02-04-2005, 12:52 AM
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| Gnome
Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Somewhere in this castle investigating the latest happenings...
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|  Natalya A. Devereaux's Recorded Dreary of Random Moments of Boredom or Daydreams
Ah, my very own poetry thread...
I first posted this poem Delusion at fanfiction.net, so if it seems familiar, then it probablly is.
Delusion is a very dark expression about how Ginny might feel after willingly giving her heart and soul to Tom and then being rejected, betrayed, and abandoned by him; and what terrible feelings she might succumb to, so if the idea of someone's taking their own life depresses or freaks you out, then please, I advise you, don't read this; 'Tis quite sad.
Lonely and phony
All my life is now
Masquerading emotions
So no one will know I’m missing
And missing him
Is it wrong to miss you?
Wistfulness possesses me now
The unforgiving dreary
Swept away in the melancholy
Your image has been burning away my sanity
Slowly, painfully
Every time I’ve closed my eyes since
You’ve been prolonging my nights
Just to make me relive the nightmare of a dream
But I cannot sleep anymore anyway
The moon’s too bright
The stars’ too glittery
Everything that once was perfect
I now hold blurry in my gaze
As I lie in bed contemplating
What I could have done better to make you happy
What I need to find within myself
Accepting, admitting, and climbing out of denial
Ignoring what you once told me
About how love is a delusion
And how you refused to ever let yourself
Fall into its serrated web
I won’t try to change your mind
But know that the delusion is all that’s been keeping me going inside
It’s all I have to hold on to
Until you want me again
Somewhere far away
My heart’s destination
Lies in your embrace
You will render me worthy and forgiven
And kiss away all the uncertainties
My love, would you understand that I’m afraid of the dark no longer
And that I’m ready to face sacrifice
As long as I’m by your side
Holding you, loving you, I’d give everything I could to you
Everything I am and everything you’d want me to be
But I know I lie to myself
Betraying myself
In even allowing myself this thought
You said it was a delusion
And I believe it now
In my dreams of pathetic fiction
I thought I knew just who you were
But it was just too much to burn within your velvet flame
The soft fire has charred my soul
Blackened out all beauty and innocence
My love, my lord, you took from me what you wanted, but could you not see that I had so much more to give?
My love, my lord, whoever you are now
You abandoned your angel
Breaking her wings just to hear her scream
It is just too much to burn within your velvet flame
I have to get out
Now
The blade’s against me
I see your reflection shining in the metal as it cuts deep
Beautiful, mocking, grinning watching me dying
And now your angel lies at your feet empty and fading
Still reaching for you
Still begging for you
And still you’re kicking her away
Why did I ever believe in you?
In your delusion of love
In your illusions of truth
Please tell me what you think Bitte?
Last edited by RiddleofSlytherin; 02-06-2005 at 05:03 AM.
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