Chapter 2 – Weird Feelings
“Finally were here!! Ron, Harry, Ginny and I got a cart and loaded all our belongings on. I was obviously smiling because Harry asked me:
“What’s to smile about Hermione? This place just isn’t the same without Dumbledore.” He said sadly.
“I lost all happy thoughts. How could I feel happy like this when Dumbledore was gone? Harry was right Hogwarts just didn’t look the same……. It didn’t feel the same.”
“I’m so sorry Harry that was so inconsiderate of me, Hogwarts just isn’t the same and I’m pretty sure it will never feel the same. I miss Dumbledore too, please don’t think I don’t. I’m just smiling because……because……”
“I couldn’t bring myself to say it, I found myself drowning in my own tears, unable to finish what I tried to say. Ron gave me a hug. Neither he nor Harry said anything, instead Harry gave me an appreciative nod and Ron hugged me close to him to show that both understood me without me saying anything more. After 6 years together I found the connection of our friendship was still stronger than ever, we could still read each other like books. They understood that what I was trying to say was that I smiled at Hogwarts because it was and still is the best thing ever to happen me despite all losses or danger that crossed our paths. Hogwarts gave me my true meaning in life, my happiness, I was finally able to feel like I belonged somewhere and with that came the bonus, the thing I would never dream of trading for grades or anything……… my best friends Harry, Ron and Ginny. Although Ron and I are together now Ron was that arrogant g*t that saved my life from that troll in 1st year. We grew from acquaintances to friends, from friends to close friends and from close friends to best friends. My best friend grew to my crush then I fell for him. I could do nothing but love him; I never imagined that he would feel the same way…..even in my wildest dreams!!! Yet here we are in our final year at Hogwarts……..we were finally able to admit we liked each other. I know it’s more than that but for now I’m taking my time, it’s been 6 years of waiting for him, so I hold my most secret feelings within for now, just until I’m sure that he loves me just as much as I love him.”
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“I could not believe that I had been chosen to be head girl and to add to such pleasure Ron was head boy!!!! Harry remained Quidditch captain which meant we where all given our own interlocking rooms!!!! McGonagall told us it was nearby the Gryffindor common rooms and that we would be shown there after the sorting and the start of term feast. I looked around the great hall. The room looked very empty than what was usual, I suppose that has to do with the horrific events of our last year. The loss of Dumbledore was a devastating blow, not to mention that fact that it was the Defence against the Dark Arts teacher that was the cause of losing Dumbledore. Once the sorting was over Professor McGonagall got up and gave the start of term notices and speech which was always Dumbledore’s privilege. She was considerate of the fact to leave Dumbledore’s chair empty as if to remind us of his existence and out of pure love and respect she had for him. She mentioned that we had a new defence against the Dark Arts teacher. She said that sadly he could not join the feast but I was very happy to hear who it was…..it was Professor Lupin!!! Harry, Ron, Ginny and I smiled at each other. She also mentioned that Slughorn was to take over Potions and Slytherin house.”
“Harry!!!! Look whose back!!!” Ron said angrily pointing at the Slytherin table all of us glanced over and there he was……Malfoy had come back.
“What is he doing back!?!?” Harry asked with and glared at him.
“I don’t know but he can’t be allowed back I mean come on he tried to kill Dumbledore!!!!” Ron whispered angrily
“Suddenly I jumped in doing something I never thought I would do wherever Malfoy was involved. I said:
“Well he didn’t actually do anything, he wouldn’t do it, Dumbledore knew that too. He had too much of a conscience and heart to live with it.”
“WHAT HERMIONE?! ARE YOU ACTUALLY DEFENDING HIM?!” Harry yelled loud enough for the whole room to hear him.
“Harry calm down please.” I pleaded when I saw everyone turning to look.
“I was actually defending Malfoy, I knew that Malfoy had done mean things to me and to everyone else but killing someone was just not in him, it was Snape who done it not Malfoy.”
“Hermione he let death eaters into the school building!!!! He basically caused his death!!!”
“Harry I think you’re wrong, Malfoy is certainly capable of a lot of things but never would he have killed Dumbledore. I think Malfoy had no choice but to work with you – know - who otherwise he would have killed him and his family. He was defending his family!!”
“Look Hermione I don’t care what you think……what I saw was enough proof to tell me that because of that b******d over there Dumbledore is dead!!!”
“Then Harry walked out of the room Ron looked at me with shock and followed him saying nothing. I couldn’t believe it!!! I had an argument with my friend and for what? For that guy at the end of the Slytherin table? Why was I sure that I had to defend him, after all of the horrible things he has done to me? I looked over at him again. He was looking straight back at me. He was sitting on his own. He looked tired and upset. But he looked at me longingly with admiration. Had he heard my argument with Harry? He smiled faintly at me and I returned it. What has happened to the real big bully Malfoy. I was worried for him, I could not believe it, and I cared for Malfoy when no one else did. I hoped he was ok because I truly believe that he was just like a normal teenager with a hidden heart, the only difference was he had a troubled life to lead to keep a reputation up and to please his big brutal bully of a father...... to save his familie's life."
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I'm so sry I have taken this long to post the 2nd chapter. But it's finally posted!!!! I hope you all like it. Next chapter I will post alot sooner, Friday is a good day for me....stay tuned!!!!
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