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January, 16, 2066
I keep telling myself I'll get better at writing in this book, and you know what? I think I do worse everytime I say that. It's been weeks, I know. Mind you I have O.W.Ls coming up, and the Professors aren't preparing us at all! Not the ministry approved ones, they're not even showing us the theories of lessons we should be being taught, instead we're learning how to be ladies, how to keep ourselves primp and proper or whatever. I don't mind it, what I do mind is they're not teaching us what we need to know, to pass. Why can't they do both if they feel it that necessary for us to learn to groom ourselves? It would be more of a win, win. The real win, win will be when the ministry butts out.
Yeah, so my days have been the same almost everyday. Breakfast, a number of classes, prefect duties inbetween classes, lunch, more classes, prefect duties again, homework, dinner, study time, sleep. Sometimes other stuff gets mixed throughout that, friends on occation. It's honesty crazy, I feel like I haven't seen my friends in a long time; this probably has been the longest. When I have seen them it's still not the same, because there's just not enough time in a day to actually have fun. I can't wait till it's over, come summer everything will calm down, atleast for a month or two.
Looking back on my last entry, I might want to fill you in more, huh? Well the next day of Hogsmeade Alexis told me to meet her at the three broomsticks at a particular time, so of course I had thought nothing of it, and went. When I arrived, Curt was there too. And I knew something was up, well.. no surprise, Lex did something.
Have I said before that she said from first through third year that if I didn't tell Curt I liked him, she would FOR me. See where I'm going yet? Lexi told Curt that I said something, that I had NOT said to her, I wanted her to know before Dusty of course, but heres three reasons why it was like that: I just... spilled, it was like word vomit or something, when I was with Dusty. The next reason is because I was kinda scared she would do exactily what she did! Which you'll find out about n a minute. And third, because I couldn't find her, and I was going to once I had her alone again.
Now, if you haven't figured it out yet, Alexis told Curt that I said I loved him. once I reached the table she jumped up, explained what she said to Curt along with what she had said was a fib, and his response to me, and ran off. WHY was I surprised? Part of me wanted to laugh about it, and I probably would now. But I was briiight red. I mean I didn't get to tell him myself, he heard from an equal best friend. I was afraid to, because I didn't know what he would say. Curtis said Alexis was correct, in telling me he felt the same; It's silly. I guess we're kinda.. shy? I'm not sure, but I wouldn't say it's awkward at all, it's just.. new to us? Heheh. I dunno, don't quote me on that. (Tehe, that's great, I'm conversing with a book again.) I'm glad Lex gave us that.. push (as she called it), because I do sincerely and truly love him. I know for fact I do, and nothing will ever change that. Now I just hope Dusty and Lex kept quiet, because knowing my family, everyone will know by the time I even set foot through the front door at home. I can already image it: Nikolas waiting in the kitchen doorway, arms crossed with that stern, upset look with Jasmine and the baby sitting at the table visiting with the others. That would rather be amusing, almost funny actually. You'd have know my older brother to understand. Not that you actually know anyone.. nevermind, we're not going here again.
I haven't been able to hang out with Ari and Sam in so long, I see Alexis most, but even then it's little. I need to make time to spend with them. Alexis looks almost sick, or she had, she's doing alot better now I think. Before she was getting thinner and even a sickly pale. Dark blue and purple rings under her eyes, all because she wasn't sleeping or eating anything but sugar while I had been gone before, and even a tiny bit after. I made her talk to me, because something was wrong. I felt so bad that she hadn't told me before then, and she cried. Lex has been having nightmares on and off since Legend was a baby, since her mum died. Nightmares of her mother's death, she had been killed while Little Alexis was watching, hiding behind something, I think she was still in the park at that time. She's blamed herself all these years, Lexi honestly believed she was reasonsible for her mums death, because she ran. Ran long and hard, and didn't tell anyone when she reached home. But it wasn't her fault.. I told her that, and more. I can only hope she listens to me, and tells me things more often. Maybe she'll accept the past, and that it wasn't her fault. Then the nightmares would stop, right? But she has to believe it, honestly. We'll work on that.. together; I'm not going anywhere.
- Bored Badger ♥
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