This is my first fanfic so bear with me (: . It's about the days surrounding the time when the Potters were killed. I chose to tell it from Sirius's point of view and to answer some questions I had after the 3rd book about the suspicions and betrayals within the Marauders. I hope you enjoy!


October 30, 1981 8:30 p.m.

A tall handsome man stood with his hands in his pockets as he stared out the window into the night. He wore his dark hair pulled back into a short ponytail and the style emphasized the tension in his face. Across the room a couple sat and watched him in silence. The red haired woman flipped her wand almost absent mindedly and a pile of baby clothes at her feet began to fold themselves.

“Sirius,” James began, standing up and going over to where his friend stood in silence, “I will not suspect any of my friends.”

“Then you’re a fool,” Sirius said quietly. James looked over at his wife, her expression was troubled but she didn’t say anything. He reached a hand out and laid it on his best friend’s shoulder.

“I trust you all with my life. And my son’s.” Sirius whirled away from the window and his eyes shone with the force of his fury.

“Someone has been leaking the Order’s secrets to Voldemort and the Death Eaters. You can’t pretend we’re not being betrayed, James. If he finds out where you are he will come for Harry. And you will die trying to protect him.”

“Stop it!” Lily stood now too and her face showed just as much rage as his. “Everyone in the Order has risked their own lives again and again to protect Harry. And now you’re trying to tell us that someone we trust is going to hand him over. Who are you accusing, Padfoot? Alastor? Dumbledore?” Sirius looked at them both; he seemed to be fighting some internal battle. Finally he squared his shoulders and looked James directly in the eye.

“Remus.” Before James was even aware of what he was doing, he punched Sirius in the face. Blood poured from Sirius’s nose but he made no move to retaliate. “Think about it James, it makes sense.”

This time James was completely aware of what he was doing. He punched him again. Lily stared at both of them in horror.

“Look what you’re letting fear of Voldemort do to you!” She turned to James, “You just punched your best friend in the face.” To Sirius, “You come into our house and start accusing one of your best friends.” From another room in the house the sound of a baby crying could be heard. “And now you’ve woken Harry. I’m going to get him and the two of you need to figure this out.” With one last scorching glare at the both of them, she turned her back and stormed out of the room.

“Think about it James,” Sirius pleaded. “For years Remus has talked about how miserable his life is as a werewolf. Under Voldemort’s rule he would be free from the oppression he faces daily in ours. You know how good the Dark Lord is at preying on what people desire and fear.”

“No,” James said stubbornly. “Remus would never sacrifice Harry, or anyone for that matter, just to fit in.”

Lily reentered the room carrying a sleepy looking baby. He had a full head of black hair that stuck up in back. His bright green eyes were red rimmed from crying and he rubbed at them with a small, chubby fist. But the second he saw his father his eyes lit up.

“Da-da!” he squealed and leaned away from his mother to reach for James.

James took him into his arms and Harry reached for his father’s glasses to play with. Sirius looked at that young, innocent baby and made his choice.

“I have to know. I’m sorry James, Lily, but I have to figure out if it’s Remus. For the sake of my godson.” James and Lily shared a look. They understood Sirius’s desire to protect Harry. They both worried constantly about the safety of their only child and were furious that they were unable to do anything more than hide.

“We get it,” Lily spoke for them. “We don’t agree with you about Remus but we get it.” She stepped forward and laid a hand on Sirius’s cheek. “Be safe.” Sirius gave her a fierce hug.

“There’s one more thing. If something goes wrong and the Death Eaters catch me I don’t want them to be able to torture your location out of me. I need you to make someone else your Secret-Keeper. Just for a day or two.”

“There’s no one we trust more than you,” James began, but Sirius cut him off.

“I think you should pick Peter. He’s always worshipped you; he’d probably cry with the honor. And he’s such a coward he’d just hide the whole time so there’d be no way for Voldemort to get to him. But don’t say anything to anyone else. I don’t want Remus or anyone to know that I’m not your Secret-Keeper.”

James sighed. “Alright. We’ll take care of it.”

Sirius looked once more at his best friend and his family. Lily stood at her husband’s side and he had one arm around her waist and one supporting the baby. Harry leaned over and kissed his mom on the cheek and she beamed at him. They looked so good together. James and Lily were madly in love and their child was the center of their world. Already his godson looked so much like his father, except for his eyes. He had Lily's eyes. “I won’t let you down Prongs. I promise I will keep your son safe, no matter what it takes.”

And then he walked out the door and into the night.

Wow, this is awesome! =D! Great job! & Poor Sirius... =/ Though he shouldn't be telling them to trust Wormtail.
Anyway, post more soon! =]

yay first fan! thanks so much!! (: im glad you like it

This is good! I love Marauder fics. More coming soon?

not bad. not bad at all.

thanks for reading guys I'm glad you like it so far...here's the next bit!

October 31, 1981 2:00 pm

Sirius Black leaned over the counter and looked at himself in the mirror. In a matter of minutes one of his best friends would be arriving at his apartment. Then he would know the truth. He studied his reflection. If he was right…did he have what it took to kill Remus?

The sound of someone knocking on his front door echoed into the bathroom. He splashed a handful of water onto his face. His wand lay next to the sink. “For Harry,” he murmured to himself and slid the wand into his front pocket within easy reach.

Slowly he walked over to the door and opened it. “Evening Remus,” he said as a greeting. “Come in.”

“Your owl sounded urgent, Padfoot. What’s going on?” Remus asked as he settled himself into an armchair in the living room.

Sirius sat on the couch across from him and, instead of answering, said, “I’ve been thinking about when we were young, at Hogwarts. How we all got to be friends.”

With a laugh Remus said, “Merlin, that was a long time ago. We were all such little jerks.” He laughed again, “Actually, you and James were little jerks. I was just shy and afraid to be noticed. Peter was too busy hero-worshiping you to bother with anyone else. He’s always followed the people with the power.”

Sirius didn’t smile. “There wasn’t anything James or I wouldn’t have done for you.”

Remus looked confused at that. “Believe me I know that. You and James were the first true friends I had. The first people to ever accept me despite being what I am.”

“You’ve had to go through a lot from the world. A lot of hatred you never deserved. I won’t pretend to know what that’s like.”

“Sirius what is this about?”

Sirius pulled his wand out of his pocket and twirled it back and forth between his fingers, looking Remus in the eye. “Someone within the Order has been betraying us to the Death Eaters.”

“What are you saying?”

“Voldemort has a lot of basic ideas that could appeal to someone in your situation.”

Comprehension dawned in Lupin’s eyes. He stood up and looked down at Sirius in disgust. “Which ideals are those? The ones where Muggles and Muggle-borns are basically inferior species? Or maybe you’re referring to the ones where the son of one of my best friends poses a threat and therefore needs to be killed.”

Sirius stood as well. “Tell me you’ve never once thought that maybe Voldemort was in the right.”

“No never once. But while we’re passing judgment on each other,” he took a step forward until there was barely a foot between them, “Your whole family has been supporters of him from the beginning. Your own brother was a Death Eater.”

“And look where it got him!” Sirius exclaimed. “He’s dead. For all I know Voldemort killed him himself. You would dare to imply that I would be on the same side?”

“You and James are my brothers. I would never betray you. But now I’m starting to wonder if maybe what this is really about is accusing me so no one will accuse you. You are the Potters’ Secret-Keeper after all; you’re supposed to be the most trustworthy one of us all.”

They stood virtually nose to nose, two former friends with the weight of their distrust weighing down the space between them. Each of them had eyes full of rage. As if reading each others’ minds they looked down together at the wand still in Sirius’s grasp. Sirius yanked his wand arm up and Remus drew his.

Remus was faster. “Expelliarmus!” he cried and Sirius’s wand flew out of his grasp. The anger in his eyes was replaced with sadness. “You would attack me, old friend? What a sad day this is.” He turned on the spot and Disapparated.

Sirius retrieved his wand and thought about how wrong that had just gone. He had meant to figure out if his own suspicions were right, but all he had done was make Remus suspect him. He replayed the conversation and subconsciously started to pace. Carefully he thought over all that had been said and how Moony had said it. Times were so uncertain he couldn’t afford to make mistakes. Earlier his instincts had told him that Lupin was guilty. Now he wasn’t as certain. Faster and faster he paced, trying to decide if he should go after him and try to get the truth out of him once more.

Suddenly he stopped and all of the color drained out of his face. Remus had said something earlier that he hadn’t really listened to, he had been concentrating on trying to get to the bottom of the mystery of the double-crosser. Now it came back to him. “’He’s always followed the people with the power.’” He was wrong; Remus wasn’t the person he should be after.

It was Peter.

Aaaaaaah, yay Sirius you figured it out!
This is really, really great, I can't wait for the next part! =]

Schweet! Awesome job!

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Aw, the suspicion between friends is just tragic. This is good though. Keep it coming...

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This story is great. I cant wait for more posts. I couldn't imagine Sirius though thinking Remus was spilling the secrets.

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