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DH Vixen · 09-14-2011, 09:09 AM

SPOILER!!: Ex bestie?

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Originally Posted by LilFox06

"Okay. Well what do you want me to do Mina?" Carter asked throwing his hands up. "I'm sorry, but breaking the news to Anya was the last thing on my mind at the end of the term." Okay, so that wasn't exactly the truth... more like, the breakup with Caroline was in so much the fore-front of his mind that everything else didn't really matter.

"This has nothing to do with any of my ex-girlfriends. You were not thrown aside. In fact, it's pretty ridiculous to even suggest that. And the only reason she's 'back in the picture' as you say, is because she was there for me during a time you weren't." Mainly, the end of last term when she was continually off with Evan. He understood, of course, that she'd want to be with Evan during their last few months together. But she couldn't blame him for finding someone else to talk to.

His jaw dropped. "I have never lied to you. When I told you that I wanted to get away for awhile over the summer -- that was the truth. The addition to my summer plans happened after that. And that has nothing to do with this." But he wasn't going to go into why Marilyn joined him over the summer. That was Marilyn's business.

"Why do you assume it was me who messed up?" he found himself shouting. "You know what happened with Marie. I admit, maybe what I did wasn't the smartest, but I thought I was doing the right thing." Not that it mattered now of course. He and Marie were never speaking again.

As for Caroline... "Did it occur to you that maybe, just maybe, there was a reason that I was so upset at the end of last term?. Caroline broke up with me. Not the other way around." ~~And yes, it still hurt.~~

"Yes Marilyn went on vacation with me. Is that why you're so angry? You have problem with who comes on vacation with me? Mina, we're friends, best friends. Maybe I was interested in introducing Marilyn as more than a friend to my family? Does that bother you? Would you rather us do more than friend things together?"

Good thing he said that he never lied to her before he said that.

"Put who before you Mina? What do you think I did? Stayed up late one night laughing to myself for coming up with the perfect plan to get you mad at me? That I purposefully dropped my badge? That I really enjoyed not having my family speak to me? That I really enjoy being muggleborn and everything that comes with that?"

He had more things to be upset about than she did!

"Or are you really upset that Marilyn was the one that was there for me when I needed someone? Even Destiny beat you to the punch there too." ~~Or maybe she was upset that she never got to spend a summer with him?~~

If she was that willing to just walk away maybe they weren't as best friends as he thought they were.

He sighed. This was going nowhere. Maybe he should just get to the bottom line.

"Yes I canceled our plans. No, it wasn't because of Marilyn. Yes I invited her. But that wasn't because I uninvited you. Nor was it because she's more important than you."

"Seriously, I don't even what I ever expect for you to do!" Mina yelled back. "Of course, I should have realized that you would have absolutely NO tack at all! You just left her with questions. YES, I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THIS WAS TO YOU, BUT SHE'S YOUR SISTER!" Was it really that hard to put someone that was blood before himself. "You should have at least tried to talk to her about it before just running off. If I was her, I wouldn't even look at you for the way you treated this. In fact, I'm not even sure why I'm talking to you now. You handled this terrible and to make it worst, you made me feel like trash too!"

"DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO TELL ME THAT I WASN'T THROWN ASIDE! I have been constantly looked over in the SEVEN years we have known each other. I'm just poor little Mina, just one of you FANGIRLS. What you didn't think I knew about what they were all saying about me?!?!" Just because she didn't say anything about all the whispers about her being a lovesick puppy, didn't mean that she didn't know they were all talking about her. She wasn't stupid. "And what? You blame me for moving on? I wasn't going to keep waiting in the wings for you! I was there for you all that time and the one time that I want to have for my own, I'm punished for?" Seriously, was he really this blind to see what was going on? "You knew where to find me, but no you NEVER came looking for me, did you? It's was always easier to go to one of them. You did always have a thing for the blondes, but you know what? I still stood by you when each one of them broke your heart. I didn't completely shun you. I was still your bloody BEST FRIEND, but it's over now. I'm through with it all." She never replaced Carter with Evan and she would never do that. There were always going to be things that she could only tell Carter & not Evan and vice versa. She had always thought their friendship was sacred, but she was apparently very wrong.

Turning quickly, she jaw dropped as well. "NEVER lied?" she scoffed as she began to poke him in the chest. "Omission of the truth is just as much! You wanted you distance away from magic. Fine, I can understand that. Merlin, I want that sometimes too! I live in the middle of bloody MUGGLE LONDON, so I understand." Seriously, she spent a lot of her time away from Hogwarts trying to be as normal as she could. She was living amongst muggle and only using magic when needed. She truly understood, but that wasn't what upset her. "I don't care that things changed. What HURT the most was NOT BEING TOLD! I had planned on seeing you, planned on being there for YOU. And you know how I find out about the change? I have to find out from ANYA! I don't hear it from my bestie, I had to hear it from your sister! The sister that I promised I would be seeing. I had planned to so much for use to do and I was looking forward to seeing that little girl. And don't EVEN TRY to say that I had Evan over the summer! I only had TEN days with him! I needed to see Anya, she was going to be what keep me sane the rest of my summer! Do you even know how LONELY I was? Or did you even care?" She knew deep down that he did care but she had to wonder now. This wasn't the boy that she was once in love with. This wasn't the Carter she thought she knew.

Rolling her eyes, she looked at him. "Because you always mess up. You have no tack when it comes to the girls around you and I have told you that many times. You are destined to break the hearts of every girl that you come close to!" He was so dim and at one point she had found it adorable, but now it only made her angry. "Seriously, right by whom? You two royally messed each other up. There is damage there that will NEVER be undone or able to be fixed. You know I never set out to be close to Marie. Merlin, you know how much I hated her before; but I know how damaged you left her and I can't forget how it feels to be made to feel like that. You really did a number on her when you did that. No one deserves something like that and I wouldn't wish that on even my worst enemy." It was true that she never thought she would be defending that particular She-Snake, but it had happened none the less.

"How does it feel to get a taste of your own medicine? She dumped you and ended it. She took that power you had to hurt her away before you could use it. Don't you understand? The way she made you feel is the way you make a lot of us feel! That feeling of complete anguish and you can't breathe, yeah I know how that feel. I've had that feeling for the past SEVEN years, but I thought that I could control it. It hurts doesn't it? Well, welcome to my world. I won't be completely heartless and say that I'm happy that you know what it feels like, but what goes around comes around." It was pure karma that he was feeling what she had felt for so long and she hated to think that he was hurting, but she was hurting too.

"If I asked you to pick between the two of us, you would pick her. You always did! That vacation should have been the one you had with ME. You owed me that after all you put me through! I WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU FOR TWO YEARS! But you never realized did you? I was in love with you before that stupid love potion and after it, but you never looked at me that way. Just poor Mina fawning over a boy that would never see her that way. You know what being in love with you got me?" She stepped back and lifted her bangs. "A bloody scar from when your precious Marilyn hit me with a set of scales. I can't even look at my reflection without being reminded of what having feeling for you got me! You taking her was yet another reminded to me that I wasn't pretty enough for you, I wasn't blonde enough. I WASN'T ENOUGH FOR YOU. So yes that bothers me! I wanted you to introduce me to your family as just more than your best friend. I wanted to do more than friends things together. I wanted it all, but you just had to rub it in my face that I would never be that girl!"

Blink....Blink.

Yes, she had just let that all out and before she even let him reply she started again.

"I don't even understand how you can't even start to understand how you make me feel. You put Marilyn before me our whole first year, then it was Marilyn and Marie our second and then Marie our third year. You were always putting them before me. Did you ever think of how I might have felt? That second year, I was dragged to Hades and back! Do you even understand what I went through? And then our third year! I needed someone there for me and you WEREN'T there!" The dam had just completely opened and the waterworks were on their way completely now. "I really don't know what goes on in that head of yours and I don't want to know now. I don't ever want to know. If you ever wanted to now the perfect way to get me mad at you, you have found it and you have been working at it for years. I doubt you would purposefully drop that badge, but it happened and you can't just try to rationalize it away. It happened and you have to deal with it. It could have been avoided you know that, but you choose to just ignore it and not face it when you needed to. She has a right to be angry with you! You think that I'm happy to be a pureblood all the time? You think that I want to be forced into things that are expected of me. Do you even know just because I choose to come back last year, HALF OF MY FAMILY isn't speaking to me! I'm dirtying my life having a boyfriend that is pursuing a life in the muggle world! Did you even know that those summers I was sent away and those two terms I was at Beauxbatons were my family's way of trying to 'cure' me of all this foolishness! They intended to marry me off by now! Being pureblood isn't all roses either, so don't even start to tell me that you are a victim!" Seriously, the world didn't revolve around him and he needed to start realizing that everyone had problems too!

Just as she was starting to control her emotions, she heard the next words leave his lips and she saw red.

WHACK

Lowering her hand, she balled it in a fist and stared at Carter. She had never been so upset in her life.

"Don't belittle me like that! I was there for you all the time, but can you seriously say the same thing for me? When I needed you, where were you? The one time that I needed my best friend and he was off with someone else!" She was sobbing at this point. In the back of her mind, she knew it was only time before she let it all out. She just never expected it to be like this and so soon. "You didn't even give me the chance to be there for you! You just ran off with Marilyn, like you always do. And don't even bring Destiny into this! I can't hate her for being Destiny. It wasn't like she couldn't avoid being there! "

"Of course, I'm jealous and upset for being so easily replaced time and time again. I seriously thought I meant more to you, but you just proved me wrong. Again, I'm just not good enough for you, am I? You expected me to be there but the rare moment I'm not you replace me. When I needed you, you weren't there and I'm sure you blame me for that too. Don't you!" If all the stuff she had already let out wasn't enough, she was about to let even more out in her state of emotions.

"You want to know why I love Evan so much? He was there for me when I needed him. He was there even when I didn't need him and he helped me. I love him because he makes me feel that I'm good enough for him. I'm important to him." Without him, she probably would still be chasing after the thought that one day she could be good enough for her best friend. She knew she should just cut all ties to what hurt her, but she did love her best friend and nothing would stop that. "Every day he makes me feel that what I feel for him isn't wasted. You never made me feel like that; he helped me mend what you kept breaking."

"Yes, you cancelled our plans and broke my heart. You invited her and stabbed me in my heart. You failed to tell me and you just twisted that knife. You made it clear that she'll always be more important than me and there isn't any more I can really do now. I'm walking away like I should have a long time ago. You have made your decision and I hope you know that you'll probably get hurt again, but I won't be around to pick up the piece this time. I can't keep helping you when you keep hurting me."

09-14-2011, 09:09 AM	#9 (permalink)
DH Vixen Moke Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Amongst Magic Posts: 8,616 Hogwarts RPG Name: Zara Gwendolyn Monroe Sixth Year x11	Atypical Ravenclaw Bookworm // Hair Flipper Pro / / the edgy starbuckian // Hot Messie SPOILER!!: Ex bestie? Quote: Originally Posted by LilFox06 "Okay. Well what do you want me to do Mina?" Carter asked throwing his hands up. *"I'm sorry, but breaking the news to Anya was the last* thing on my mind at the end of the term."** Okay, so that wasn't exactly the truth... more like, the breakup with Caroline was in so much the fore-front of his mind that everything else didn't really matter. "This has nothing to do with any of my ex-girlfriends. You were not thrown aside. In fact, it's pretty ridiculous to even suggest that. And the only reason she's 'back in the picture' as you say, is because she was there for me during a time you weren't." Mainly, the end of last term when she was continually off with Evan. He understood, of course, that she'd want to be with Evan during their last few months together. But she couldn't blame him for finding someone else to talk to. His jaw dropped. "I have never lied to you. When I told you that I wanted to get away for awhile over the summer -- that was the truth. The addition to my summer plans happened after that. And that has nothing to do with this." But he wasn't going to go into why Marilyn joined him over the summer. That was Marilyn's business. "Why do you assume it was me who messed up?" he found himself shouting. "You know what happened with Marie. I admit, maybe what I did wasn't the smartest, but I thought I was doing the right thing." Not that it mattered now of course. He and Marie were never speaking again. As for Caroline... *"Did it occur to you that maybe, just maybe, there was a reason that I was so upset at the end of last term?. Caroline broke up with me. Not* the other way around."** ~~And yes, it still hurt.~~ "Yes Marilyn went on vacation with me. Is that why you're so angry? You have problem with who comes on vacation with me? Mina, we're friends, best friends. Maybe I was interested in introducing Marilyn as more than a friend to my family? Does that bother you? Would you rather us do more than friend things together?" Good thing he said that he never lied to her before he said that. "Put who before you Mina? What do you think I did? Stayed up late one night laughing to myself for coming up with the perfect plan to get you mad at me? That I purposefully dropped my badge? That I really enjoyed not having my family speak to me? That I really enjoy being muggleborn and everything that comes with that?" He had more things to be upset about than she did! "Or are you really upset that Marilyn was the one that was there for me when I needed someone? Even Destiny beat you to the punch there too." ~~Or maybe she was upset that she never got to spend a summer with him?~~ If she was that willing to just walk away maybe they weren't as best friends as he thought they were. He sighed. This was going nowhere. Maybe he should just get to the bottom line. "Yes I canceled our plans. No, it wasn't because of Marilyn. Yes I invited her. But that wasn't because I uninvited you. Nor was it because she's more important than you." "Seriously, I don't even what I ever expect for you to do!" Mina yelled back. "Of course, I should have realized that you would have absolutely NO tack at all! You just left her with questions. YES, I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THIS WAS TO YOU, BUT SHE'S YOUR SISTER!" Was it really that hard to put someone that was blood before himself. "You should have at least tried to talk to her about it before just running off. If I was her, I wouldn't even look at you for the way you treated this. In fact, I'm not even sure why I'm talking to you now. You handled this terrible and to make it worst, you made me feel like trash too!" "DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO TELL ME THAT I WASN'T THROWN ASIDE! I have been constantly looked over in the SEVEN years we have known each other. I'm just poor little Mina, just one of you FANGIRLS. What you didn't think I knew about what they were all saying about me?!?!" Just because she didn't say anything about all the whispers about her being a lovesick puppy, didn't mean that she didn't know they were all talking about her. She wasn't stupid. "And what? You blame me for moving on? I wasn't going to keep waiting in the wings for you! I was there for you all that time and the one time that I want to have for my own, I'm punished for?" Seriously, was he really this blind to see what was going on? "You knew where to find me, but no you NEVER came looking for me, did you? It's was always easier to go to one of them. You did always have a thing for the blondes, but you know what? I still stood by you when each one of them broke your heart. I didn't completely shun you. I was still your bloody BEST FRIEND, but it's over now. I'm through with it all." She never replaced Carter with Evan and she would never do that. There were always going to be things that she could only tell Carter & not Evan and vice versa. She had always thought their friendship was sacred, but she was apparently very wrong. Turning quickly, she jaw dropped as well. *"NEVER* lied?" she scoffed as she began to poke him in the chest. "Omission of the truth is just as much! You wanted you distance away from magic. Fine, I can understand that. Merlin, I want that sometimes too! I live in the middle of bloody MUGGLE LONDON, so I understand." Seriously, she spent a lot of her time away from Hogwarts trying to be as normal as she could. She was living amongst muggle and only using magic when needed. She truly understood, but that wasn't what upset her. "I don't care that things changed. What HURT the most was NOT BEING TOLD! I had planned on seeing you, planned on being there for YOU. And you know how I find out about the change? I have to find out from ANYA! I don't hear it from my bestie, I had to hear it from your sister! The sister that I promised I would be seeing. I had planned to so much for use to do and I was looking forward to seeing that little girl. And don't EVEN TRY to say that I had Evan over the summer! I only had TEN days with him! I needed to see Anya, she was going to be what keep me sane the rest of my summer! Do you even know how LONELY I was? Or did you even care?" She knew deep down that he did care but she had to wonder now. This wasn't the boy that she was once in love with. This wasn't the Carter she thought she knew. Rolling her eyes, she looked at him. "Because you always mess up. You have no tack when it comes to the girls around you and I have told you that many times. You are destined to break the hearts of every girl that you come close to!" He was so dim and at one point she had found it adorable, but now it only made her angry. "Seriously, right by whom? You two royally messed each other up. There is damage there that will NEVER be undone or able to be fixed. You know I never set out to be close to Marie. Merlin, you know how much I hated her before; but I know how damaged you left her and I can't forget how it feels to be made to feel like that. You really did a number on her when you did that. No one deserves something like that and I wouldn't wish that on even my worst enemy." It was true that she never thought she would be defending that particular She-Snake, but it had happened none the less. "How does it feel to get a taste of your own medicine? She dumped you and ended it. She took that power you had to hurt her away before you could use it. Don't you understand? The way she made you feel is the way you make a lot of us feel! That feeling of complete anguish and you can't breathe, yeah I know how that feel. I've had that feeling for the past SEVEN years, but I thought that I could control it. It hurts doesn't it? Well, welcome to my world. I won't be completely heartless and say that I'm happy that you know what it feels like, but what goes around comes around." It was pure karma that he was feeling what she had felt for so long and she hated to think that he was hurting, but she was hurting too. "If I asked you to pick between the two of us, you would pick her. You always did! That vacation should have been the one you had with ME. You owed me that after all you put me through! I WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU FOR TWO YEARS! But you never realized did you? I was in love with you before that stupid love potion and after it, but you never looked at me that way. Just poor Mina fawning over a boy that would never see her that way. You know what being in love with you got me?" She stepped back and lifted her bangs. "A bloody scar from when your precious Marilyn hit me with a set of scales. I can't even look at my reflection without being reminded of what having feeling for you got me! You taking her was yet another reminded to me that I wasn't pretty enough for you, I wasn't blonde enough. I WASN'T ENOUGH FOR YOU. So yes that bothers me! I wanted you to introduce me to your family as just more than your best friend. I wanted to do more than friends things together. I wanted it all, but you just had to rub it in my face that I would never be that girl!" Blink....Blink. Yes, she had just let that all out and before she even let him reply she started again. "I don't even understand how you can't even start to understand how you make me feel. You put Marilyn before me our whole first year, then it was Marilyn and Marie our second and then Marie our third year. You were always putting them before me. Did you ever think of how I might have felt? That second year, I was dragged to Hades and back! Do you even understand what I went through? And then our third year! I needed someone there for me and you WEREN'T there!" The dam had just completely opened and the waterworks were on their way completely now. "I really don't know what goes on in that head of yours and I don't want to know now. I don't ever want to know. If you ever wanted to now the perfect way to get me mad at you, you have found it and you have been working at it for years. I doubt you would purposefully drop that badge, but it happened and you can't just try to rationalize it away. It happened and you have to deal with it. It could have been avoided you know that, but you choose to just ignore it and not face it when you needed to. She has a right to be angry with you! You think that I'm happy to be a pureblood all the time? You think that I want to be forced into things that are expected of me. Do you even know just because I choose to come back last year, HALF OF MY FAMILY isn't speaking to me! I'm dirtying my life having a boyfriend that is pursuing a life in the muggle world! Did you even know that those summers I was sent away and those two terms I was at Beauxbatons were my family's way of trying to 'cure' me of all this foolishness! They intended to marry me off by now! Being pureblood isn't all roses either, so don't even start to tell me that you are a victim!" Seriously, the world didn't revolve around him and he needed to start realizing that everyone had problems too! Just as she was starting to control her emotions, she heard the next words leave his lips and she saw red. WHACK Lowering her hand, she balled it in a fist and stared at Carter. She had never been so upset in her life. "Don't belittle me like that! I was there for you all the time, but can you seriously say the same thing for me? When I needed you, where were you? The one time that I needed my best friend and he was off with someone else!" She was sobbing at this point. In the back of her mind, she knew it was only time before she let it all out. She just never expected it to be like this and so soon. "You didn't even give me the chance to be there for you! You just ran off with Marilyn, like you always do. And don't even bring Destiny into this! I can't hate her for being Destiny. It wasn't like she couldn't avoid being there! " "Of course, I'm jealous and upset for being so easily replaced time and time again. I seriously thought I meant more to you, but you just proved me wrong. Again, I'm just not good enough for you, am I? You expected me to be there but the rare moment I'm not you replace me. When I needed you, you weren't there and I'm sure you blame me for that too. Don't you!" If all the stuff she had already let out wasn't enough, she was about to let even more out in her state of emotions. "You want to know why I love Evan so much? He was there for me when I needed him. He was there even when I didn't need him and he helped me. I love him because he makes me feel that I'm good enough for him. I'm important to him." Without him, she probably would still be chasing after the thought that one day she could be good enough for her best friend. She knew she should just cut all ties to what hurt her, but she did love her best friend and nothing would stop that. "Every day he makes me feel that what I feel for him isn't wasted. You never made me feel like that; he helped me mend what you kept breaking."** "Yes, you cancelled our plans and broke my heart. You invited her and stabbed me in my heart. You failed to tell me and you just twisted that knife. You made it clear that she'll always be more important than me and there isn't any more I can really do now. I'm walking away like I should have a long time ago. You have made your decision and I hope you know that you'll probably get hurt again, but I won't be around to pick up the piece this time. I can't keep helping you when you keep hurting me." __________________ ♓ Zara ♊ Bale♓ Cora ♑ Sylvie♋Seb♐Lana