mark? Can I see it?”
Kildara nodded and stretched her right arm out so he could see the black Mark on her arm. He took hold of her arm and examined it.
“Wow. I would be honoured to have this! I don’t know why Mother is so angry. This is great!”
Kildara looked up at him and smiled. “She’s angry because she’s scared she won’t get a grandchild out of me. Not that it was going to happen anytime soon. And she knew I was going to join the Death Eaters this summer. I don’t see why it makes much difference! 6 months and all of a sudden it’s this really big thing!”
“I can’t wait! I’m going to make you proud Kildara!” Severus said, jumping up.
Kildara grabbed his arm and pulled him back down. “Severus, you still have a while until you can join. And, Mother will probably not allow it.”
“I don’t care. I want to make you proud. Mother is a thing of the past. She is being silly. I want to make you proud Dara.”
Kildara looked at her brother. He was a changed boy. She liked this change. Mother was definitely losing her touch.
“Happy Christmas! This really is a happy Christmas!” Severus exclaimed.
Kildara looked up at him jumping up and down. He ran out of the room to look at his presents.
Kildara lay back on her bed and thought about her mother. The mother that no longer thought she was her daughter. All because she wouldn’t give a grandchild. Not that it was going to happen anyway. Regalus was much too young! Mrs Black would understand. Her loyalty to the Dark Lord was more important. Much more important. Her arm prickled again and she hugged it to her. This was going to be a long week.

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Chapter Nine: A Week of Woes and Surprises

Every night, Josh visited her but she was unable to really love him the way he was falling in love with her. She tried, she really did. It just never worked. Her heart belonged to someone she couldn’t have. She was so good at acting that Josh never noticed. She felt bad but he was a good substitute.
Her mother ignored her. Every time they walked past each other, Kildara was sure to make sure her arm was covered, even then, Eileen poked her arm, making it hurt. She was acting like a child. Even Severus was more mature than Eileen. Kildara even stopped calling her Mother.
Although she had Josh to settle her slightly, Kildara’s temper got worse. She was still annoyed at Lucius for stopping his owls and her arm wouldn’t stop hurting and Bella had taken it upon herself to check in all the time, at odd hours of the night!
Her drinking had also got worse. Soon Eileen’s supply ran out and Kildara had none left. She started to go slightly mental and Josh was starting to think he had done something wrong. Every one thought they had done something wrong. Severus was the only person that knew what was wrong. One day, he came into her room to speak to her and found her curled up in a ball on her bed. He crawled onto her bed and put his arms around her.
“Dara? What’s wrong?” he soothed.
She opened her eyes and looked at him blankly. She was a shadow of her former self. She couldn’t go back to school like this. He had to do something.
“What is wrong?” he repeated. She moaned and turned her head away. He took hold of her head and made her face him.
“Dara. Stop being a child. You are as bad as Mother! Talk to me!”
This got her attention. Her eyes flared up and she almost hit him. “Do not compare me to that weak excuse of a witch.” She hissed.
He smiled. “Now I’ve got your attention. What’s wrong?”
“I don’t know. Eileen’s Firewhiskey has run out. I can’t love Josh and I can’t hate Lucius. I’m so messed up.”
“I think you should write to Lucius to tell him. And try your hardest to not get more Firewhiskey. It’s bad for you Dara. And Josh, well, I’ve got nothing!”
Kildara looked at her brother straight in the eye. He really wanted to help her.
“You’re right. I’m going to send and owl to Lucius. Thanks Sev,” she said, sitting up.
“Alright then. I’ll leave you to it,” he said, getting up off the bed and walking out the door, closing it behind him.
She watched her brother walk from the room then walked over to her desk. She sat down and got a piece of parchment out of the drawer. She opened the ink bottle and dipped her quill into it.

Dear Lucius,

She wrote, and then stopped. How did she start a letter? It was very odd. She never had trouble writing letters before. She put her quill back on the parchment and wrote,

How have your holidays been? I trust you had a nice Christmas. How are your mother and father? I miss them dearly. And how is dear Narcissa? I trust she is having a grand time. I have missed you dearly over the break and was greatly dejected when your letters stopped. May I ask why? I am hoping Miss Narcissa hasn’t made your feelings change. Mine have not.
I have great news! I joined the Dark Lord’s service on Christmas Eve. He was eager for my service and I was granted the great honour of the Mark. It hurts every now and again but the pride overwhelms the pain.
I cannot wait to see you again and look forward to the start of term.
Love always,
Kildara xx

She dropped her quill and re-read her letter. She whistled and her owl swooped through the window and perched on the edge of the desk. She folded the letter, wrote Lucius’ name on it and gave it to her owl. She watched as the owl flew out the window and then lay back down on her bed. She closed her eyes and then she heard a god almighty crack! Her eyes sprung open and standing in front of her was Josh.
“You scared me!” she moaned.
“Sorry about that.” He laughed, walking over to her on the bed. “I need to talk to you.”
Kildara nodded and sat up on the edge of the bed. He sat down next to her and looked in her direction. She had obviously been crying. She had never trusted him with her tears. That perfect vulnerable state. She looked like a shadow had been cast over her.
“Have I done something wrong?” he asked, sincerely wanting to know what was wrong.
She shook her head. “No,” she replied.
“Then what’s wrong?”
“Nothing. These holidays haven’t been easy for me. First my father dieing, then Bella coming, then Eileen disowning me. It’s just been hard.”
Josh leaned over to her and kissed her. She was shocked. She hadn’t expected it, but she kissed back. They fell back on the bed and her tears well and truly dried up. They were getting rather heated when,
“Didn’t take long for you to get over me did it?”
Josh and Kildara broke apart and looked around. Standing at the foot of her bed was none other than Lucius Malfoy, a dark smile across his face.

OH MAN!!! Why did he have to come back! GRR!!

PAMS!!

Sorry Ladies!! He's back ... to cause some trouble of course. Kildara is slightly unstable by this stage remember so she's quite vulnerable!!!

Josh won't give her up without a fight though!!!!!

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Okay here is Chapter Ten. I love my baby brother, Sev is so adorable!
Enjoy!
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Chapter Ten: Some Time to Think

"Lucius," Kildara breathed, jumping up.
"Malfoy," Josh said, inclining his head slightly.
"Simmons," Lucius said the smile still on his face.
Josh kept a hand on Kildara's back, determined not to let her go.
"Why are you here?" Kildara asked, desperately.
"I got your owl," Lucius said, holding the piece of parchment in his hand.
"You can't have read it. Artemis would have only just got to you."
"I'm a fast reader," Lucius laughed.
"What do you want, Malfoy?" Josh remarked.
"Apart from you to leave, it's actually none of your business."
"Well-," Josh started.
Kildara put up her hand to stop them. They both fell quiet immediately.
"Luc, why are you here? I will not ask again," Kildara hissed a part of her old self back again.
"I need to speak to you," he replied. "But not in front of him." He nodded in Josh's direction.
Kildara looked around to Josh, who had a hand on her shoulder. He shrugged. "I'll go." He leant in and kissed Kildara passionately. He broke from the kiss and whispered in her ear. "But I'll be back."
He got up off the bed and turned on the spot, Apparating from the room. Lucius closed the space between him and Kildara. She could feel his body heat seeping into her. She put her hand onto his chest to push him away but he wrapped his arms around her waist. Then he kissed her, making her head spin and her knees weak. He broke the kiss, a large smile on his face. A slight smile spread across her pale face and she looked up into his face.
"I have missed you my dear," he said kissing her forehead. "Now I can answer you letter."
She broke away from him and sat on her bed. He sat next to her and looked at the letter.
"Ok. First, my holidays have been dismal and annoying. Second, I had an alright Christmas. Third, Mother and Father are fine; they are not as pleased with Narcissa as they thought they would be. They miss you as well. Fourth, 'dear' Narcissa is fine. Fifth, my letters never stopped. I found only yesterday that my letters were being stopped by Narcissa. Sixth, Narcissa has not changed my feelings. Seventh, Congratulations." he took a deep breath and continued. "Can I see it?"
Kildara nodded and held her arm out. Lucius looked as though he was going to cry. He looked almost rejected. She pulled her robe over her arm and looked at him. "You will still join me in the summer won't you?"
He nodded. "Why couldn't you wait?"
Kildara was shocked. "You can't just deny the Dark Lord, Luc. When he summons you, you go." He looked at her, confused. "Bella came to me and took me to him. She said he was eager for my service. He summoned me, Lucius. I had to go."
He nodded, understandingly. "It's okay. I understand. Father said this would happen. That you would get chosen first. That my marrying Narcissa would hinder me. Not my fault though. If it was up to me, I wouldn't marry her!"
He laughed and Kildara's smile widened, colour returning to her hollow cheeks. Lucius noticed this slight change and said,
"What has happened to you these holidays? You are but a shadow of the magnificent women that I went to school with."
Kildara hung her head. "A lot has happened."
"Talk to me." Lucius took her head in his hands and made her look at him. That colour that had returned was gone, her eyes glazed over.
"My father died at the beginning of the holidays. He asked for me so I visited him and we spoke about everything. I was just beginning to think of him as my father and he left me. While I was with him, he died. Then I met Josh. Then your letters stopped. Then I started on Eileen's stash of Firewhiskey. Now there is none left. Then Bella coming to get me. Then Eileen disowning me for becoming a Death Eater. It's just been a hard holiday. Severus has been my rock. He has been so helpful."
Lucius looked at her and noticed she was not the same girl he said he loved. He needed that girl. He needed her strength, her smarts, her love. He didn't know how to help.
“How can I help you?” he asked desperately.
“Love me,” was all she said.
He took hold of her and hugged her to his chest. He felt her start to shake. She had started to cry again. He lay back on the bed and she snuggled into him. He tightened his hold on her and tried his best to stop her crying. All of a sudden she stopped and tried to move away. He kept his arms around her, confused.
“What’s wrong?”
“I can’t do this, Luc. I can’t,” she said, writhing, trying to free herself. “Josh,” she whispered.
Lucius let go of her. They both sat up. “You told me your feelings hadn’t changed. You told me you loved me. Are they just words to you?” he hissed.
She started crying again. “My feelings haven’t changed. I do love you. I will always love you. The words match the feelings. Feelings I have never felt before. I don’t even love my parents, my brother. I don’t love easily, Luc. You helped me to do that. I have to distance myself, Lucius. You will be married in the summer. We cannot do this.”
He took her shoulders and shook her slightly. “I love you, Kildara. I will never love Narcissa. Even when she becomes my wife.”
She took his hands off her shoulders and stood up. “Please Luc. Do not make this harder for me. Just grant me some time to think. That is all I need. A few days. Please. I promise I will owl you in few days to talk to you. I won’t even see Josh for those days. Does that make you feel better?”
Lucius stood up and kissed her on the forehead. “Okay. A few days. I look forward to your owl. I will leave you now. I love you,” he said before turning on the spot and Apparating from the room.
Her door opened slightly and Severus stuck his head in. “Can I come in?”
Kildara nodded and Severus walked in and sat on his sister’s bed. “Did I hear Lucius’ voice?”
“Yes. He responded to my letter a little quicker than I thought.” Kildara sat down on the bed next to him and he slung his arm around her shoulders. She leaned in and rested her head on his shoulder.
“What did he want?”
“I don’t know exactly. Mostly he told me he loved me. Oh Severus this is all too hard.”
Severus hugged her and said, “What did you tell him?”
“That I needed some time to think about everything.”
“That’s a good idea,” Severus replied, hugging his older sister tight. He felt like the older sibling at the moment. Her life had run off the rails. He felt sorry for her. He looked at her arm. The Mark was pulsating. It looked as though the snake was alive. He was proud of her. He wanted to make her proud. He needed to get her better before they went back to school. She couldn’t go back like this. Some
time to think was a great idea.

Thanks hun!
Yeah I know!! but Lucius really loves me! I know he does! And I love him to!
I can't bring myself to do that to Josh though! So messed up!!
Oh well. Jade says hi and thank you!
Thanks again. I'm going off to think now!
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This is so great, way better than anything I've done.

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Naw babes your so cute! Yours is really good!!!!

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man i find myself loving Dara she is so awesome and Severus is great too I want her to be with Lucius tho!!!

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Severus is so adorable. I love him too.

Believe me I want her to be with Lucius as well. But I have to do what is good for the story.

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Okay this next chapter is in a few parts. Different points of view to get the overall picture. First is Kildara, then Lucius, then Josh, then back to Kildara.
Hope it's okay!

Love always,
Jade xxxx

Chapter Eleven: You’re Time is Up ... Choose.

Kildara didn’t leave her room for three days. Severus bought all her meals up to her and stayed with her and talked with her. Eileen ignored her. On the third day, Severus came up with her dinner. He opened the door and found her curled up in a ball. He placed her dinner on her desk and walked over to her. He crawled onto her bed and hugged her. She turned around and looked up at him.
“What’s wrong?” he asked.
“I have to work out what I’m going to do. My few days is up and I have no idea!” she sobbed.
He stroked her and soothed her. “Okay let’s go through everything. Good points of Lucius. Go.”
She laughed. “You don’t want to know the good points.”
“O-o-o-kay. So any other good points?”
“Yeah. He loves me. And I love him.”
“Hmm. Okay. Good points of Josh.”
Kildara smiled. “Again, you don’t want to know the good points.”
“Jeez girl. Anything else?”
“He loves me.” She closed her eyes to bat away the tears.
“Do you love him?”
“I don’t have the capacity to love two people at once.”
“Okay then. Well …” he started.
As he began, two people appeared at the end of her bed. Josh and Lucius.

Lucius Malfoy!

Lucius looked around his room. Narcissa was in the room next door. He was almost tempted to go in there. No. he thought to himself. Defeats the purpose. He walked around and sat on his bed. It had been weird these past weeks without Kildara. His bed seemed cold. Interrupting her and Simmons was heart breaking. He hoped it hadn’t showed but it certainly was. He heard a knock on his door.
“What?” he barked.
The door opened slightly and his mother poked her head in. “Can I come in?”
He nodded and she walked in and sat on the bed next to him. She put a hand on his knee and squeezed.
“What’s wrong, my dear?” she soothed.
He looked at her, trying to stay strong. “Nothing. Don’t worry yourself.”
She patted him on the back. “I am your mother. You can’t lie to me.”
He looked at her and knew she was genuinely concerned. “I’m confused with Kildara. She wrote me a letter. She told me she loved me. And then I go and visit her, and she’s with someone else. I told her she could have a few days to think but that was a few days ago. She still hasn’t owled me.”
Mrs Malfoy looked at her son. He was distressed. “I think you are being horribly mean to the poor girl. Making her choose. You are marrying the girl in the next room and you are asking another girl to choose you. Not very nice, Lucius.”
Lucius looked up at his mother. “Well she’s betrothed too.”
“Yes but Mr Black will not be fifteen for another 5 years. She has a long time.”
“Well …” he started. An owl flew through the window and dropped a letter on Lucius’ lap, before flying back out the window.
“This could be it.” He looked at the writing on the envelope. He didn’t know it. “It’s not. I don’t know who it’s from.”
“I’ll go then,” his mother said, patting him on the shoulder.
The writing he didn’t know continued on the letter inside. It was short and to the point.

Malfoy,
It’s Josh Simmons. I don’t want to give up Kildara. She said you had given her a few days to think things over. Do you have an answer? I think we should see her together. She has to choose. We can’t both have her, and I will not give her up voluntarily.
Josh.

Lucius looked at the letter. The boy had fight in him. He stood up and sat down at his desk to write a reply.